I hate you so much, I can't even explain what you've done to me over time, you've ruined and I don't feel like I deserve love because of you. You manipulated and lied to me multiple times. I let it happen because you were the first guy to show love and care for me. I thought you would leave if I didn't do as you wanted. I realized over time how toxic you were. You flirted with my best friend in front of my family members and myself. You told me to go kill myself and threatened to beat me up. I feel worthless because of how you treated me. I still cry at night thinking I wasn't good enough for you, and that I caused you to be toxic. I hate myself mainly because of you. I didn't understand what love meant until I realized how complicated it can be.
