Unsent messages to JAY
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: August 4, 2023, 3:53 pm UTC
i know that you can’t love me back and that hurts…
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: July 23, 2023, 10:06 pm UTC
You hurt me in ways I can't explain but I still love you.
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: July 16, 2023, 8:39 pm UTC
I miss u I regret leaving you I wish we were still together :((
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: July 16, 2023, 2:25 am UTC
i love you i’m sorry if i’m acting like this
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: July 12, 2023, 9:24 pm UTC
although you are my best friend i’m in love with you
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 19, 2021, 5:00 am UTC
I miss you so much but I was wrong when I said being friends was what I wanted. You hurt me really badly. I'm sorry.
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 16, 2021, 7:39 am UTC
the songs are about you. you are so incredibly hard to get over. i think i have it and then you look at me or text me and im right back at the start. heatwaves makes me cry because it reminds me of us in some way. i love you so much in so many ways. i'm proud of you too. you're doing amazing things. i hope if you ever find this it wont make you think of me differently. ily aj
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 16, 2021, 12:00 am UTC
Being friends with you destroys me - but I’ll do it again and again just to have you around longer - to wait if your feelings change back to before.
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 15, 2021, 3:32 am UTC
You make me feel stupid for staying with you for 3 months, because you treated me like trash. You wasted my time and my love. screw you
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 15, 2021, 2:26 am UTC
i've been thinking about you a lot lately. you've been in my dreams too. i miss you, and i hope you are well.
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 14, 2021, 8:20 am UTC
I honestly just don’t even feel like living anymore and I don’t tell u it cuz all u would say is a simple “sorry”
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 13, 2021, 5:11 pm UTC
Ur a fucking twat. U make fun of me for fucking everything. Ur not fucking funny. U and ur friends r the reason I don’t wanna go to school everyday. I hope ur life is fucking shit. I rlly hope it is. I hate u.
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 12, 2021, 12:05 pm UTC
i'm sorry i couldn't give u what u deserve. i feel like i took advantage of your feelings at the start of things but if i'm being honest i did want something serious with u towards the end. i'm sorry i put u through everything i did, u were so used with being fucked over and i feel like i did the same as the other girls b4 me, i'm sorry i hurt u. as much as i wanna reach out and talk to u again i won't, i'm not gonna disturb your peace anymore, u deserve better. u will find the right girl one day, trust me.
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 11, 2021, 9:21 am UTC
its weird because even after all that happened between us, I still have so much love for you. I hope you’re happy.
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 11, 2021, 3:28 am UTC
I know i hurt you. I fucked you up for life and i can never take that back. I don't want to be your burden, your sadness and ur anger. But fuck, fuck um i don't know how to apologize to you. But theres not a day that goes by where when i see your face and you see mine in the hallways, i know it hurts you. Im so sorry.
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 10, 2021, 11:30 pm UTC
And when I held your hands that were full of warmth compared to my cold small ones I thought you were never going to leave. And when I heard that laugh that sounds like kids at playgrounds I thought I would it hear it forever. But I thought wrong .
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 10, 2021, 3:50 pm UTC
im still waiting for you to come back. im sure my friends are tired of hearing me talk about how much i miss you. i know you probably dont even think about me anymore but i miss you so much. remember when we planned out our future together? what am i supposed to do now.
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 10, 2021, 5:27 am UTC
I fell in love with your laugh, your smile, your hair, everything about you. I miss you. please come back.
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 9, 2021, 6:07 am UTC
Hi hi hi hi
All the time I go 2 send u something and then I remember.. smfh
;( anyways hope u r doing okay
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 8, 2021, 9:45 pm UTC
It's important you know that I don't have you blocked because I don't love you anymore. It's because if you wanted to come back, I would let you. And I don't deserve that
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 8, 2021, 4:27 am UTC
you wanted me and made me fall in love you but you still went back to her. you broke me but thats okay, i still want the best for you.
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 7, 2021, 10:34 pm UTC
Didn't think i would still be so in love with you over 2 years down the line, especially with all the pain you put me through, but here we are. I've tried moving on so many times but it just doesn't feel the same with someone else, but atleast you're happy
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 7, 2021, 9:24 pm UTC
i’m glad we are friends!! i’m sorry about the stuff from the past. also did u write me one? there was one with my name and yours.
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 7, 2021, 6:35 pm UTC
I was blind to see how hurt you we're bringing to me and my heart which I beat myself up for over and over and day by day. Those late night facetime calls we're amazing in the moment but now it feels like I never should have texted you back. And now that your finally gone I feel free of the hurt and heartbreak. And I thought I couldn't go months without talking to you but look at me now (months later).
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 7, 2021, 4:22 pm UTC
I’m starting to rethink my sexuality, I want you to touch me, I want to feel/see/heal your body, I want an sexual connection with u,but your out of my way
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 7, 2021, 2:02 pm UTC
Bitch wake up it’s been 15 hours and ur boi needs their attention. Who even sleeps for 15 hours anyways cMon
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 6, 2021, 9:37 pm UTC
i’m sorry if i’ve ever hurt you. i keep losing feelings and they keep coming back. but i can’t lose you as my best friend
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 6, 2021, 2:02 am UTC
i know that in another lifetime we were right for each other. i still think about you every single day. i hate you so much but i cant even remember why. im sorry.
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 6, 2021, 1:09 am UTC
I used to think it was just wrong timing for us, it took me years to realize that you were just wrong for me.
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 5, 2021, 2:45 pm UTC
i first met u when we use to go to karate together back when we were like 11-12 . you looked a lot different :) i liked u and i would get so caught up when we would accidentally bump into each other . now, we ended up in the same highschool. although ur one grade above me, back when covid wasn’t around, we would pass each other in the halls from time to time. i wonder if u recognize me or even remember me. i still wonder if you’ve ever liked me,,
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 5, 2021, 7:20 am UTC
I miss you man . Theres not a day I dont think of you I don't care how many times we break up or you block me but I fucking luv you ok I wanna be with you I wanna have your kids and everything I dont care what everybody else say I want you and only you damn I know I was selfish but I still wanna be with you jay please bra I fucking miss you .
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 4, 2021, 10:30 pm UTC
i loved you more than i did myself, thanks for making me happy for some time, but i didn’t deserve the pain you put me thru
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 4, 2021, 6:30 pm UTC
hey. it's me, w. ull probably never see this, but i just wanted to say, it kindof hurt when u asked them out. u kept on calling me cute, and i didnt like it from anyone else, but you, i weirdly loved it. i like your laugh, and the way u think u r so hard. i like how we argue sometimes about silly things. i save every song you ever put, and ive made an album out of them. it hurts when i listen to them bc it reminds me of you. i wish id met you at a different time. ur my right person wrong time.
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 4, 2021, 12:23 pm UTC
You were so right for me. Too right for me. I didn’t deserve you, I don’t deserve you. I thought my friends were gonna think differently of me if I were in a relationship with you and that is my fault. I lied to you about so many things, you said it was fine. It wasn’t. Every now and then I remember the things we would tell each other and I just smile.. or cry. but I just want to let you know that you’re gonna make someone so happy. so so so happy.
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 4, 2021, 8:46 am UTC
I am just noticing I didn't really love you I just loved the way you made me feel and when you choose her it crushed my soul, it's been a year you guys broke up and we don't talk anymore but I miss you and wish we could have stayed friends
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 4, 2021, 2:23 am UTC
i didnt even need to romanticize your actions. you were perfect. i miss you.. too bad you had hella hoes and used me oops
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 3, 2021, 9:41 am UTC
hey babs, i wanted to stop by here to talk about a few things.
idk if u will find this,but it still feels good to write in here.
i kinda got distant,i know.
its just,i know whats gonna halen when you leave,so im trying to make it less painful as possible.
thank you for everything you have done.
you're my first ever true friend.
you mean so much to me.
and i know you told me that you leaving doesnt mean anything,and that we will still talk.
you know how much i went thru believing things like that.
i cant anymore.
anyways,i love you so much.
i dont think i will ever find someone like you ever again.
thats okay.
im sorry for the times that i was lacking.
i never considered myself a good friend,and i dont expect you to too.
but i hope i helped you,in someone way shape or form.
i love you,i hope the cycle doesnt replay again.
From: ABC
To: Jay
Date: January 3, 2021, 9:36 am UTC
I hope you are doing okay. You are deserving of so much more than I could give you. I’m sorry I ended up like this.
