Unsent Messages

I know that you left me for her. She had a boyfriend but that didn't stop you. And the messages. I know about those too. Since then, I have always wondered if I would've been better off not knowing about the messages that placed the whole image together. You completely left me just because you wanted her instead. Was it because of something I did? Something I said? Or was it because I don't look like her. I don't have the pretty blue eyes that she does, which you told her were the prettiest eyes you've seen. I don't have the body that she does, which you told her that hers was amazing. I get it. I wasn't enough for you and probably still not enough now, only because I'm not her. I'm sure God let this happen to teach me a lesson, but I feel like I'm too young to have felt that kind of pain. Now, I have learned from it and I know my worth, which I'm sure those messages have helped me realize that. I just wish we could have fixed whatever was wrong instead of you ending it with "you've changed". That was the only explanation or "closure" I got from you. Yeah, everyone changes and eventually we learn that the hard way. But was it really worth ending it just because I may have changed? I guess I'll never know. So much for my first love.