Unsent messages to JORDAN

when i first started speaking to you i did not know quite what to say. i do put on a confident front but i’m very shy. you did not seem to care and we’ve been friends ever since. here’s to many more months and years of friendship . ily

when i first started speaking to you i did not know quite what to say. i do put on a confident front but i’m very shy. you did not seem to care and we’ve been friends ever since. here’s to many more months and years of friendship . ily

I pray you see this but your gf ana legit talked sh!t about you to me and even told me to not talk to you bc of your issues so i never wanted anything to do with you anymore and now your dating. leave her trash a** for someone better dude.

I still miss you every single day. I like to think we meet up in our dreams. I guess this just wasn’t the lifetime for us.

ive known you for most of my life, and not once have i ever felt secure in our friendship. i honestly dont know how to be around you

i miss you so much i wish i hadnt said anything and hadnt left.i feel like the longer i leave it the less you'll care, if u even care at all. im always on the verge of messaging you and then i think about how youre most likely talking to her, it wouldnt be the same if i came back. im sorry i know you hate me and i understand why i just wish i could re do everything but this time do it properly.

we danced without leaving room for jesus and my friends made fun of you for your long arms. i kinda miss the days that that was all it had to be.

I know we haven't known each other for very long but you make me feel happier than anyone else ever has. You've turned my life around. even if sometimes I don't show it, I care about you so much

Your eyes are so beautiful. I love the way your hair compliments them too. It’s sad we both have to be so messed up. Who knows what would’ve happened if we werent so sad?

fuck you
you piece of fucking shit i hope you die
i was 15 you were twenty
i told you i was uncomfortable but you were horny so it was my problem
kill yourself you fat fuck

i really cannot believe i tried to fucking kill myself because of you. 1 second of my life is worth way more than all the time you spent cheating and lying, fuck you fuck you fuck you.

I wish i couldve stayed longer with you, but military life was rough. I just wanted to let you know i miss you but i have moved on and i am in a lovely realtionship

It was just a one time thing to you.. but to me it was so much more. I’ve waited for 6th months and I will wait some more.

hey jordy! theres literally no chance that you'll ever see this but maybe one day you'll come across it. i am genuinely sorry but i'm doing you a favour. i'll forever be so proud of you and i look forward to seeing your accomplishments more than i do mine - you're gonna do so well for yourself, please never give up no matter what. people love you, i love you, you have so much to live for. i'm so sorry but thank you for everything, truly. i hope you get everything you want even if the thing you want is the reason ive left. just go for it yano. you'll regret it otherwise. just try not to rub it in my face when it does happen please ahah!!! i hope you get the happiness you deserve and i have no doubt that you will. keep being the strong, compassionate and comparing man you've grew up to be. i truly wish you the best in everything. i do wanna say this was the last option, i don't see anything else i can do without destroying myself more than i already have. i hope you understand and dont hate me but its fine if you do i understand completely.
amber

My friends hate you and we always hate on you in the group chat. I wish I could tell them I love you.

Deep down I always knew we would never be anything. The stars never aligned for us, and probably never will

We haven't talked since you moved a couple years ago, I think about you sometimes and I think it's because we never got to see how far we would make it. I always wonder what would have happened if you stayed here, but if we are meant to be then God will lead us back to each other.

i broke up with you because you made me frustrated and annoyed and i didn’t want to feel that anymore. move on!!

i just want to stop myself from thinking about you. it’s too much, especially hearing so many people around me saying they think you like our friend.

I told my best friend I love you...
She said she knew. That she always did. That I've never looked at someone the way I looked at you.
Sometimes I'm afraid you'll never look back at me the same way.

God, I love you. Every waking moment is you. Every single breath I take, it's for you. It always has been.

I started leaving my notifications on in case you text when I'm asleep. You haven't yet but I'm still hoping you might.

if I had one wish it would be to tell you how I really feel without it ruining the friendship we have built because you're the one I want to be with.

we aren't anything serious yet but no one has ever made me feel so safe and respected i can't even begin to tell you how much that means to me

i seriously wish you would like me back and not play this game of yours with me because i actually want to be with you :')

You knew how much I loved you and you still lied,cheated,and used me,but I still love you and I wish I didn’t

Ummm I really loved you...but you hurt me more than anyone for cheating on me... and for all the other things. I hope you are well but, I don’t love you anymore...

este ultimo tiempo no he parado de pensar en ti, se que nunca llegamos a tener nada y que cuando yo te confesé que me gustabas solo me ignoraste, pero aquí estoy queriéndote y a la vez odiándote.

i need to let go because you don't care anymore. i need to stop tricking myself that it would be the same - those memories are one of the best memories of my life but i need to accept that they will never happen again, at least not with you. it hurt that you didn't say you missed me when i reached out to you again. 7 years of friendship gone. i still love you but i need to let go now.

u never wanted to admit ur feelings, but we both know u had them. ur pride made us hate each other, thats why i left.

You weren't my first love, but I hope you know that you were the first person who showed me genuine love. The video of the hair clip flying around your head will forever be my favorite video of you. All the late night conversations we had with intellectual questions and just picking each others brains. I'll miss it. You quickly became my favorite person and I forgive you for not being vocal about how you felt, I know you struggle with that. I got my closure and now it's time for me to move on. Thank you for the really good 7 months I'll always have a soft spot for you.

Stop featuring yourself in other people's Instas. You're far from whoever you make yourself to be online.

You never told me the truth. You said you'd be there for me and you were too busy doing something else

if i do ever leave i promise u its not because i dont care its quite literally the opposite, i care for u more than myself but when youre in love with someone else i just cant stick around. ive tried but i cant. leaving is just my way of coping. hope we can be friends again one day when im over u fully but for now i dont know. thank you for everything

i dont know how much longer i can do this for but thank you for everything u made my life so much better. take care of yourself yeah x

I’m sorry how it ended. I only want the best for you and I took the fight too far. All I want is for you to come back

you kinda made me realise a part of myself but you're also partially responsible for making me hide it, goodbye jordan

you're not my first love but i still wanted to write this. sometimes i cannot stand you there are little things you do that make me mad. but i love our friendship and i honestly dont know what id do without you. all i can say is you are def a libra. love, your favorite saggitarius

I lied about liking your favorite band, I just wanted to spend time with you. You were the first girl I ever liked, and I don't even know your last name.

What started as drunk night turned into me falling for you in the little time we spent together. There is so much history that conflicts with us ever being together and even though I was to sacred to say it then I’ll say it back now I Love U

you hurt me the way you said you never would, and i’ll never forgive you for that. you made me scared to love again, and my family hate me for loving you. they don’t treat me like i’m part of the family anymore. you left me broken and I had to pick up the pieces all by myself, you’ll never see this. but all those times you said you’d never hurt me or even try we’re just lies. you were my last chance and I got messed around with. words can’t describe how hurt I was and still am. the fact that you didn’t even say it to my face, or the fact that you said I didn’t care about your problems when I would literally beg you to open up to me. part of me thinks you purposely said all the hurtful stuff so it would push me away. and it worked, I wonder what you say to people about me. it hurts and the worst part is that you didn’t give a shit. you never did.

i've met a lot of people for the past months after we stopped talking but why am i still falling asleep with the thought of you?

I'm scared too love someone the way I loved you. Because I know how much pain I'd go through if they drift from me like you did

you were the first person i cried about him to, and you promised you wouldn't do the same. but you did

i re-read our messages every day until it became too painful. my favourite was when you said i was important

You were a waste of time. You pushed me to commit for this relationship but in the end you pushed me away. You said you loved me so early it made me get the “ICK”. Fuck you and have fun with your online girlfriend

It’s been months but they say you still have our messages. I hope you read them every night, wishing you could text me once more.

i'm sorry i was selfish and fucked up. i was really sad back then and didn't know what to do. but i loved you. you knocked me out.

I’ve never met anyone as amazing as you and I just want to tell you just how amazing you are but I’m sure the feelings aren’t mutual but I just wish they are but I might never know

I hate you so much, I can't even explain what you've done to me over time, you've ruined and I don't feel like I deserve love because of you. You manipulated and lied to me multiple times. I let it happen because you were the first guy to show love and care for me. I thought you would leave if I didn't do as you wanted. I realized over time how toxic you were. You flirted with my best friend in front of my family members and myself. You told me to go kill myself and threatened to beat me up. I feel worthless because of how you treated me. I still cry at night thinking I wasn't good enough for you, and that I caused you to be toxic. I hate myself mainly because of you. I didn't understand what love meant until I realized how complicated it can be.