Unsent Messages

hey jordy! theres literally no chance that you'll ever see this but maybe one day you'll come across it. i am genuinely sorry but i'm doing you a favour. i'll forever be so proud of you and i look forward to seeing your accomplishments more than i do mine - you're gonna do so well for yourself, please never give up no matter what. people love you, i love you, you have so much to live for. i'm so sorry but thank you for everything, truly. i hope you get everything you want even if the thing you want is the reason ive left. just go for it yano. you'll regret it otherwise. just try not to rub it in my face when it does happen please ahah!!! i hope you get the happiness you deserve and i have no doubt that you will. keep being the strong, compassionate and comparing man you've grew up to be. i truly wish you the best in everything. i do wanna say this was the last option, i don't see anything else i can do without destroying myself more than i already have. i hope you understand and dont hate me but its fine if you do i understand completely.
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