Unsent messages to JAY

You were right about me when you told me I was someone who is messed up, I did the same thing to the new man in my life and it only gets worse from there.

you came in so unexpectedly & i never want you to leave. i love you so much i don’t know how to show it.

it hurts to know that the only reason you ever said I love u was too laugh at my answers with your friends

God you broke me. You hurt me and took a piece of me. You hurt my feelings. But, I’m stronger, I’m better, and I learned my lesson. So thank you. I wish you nothing but the best.

I think I love you but I can’t tell if I really do because you change sometimes :( and I don’t know if I want that

We stopped talking out of nowhere. but I'm sorry. I didnt know how to react to your words and you opened up to me and I left you hanging. I'm sorry. I ran away bc I didnt want to hurt you. I may not think of you in the same way but trust me... I still care about you. If anything happens you can text me out of nowhere and I will definitely hear you out if you need someone to talk to

Jay....I liked you for a while. I don't even know where the feelings came from but one day after another I began to fall more and more in love with you. I didn't say anything cause if you didn't feel the same then our friendship would be ruined. I just wish the best for you in life. I hope some girl makes you happy, I hope she is happy too and realizes that she's the luckiest woman in the world.

I liked you for so long but I got scared when you said you liked me too so I shot you down, I missed my chance forever and now we aren't even friends... I miss you so much

You made me catch feelings through a screen and then ghosted me after making me think you had maybe catch feelings too

i believe u are the one . because u are u always made sure i was happy u were what made me happy was never a dull moment with you were slowly falling apart and i dont want to we even promised that we would never do this and were doing it idk if you even fell for me as hard as i fell for you . but i just feel like i need someone to talk to and i only wanna talk to you i miss you i miss ur smile ur laugh eveything about u i miss jay please come back .

you knew how much i needed you , but you still left here i am still waiting for you to come back , and ofc i still love you just like i said forever and always . its good that you're happy bab , but i need you so just come back when you're ready . I love you forever and always

Im making this blue cause its your favorite color. you used me for sex and i still came back to you you broke my heart and never bothered to check in. i just want things to be how they used to be back in april

You were perfect to me, made me feel safe and loved, but our path had different directions. It's okey, it's life. I understand it now. Hope that you achieve everything you want in life, you deserved. You are a wonderful man. You will always have a piece of me. Miss you, Kiddo.

No matter what happens, you were still my first love. I care about you. I want the best for you. Whenever we talk I still feel a little sad.

its time to let u go. my sweet boy i loved doesn't exist anymore. you'll never understand how bad u hurt me.

Although I now know I can live life without speaking to you, I still would be happier with you in my life. Please respond, I miss you :/

I've wanted to confess to you for a while, but I never did. I know you would never like me, so I can't ever confess. You're a year older than me, so I know you probably just think of me as some gross little girl. But if you somehow might see this, and think you know that this is me, please text me. I really like you.

Hi sunflower boy you brought me so much happiness in a time when no one was happy. You showed me how deeply I could feel for someone and for that I am eternally grateful.

I wish I could tell you how sorry i am that things ended that way but we both know it's for the best if we go our separate ways

Losing my first love was hard, but losing my best friend because he ghosted me when he told me he always wanted me in his life hurt way more.

you told me not to wait for you, but here i am. i hope you're truly mine so you will come back to me.

i know you hurt them, but plz, come back, even if its just one minute, i just want to relive on memory

Its been a year to the day. why can't I let you go? why do you cloud my mind 24/7 when I know I'm not even a thought in yours.

i’m sorry i wasn’t good enough for you and that i couldn’t be the person you wanted. i knew she was there the whole time which hurt the most.

whenever you come back into my life i'm happy but I know not to get too happy because you won't stay for long I still love you, don't get me wrong but its not the same no more I am beginning to let you go, but trust me when i say i'm far from moving on as much as I wanted to keep you to myself I think its time we let each other go......and you don't know how hard it was to make that decision it took me almost 6 years you were my person. I just wasn't yours and I hope the next girl you have makes you happier than I did I wish you nothing but the best I can go on and on and on but sitting here and crying almost every night won't bring you back and won't change nothing. we just found each other at the wrong time god knows how much I love you and how I would've done anything and everything for you but not everyone is meant to be and I was just one of those unlucky ones who couldn't spend the rest of my life with the person called their first love I hope you find happiness and I'll be loving you from and distance and maybe even see you fall in love with another :( but i'm glad I got to know what loving felt like goodbye my love.....

You fell in love with me when I didn’t realise. I fell in love with you when it was too late.
I’m head over heels in love with you it’s suffocating me.

I really miss you. I’m sorry I didn’t seem interested or made an effort, I didn’t know what to do. I wish we could see each other and cuddle.

I really miss you. I’m sorry I didn’t seem interested or made an effort, I didn’t know what to do. I wish we could see each other and cuddle.

I really miss you. I’m sorry I didn’t seem interested or made an effort, I didn’t know what to do. I wish we could see each other and cuddle.

I really miss you. I’m sorry I didn’t seem interested or made an effort, I didn’t know what to do. I wish we could see each other and cuddle.

I really miss you. I’m sorry I didn’t seem interested or made an effort, I didn’t know what to do. I wish we could see each other and cuddle.

I really miss you. I’m sorry I didn’t seem interested or made an effort, I didn’t know what to do. I wish we could see each other and cuddle.

I’m really sorry that I didn’t seem interested. I miss talking to you and I really want to cuddle with you.

I’m really sorry that I didn’t seem interested. I miss talking to you and I really want to cuddle with you.

I’m really sorry that I didn’t seem interested. I miss talking to you and I really want to cuddle with you.

jay, i have loved you since we were t e n, when i found out my sexuality... i still do but you’ll never feel the same. i love you.

I know you’re doing great things. You don’t know this but I’ll always be your biggest supporter and even though it hurts that we’re no longer in contact I’m just so happy to know that you’re finally headed down the right path.

Hey it’s me. Just wanted to say that I miss you and I am doing a lot better now without you. I told myself that if I don’t hear from you then it’s a sign to move on and I think it’s time I do. I just always thought we could still be friends but I guess not but that’s totally ok because I’ve accepted that you were in my life just to teach me a lesson. Thanks dawg. Just one more heartbreak closer to finding a good person who’ll actually be there for me in my darkest and brightest days.

it hurts me that you think ur not enough, but to me ur more than enough. i love you. and i wish i told you that earlier. you were the right person but the wrong time. i hope our paths cross again. and i hope you’re happy with her. you deserve the world. sorry i couldn’t be the one to give it to you. -the girl in vegas

I liked you, but you didn’t feel the same. I can’t stop thinking about you, even now, we met at a skating rink but I really felt something, then you asked for nudes and it just wasn’t the same. anyways I like your best friend now so fuck off and go die motherfucker.

i know i didnt know you then. Yet i still blame myself for it. I want the blood of your brother on my hands for what he did to you. ilysm. im sorry i couldnt do anything. I feel at fault

Hi. I wanted to send you this months ago but I didn't. I'm finally happy. Thank you for setting me free.

You lied. Bad. There is no getting me back now. You need some serious, intense help. I hope that whoever is next knows the truth about you. You're sick, dude. Very sick. But I think I am, too, because I would still jump in front of a moving bus for you. Never talk to me again and leave my name out of your mouth. Forever. But not the forever I thought we'd have.

I wish you knew how much I missed you.you were and are everything to me.my first love,all of our memories that we created together.i will never forget you.my love for you is unconditional.

you knew i’d always have a soft spot for u. & u took advantage of that. but i cant hate u no matter how hard i try.

why did i take our time together for granted? i always thought it would last forever. i always thought there would be more

It’s currently 4:26 am, and maybe if we both didn’t mess it up we’d be on the phone right now. I’d be telling you about the dumb details of my day as you lay with one hand behind you big ass head and the other on your chest. Instead I’m here crying and missing you for the millionth time since June, while your off falling in love with a girl named Gloria. Ever since you I can’t fall in love, even when there’s a perfect guy right in front of me. One who doesn’t sexualizare me every chance he gets, one who wasn’t in denial of meeting my parents, one who cares enough to help me through all me anxiety. That of which you never even bothered to notice or help me out of. I'm tired of laying here unable to sleep, crying wondering what if? What if i had put limits to your rush to do things. What if I had been smarter and done things in order and had put myself in a place where you respected me and sincerely loved me. Maybe it would have actually developed into that kind of consuming love I longed for. Where you wouldn’t have been afraid to take my name out of your bio or tell your mom about the amazing girl you had been so lucky to find. But no, instead I’m the one crying to my sister about a guy who didn’t fight for me when there’s a million else who would. So fuck you for fucking me up. Fuck you for having me questioning what’s so wrong about me, screw you for being a constant reminder that even though I could have caviar I’m not gonna stop craving the invaluable catfish. Screw you for saying you loved me and getting me to actually love you. Because now I can’t stop, and now I can’t move on. Every single fucking thing I do reminds me of you, which is crazy because I do a lot. And the thing is I didn’t even let you in, imagine if I had.

I wish we could’ve worked out. You were one of the best things to happen to me. Our break up changed me completely, so thank you.

Nobody is you, nobody makes me feel special like you do. I wish that we worked things out because all I do is think about you.

Why did you do that to me? Why did you completely change who I was to become “perfect” for you and you still hurt me worse than anyone in my life.