Unsent messages to JORDAN

i really miss u and i shouldnt. i think i still love u even tho recently ive been saying im over u. its like one side is me hating u but i also still love u. fuck u. fuck u fuck u fuck u. i would go back with u if u ever asked. i would do anything for u. u would always come first. i miss u so much. but fuck u.

i just love you so much and i’m happy we are finding our way back to eachother but i need you and i feel like you just want me and don’t need me

thank you for saving my life ! i’m still in love with you but you have moved on and idk what to do anymore. i’ll be waiting here for you to come back no matter how long i may have to wait. ❤️

That night where you cuddled me in bed was the best night of my life, I felt so safe in your arms and actually loved for once.Did it not mean anything to you? I was so in love with and i thought you loved me too.Why do you treat me so different now, why don't you look at me the way you use too, why don't you love me anymore.

when i look into your eyes and see your smile , it makes me feel whole. thankyou for showing me happiness again

i can’t be for you what you want. maybe it’s just right person wrong time. we aren’t ready for this yet but maybe someday we will be. i guess we will see but i wish you’d come back

I know we've never dated, but I am absolutely in love with you and everything you do. Ever since I met you I've been in love with you. You're amazing in every way.

Ok i fucked up but don't act like you weren't talking to other girls the whole time you lied to me with so much fucking confidence and i believed you for a while and then when i found out i wasn't the only one i felt to stupid for even believing you and i was actually staying loyal to you i just wanted the same back honestly fuck you for lying to me i still love you but its not the same anymore i wish you the best always.

I hope you will eventually grow up. Please realize that you are not above anyone else. Wish u the best

lol, thanks for being there for me and cherishing me, anyways wish you well, and im sorry if i ever hurt you :)

I’ll always love you. Thank you for making me the happiest person for a little while. Please stay safe I know it’s hard rn but I’ll always be here even though you don’t want me there anymore.

i've accepted what it is. i miss us though. probably always will. just go and do what makes you happy. be who u are no matter what. fuck what people have to say, its not their life. thank you for everything, you've forever changed me as a person - for the better. x

i see every message she sends you on here. i wish you’d see them, they’re in such a happy colour. the colour of mine are the colour of the album we both love. i don’t know which is more sappy but here we are. please notice one of us because it’s killing me man

you keep putting yourself down saying heartbreaking stuff, saying
you’d never find love. if only you’d open your eyes to realise you’ve got two girls who like you. one innocent girl who doesn’t know how to translate her feelings into words. and one traumatised girl who knows which girl it is you like and it’s not her. you’re unknowingly breaking my heart by hating yourself jordan, and you don’t even know it. i want nothing more than to be there for you, to be able to play with your hair to calm you down when you’re upset, to be able to look into your eyes and tell you it’ll be okay, to look at you and to find you looking back at me instead of her..

Right before I close my eyes
The only thing that's on my mind
Been dreamin' that you feel it too
I wonder what it's like to be loved by you

how does one tell you that i think i like you when you're hooked on your ex who treats you so poorly and im just a toxic person when it comes to feelings and relationships?

I'm convinced that you and I will work. We have to, whether it's next month or in 30 years. Because now that I've met you nobody will ever make me happy like you do. Nobody's smile will ever make my day, not like yours does. Don't you get it? Nobody will ever be you. So we have to make it work. We just have to.

Secrets I have held in my heart
Are harder to hide than I thought
Maybe I just wanna be yours
I wanna be yours

i don’t know why but you feel like the center of my universe, i feel safe around you and after years of feeling unsafe, i never want to leave your side. but you’re too busy liking the pretty, innocent girl to worry about having feelings for me

I should've tried harder. I barely even spoke to you. but I was just a kid with a crush. god knows I would continue to like you for 10 years. do you even remember me?

Yo ya estaba roto, no me lastimaste , ya estaba lastimado, pero tienes la fórmula para curarme de todo

Do you really hate me that much? You never text me anymore and I feel like I've done something wrong, if I did, I'm sorry.

se borro , pero decía que si estabas conmigo ya no huiría de las canciones tristes, ni te importo cuando te lo dije.

llámame y hablemos como aquellas veces, me gustaría que recordaras lo que hablamos... te olvidas facil

lo hice mal conmigo mismo, esperaba tus mensajes , los espero, pero no esta bien que lo haga , después de todo no somos nada.

I hate you. and i hate that i hate you. you were the one person who always understood me.. i still want to call you every day and every piece of me wants you back but you hurt so badly i’ll never be able to look at you the same. i know we can never be together again.. and i hate you for it. and yet, i still love you.

You are one of the scariest men I have ever met in my entire life. You fucked me up for a long time and I still haven't forgiven you for it. Go to hell.

You were the very first person who made me believe I could be loved, and since you've left I stopped believing.

I know we won’t ever be together but I sometime picture what it would be like, there’s something between us, I can’t explain it and I think you know what I mean too. I just want us to hold hands again please

stranger who knows all my secrets. can pull me apart and break my heart. a soulmate who wasn’t meant to be. kn

i’ve always been so drawn to you. you make me feel more loved than anyone and i hate to imagine my future with anyone else. i love you more than the moon loves the stars. i’m so excited to live out everything we have planned. high school sweethearts, my love♾

Your were a really cool person and matched my energy , and if you really are gone , rest in peace mi amor but if you're not , I hope you're doing well love :}

i just want you and it hurts. for you, i would die. let’s run away and pretend that the world is pure.

I knew I loved you ever since I saw you for the first time 10 years ago when I became your neighbour.

Hi, I'm not in love with you but I do like you. You mean a lot to me and I can't wait to get closer to you. I'll wait for you.

I wish I could talk to you more, but it doesn't seem like you're interested anymore. It hurts, y'know?

I loved you and you said you loved me back. You did the thing you promised me you wouldn’t do. You picked her

i just erased everything i wrote by accident. i miss the crook of your neck. do you remember the night that we watched that movie and you were just so beautiful. i miss how happy you made me. you made me feel safe. i had you. you were the first for a lot of things, but you were the first boy to ever make my chest hurt from sadness. the physical embodiment of heartbreak. i wish i said i love you but the words felt like they wouldn’t come out. i wish i wish i wish i wish i wish. when does it stop sucking so bad?

I know you will see this at some point. If you want anything to do with me now, or in the future, you tell me right now. If you don't I am going to move on. - .my1a

when i confessed to you that i liked you, you acted so dodgey and confused when i made it clear but its fine at least now i know i didnt really like you i was just confused at the time about my sexuality. at least we are good friends now

So i know that you probably have a girlfriend but i just have to say i miss you a lot and i want you back

I like you a lot but its like you cant even tell. All I want to do is be in your arms, but idek if you even want me.

I miss you. I tell myself you were no good for me, over, and over again, but I still love you. Why didn't you see it?

LMFAO i wear lavender deodorant because you used to wear it and i loved the smell. also i love your versage perfume. idk how to spell that

how can i know if hes the one. like what if we try again and it actually works out. the what ifs are constantly on my mind. idk what the right thing to do is but he keeps me wrapped around his finger bc he told me hes not ready for a relationship rn but he wants me to stay. im ready lol. if he would find a way to cope with his problems maybe he could handle me. how do i know if im being "too clingy" like i constantly check his location and get upset when hes active but he doesnt text me back. i just want affermation from him. he tells me he cares but does he? lol anyway

lol you messed up and i didnt. sucks to suck right. im a great girlfriend usually. u lost the best youll ever get.

I was really happy with you and I dreamt of a beautiful future with you. I wish the circumstances were better. I love you

I feel like you give up on me every time you like a new girl. I'm not trying to be selfish but you said you wouldn't give up on me. I just want to know if you really are giving up.

Jordan, holy shit
you have to be one of the coolest people i have every laid my droopy eyes upon. i wish i could speak to you more often but i dont think im you type. i hope one day i might be able to build up the courage to even start a conversation

i hope maybe one day we could become closer.

Yea you left me but i still wait by my phone hoping that you’ll call me and everything will back to how it use too. i miss you so much i miss everything about you bro. i know that i i’ve never touched your skin but i have touched your soul. i love you forever and always big head