Unsent messages to JAY

I wish we'd just laugh at ourselves and continue our friendship. Life is just happier with you in it.

It would’ve been nice if I heard from you. Just one message could’ve made my whole day better. I know we’re not friends anymore and I’m to blame for that but lately life has been kinda hard and I just need you like it was back then.

i’m sorry we hurt eachother so much, but the part that hurts the most is that u won’t love me the same anymore

do you know how miserable you made me feel after we stopped talking... you made me feel like a toxic person..

When I was a kid, I used to sit, look up at the sky and stars and think of what the person I loved would be like. I pictured kissing in fields or maybe on the beach. A beautiful person who was kind. You are so much more than I could have ever imagined. I never even thought to wish for someone as beautiful, kind, sweet, funny, smart, and amazing as you. You are my life’s biggest surprise. And I’m so grateful that you’re here, stronger than ever

You’ve lit a fire in me. It’s a passion that grows with each passing day. Just when I think I get used to my love for you, you’ll do something small and amazing. Maybe you’ll make me laugh, or say something so smart it makes me see the world in a new way, and suddenly there it is again—that rush of emotion, of love, that comes over me so swiftly it’s like a wildfire in my soul. I hope you know how much you mean to me, how much I love you, and how excited I am to walk through this journey we call life with you

Before I met you, I didn’t think love was for me. It was something other people had and felt. Something in movies and in TV shows. It felt more like a wish I had than something real. Now that I’m with you, love is so much more tangible. It’s something I can reach out and touch. It’s so much more than a wish or a hope (though it does give me hope, for so many things), it’s the very real, wonderful person I wake up to. The warm hand next to mine, the way you smile at me. I love you and because of that love I love so much more than you. I love myself and the world in a way I never thought possible. You’ve made that possible for me. You’ve made everything possible

I will never be the same after what you did to me. Sometimes I feel like i’ll never truly be happy again. You took that away from me.

you hurt him. i trusted you and you hurt the boy i still care about. he says you two are, doing well now but ill never forgive you for hurting him. i hope hes doing ok.

Hahaha purple like purple guy, If you were seeing this you'd probably laugh,
anyways hey sunflower, thank you for making me feel secure, less self conscious. thank you for accepting my past and helping me through the present, I really do love you and my only hope is that this lasts forever
-from Orange Boy
or pumpkin :>

I loved you so much. I just wish you could’ve treated me with respect. You were awful to me and I’ll miss you.

i miss you so much. you meant everything to me. i tried to do my best for you. we were so young and that’s probably why it didn’t work. i wish we still kept contact .

Why did we argue all the time? Was it because of your trust issues? Was it because of mine? I never really talk about my trust issues as it’s hard for me to talk about, but i started stuff up for no reason and i regret it obviously but u always got so angry at me, I couldn’t help it, i wish i could but i couldn’t. I really loved you but the constant arguing drove me away and it’s probably my fault and i regret it but i did apologise for it and u just had another go at me. I don’t know what to do i done everything i could. I love you.

i just wish you would text me so we could talk one last time. i know we shouldn’t be together for the time being, but we never had a long honest conversation about how we felt, like we said we would. you would be proud of who i’ve become. :(

yk that one trippie song that goes like “sometimes i’m miserable without you so it’s just like you’re still here” ... yea ?

ur better off without me. i’m sorry for hurting you. i still worry about you. i hope u find someone that treats you better then i did.

u felt like home to me. a safe place. in all honesty u were my first
love :( i still wanna text u after school & ask how ur day was. sometimes when something good happens ur the first person i think about telling, but its not the way it used to be i didn’t mean to be overbearing and i apologize, i just
wish things ended differently between us. if ur happy, that makes me happy. i miss u everyday & i hope ur safe. i still talk to God about u praying he protects you. i love u forever.

You're one of the reasons why I feel this,, because of my fucking daddy issues. I hate you. I'm angry. Just,, why?