you did everything to convince me you were different and right when I fully trusted and loved you, you showed me what you really were. A part of me died when you broke my heart

today is 3 years since i fell in love with you. i cannot
believe where we are now. i would do anything to be able to go back to how it used to be.

I wish we never got together. Then you could still be my best friend. But now we are just strangers again.

I just want you to know that even though we drifted apart and don’t talk anymore. I will always be there for you. You may think that I hate you but I never have. I miss you but I will never show it. I’m glad to see you happy but there is a part of me when we see each other and don’t talk, that wants to be friends again in a way. Like we both miss each other but are too afraid to say it? I don’t know it’s stupid... I just want you to know as long as your happy then I am too. I wish the best for you. Even though things happened between us which didn’t go to plan, you taught me a lot and I will always be thankful for that :)

i think i’m the only one who isn’t over it. i miss you so so much. i wish i was better at telling you how i feel.

i still can’t figure out why the great love stories almost always end in tragedy... and it hurts that we are a part of that.

I don't think you specifically will see this because I don't think you even know about this project, but I have a crush on you. yeah, me. And I'm sorry if because of that I mess up our friendship because I know another one of my friends likes you. But it's ok, I never ever make a move anymore. Just keep on breaing my heart and building it back up over and over again.

i told myself i wouldn't write any more of these but i can't help it. i just miss being in a relationship where i'm somebody's everything. i couldn't stand the fact that the feelings i thought we both had for each other was actually one sided. i'm sure u loved me, but i'm positive i loved u a billion times more.

i would've done anything for u man but i guess u just didn't feel the same. if i was in yr position i probably wouldn't have picked me either. alright this is the last message i'm sending u. love u always. goodnight

I forgive you for hurting me when you walked away. I tried to reconcile, but we all know how it ended. Hope all is well.

I tried to reconcile with you, but it went down. You hurt me in the end. I forgive you. Hope all is well.

I forgive you. I tried to reconcile with you but things went down. You hurt me in the end. Hope all is well.

i lied that wasn't the last message. it's literally 1 am right now, i did so much today. i saw so many people and went out to eat and shop. it doesn't matter what i spend my day doing because at the end of it all i can think about is u. why didn't u want me the same way i wanted u man

it's not even that i'm bawling my eyes out. at first, my eyes would get a little teared up but now not even that happens. but i have this constant knot in my stomach and i can;t stop thinking about u. and believe me i've done everything to get my mind off of u. everything.

idk if you'll ever even check to see if i wrote u back but in case u do i'm right here. hope u find your special girl. goodnight

you have no idea how happy talking to u again makes me. i know its too good to be true. dont leave just yet please.

It’s been 10 days since we cut all communication, and it hasn’t gotten any easier. I still think about you every single day.

Some days I’ll look up my own name in the archive just to see if you’re thinking about me the same way I’m thinking about you.

But I’ll never be able to know if it’s truly you or not because most texts resonate with me. After all, this is the archive for the broken hearted, the lonely lovers, and the ones that got away.

Everyday I’m fighting the urge to text you. I just want to know that you’re okay, but how could you be okay? I already know the answer to my question. It’s not worth it to reach out, but it’s also so worth it. You’re so worth it. I just don’t want to break your heart any more than I already have. I wonder if you’ll ever see these. I love you griffy forever and always.

I’m sorry I let my insecurities get in the way of our relationship. I promise I’m going to get help. I need to figure out what’s going on with me before I can focus on you

you treated me so well. im sorry i left you. i used to miss you a lot but im fine ig. im just sorry honestly. forgive me and live a good life ok? ill always keep you in the memories

i love you, im sorry i wasnt good enough for you i hope u will be back i wanted to spend the rest of my life with u i just wanted to tell u ur perfect and i want u to be happy and i understand that with me u werent but its ok i guess sorry i didnt live closer, and i was boring and dry as u said all the time im sorry i wasnt good enough i will try more i know it was because i wasnt pretty enough i will fix myself for you i promise no matter if u want me or not, but ye im to big of a pussy to tell u so hopefully u will see this website on ur fyp with all those girls u wish u could have and wish i looked like and look up ur name lol, ur funny and handsome and the best any girl that gets u is so lucky. ye thats all tho imy tho so much i cant stop thinking abt u:/

i dont understand how you can hurt me when we arent even talking. you broke ME, why are you the one being rude? all i did was apologize.

i used to think you still missed me and deep down wanted us to happen again one day. now i know you dont even think about me anymore and that destroys me. i wish you had never left. i still love you.

every time i see something for christmas it reminds me of your family. i miss them more than anything. i would do anything to spend one more holiday with them.

u dont hv to even respond to this im just praying u see it tho.

i'm so blunt with people sometimes and i don't think about what i say before i say it. i made a huge mistake. just hear me out okay? a huge part of me only said that because i wanted u to get jealous and still care abt my guy friends, if u don't believe me tho:

one of alex's friends texted me and told me some really nice stuff he had said about me and i just thought that some stuff he said was really really nice. i only started to think he was kinda a tiny bit cute the very last time we hung out. even then he didn't even come close to u. i was being a huge hypocrite, but u told me i could hang out with him alone. i told u that u could hang out with your girl friends alone too. it was all just kinda going downhill for us and i built up in my mind that u had feelings for somebody who wasn't me even though that's not true. i also tried to convince myself that because he was nice, into me and popular that i should think he's cute.. just about a week before we met, me and alex were in the loft watching a movie when he looked at me and told me he wanted to date me. u know what i said? i said nothing. he asked what i thought and i told him i wasn't ready for a relationship.. the next week i asked u for your snap and had u over. after we started hanging out together i went so long before seeing him again. i do not want to be with alex. i never wanted to be with alex. i had so many chances to be with him, but i never took any of them because i loved u. hell even before i met u i didn't wanna be with him. i only ever wanted to be with u. i know you're pissed because i think the last thing u said before u blocked me was fuck u, but i don't care. sure it hurt but u could ask me for advice on how to ask out ella and i'd tell u. literally call me every bad name in the book and i'd just be happy to have u in my life. no matter what u do, you're always going to have a piece of my heart. i'm sorry and i hope we can be friends again someday. i'm so sorry. hope u see this and it changes yr mind at least just a little bit

holy helllll ur so hard to read. i can't figure out if ur actually into me or if ur just using me for sex & it's so incredibly infuriating. i'm into u. i have been since the first time he hung out. u live in my mind rent free & i don't know how to evict u. everything u do is perfect. u make me feel safe. like we are the only two people in the world. i just wish you'd tell me how u actually feel so i know if i'm just wasting my time. but anywho thanks for making me laugh and for helping me develop my love for country music and for keeping me warm that one night :)

i forgot to say this when we last messaged. but i finally got my closure from you. that was all i wanted from you. thank you for playing minecraft and roblox with me. i wish we could have a longer story, but i guess we weren't meant to. i hope you find your happiness and i will find mine. good luck in college. i guess this is it. i'm officially letting you go. treat the next girl well. Because of the feeling of your safety being uncertain was one of the worse feelings ever. don't let her have that, okay? love u always.

I don't understand how it was so easy for you to return to seeing me as nothing more than a stranger.

i try to write a song about him, because he's new and he's exciting and he's what i've been looking for. but it never works because there is nothing there, nothing from me to him but so many things from him to me. everything i ever felt for a guy has been for you. i just didn't know it.

so i turn on my desk light at one am again and write down words to you that i could never say because i have so many of them. i just feel terrible that they are not for him. they should be. they're supposed to be. but i always come back to you.

my mom told me to wait for you. wait until you're ready. i know you're the right person. maybe it's the wrong time, but you're the one for me. i didn't realize that until i just barely said it but it's true. i don't think i would be able to live without you.

i wouldn't be able to live without you.

it’s hard knowing i’m not with the boy who took my virginity. i love you but if i could go back i wouldn’t have met u.

ah I liked you for a bit and I thought you felt the same way until I realized you acted the same around every girl and I was just another one to you

I can’t even begin to express how shattered you left me. The minute I found out you were with her my heart dropped and I couldn’t breathe. Dating my best friend is unexplainably painful. You told me you loved me and I opened up to you. Thank you for nothing I guess.

hi if you ever see this i can't get over u. i already want u back but i know i've messed it up too many times.

if you really want to know why i ended things ill be honest. it wasn't the distance, it wasn't the feeling lonely and it sure as hell wasn't the losing my virginity to you. it was her all along. and it makes me feel sick to know that she's always gonna be there for u and i can't be. all the memories you've made with her. you've known her for years. i dont care if you're doing virtual school right now or if you haven't snapped her in a week. you're telling me if she was the only person you knew in your class u wouldn't spend time talking to her? i feel so hurt right now and no matter what you say nothing is going to change that. the way u talk about her and the way that every funny story u tell me has her being a part of it. loving u has done nothing but hurt me. the bad doesn't outweigh the good. i have so much hate right now i'm so mad and i don't know what to be mad at. i loved you so so much man but it was always her so u know what? fuck it. fuck you fuck her and fuck this entire relationship. i'm blocking u for the last time. we are never talking again. i'm so done with love. my heart has never felt this broken. just fuck off.

I made this green. Your favorite color. You will never see this but I’m still here. If you decide to come back..

I keep our old memories in a drawer. I know you don't feel that way anymore. It just feels nice knowing you really used to.

i don’t know if i was in love with you or if i was infatuated with you. i still think about you sometimes. but i know you have already forgotten me.

i was abt to fall asleep and i suddenly wanted to check here just in case u wrote me something. i'm glad i did. it would surprise me if a day that i didn't think of u were to ever come. i love you too and what a shame this didn't work out.

it's just the way my personality is. i know u think u overthink and get jealous but believe me when i tell u it's nothing compared to the feelings i get. but u also don't understand what your friendship with her looks from my perspective. you used to like her, i dont think there was a single time since i met u that she wasn't either #1 or #2 on your bsf list. can't forget abt those saved messages that i accidentally saw when u scrolled up a lil too far. also u would randomly talk about her. this was before i mentioned that i was uncomfortable abt her to u, but still i mean it's the thought that counts. i sorta think there's a lot that could've happened to make this different but maybe i'm wrong and in the end we weren't ever going to work out anyways. no actually there was a lot that could have changed this. oh well, hopefully your next girl lives closer and doesn't mind the pretty girl bsf as much as i did. i'm so sorry for wasting your time and money. don't get me wrong i love u but don't wait for me bc on the off chance that i do come back, it'll only be as a friend and nothing more.

hi one more. i'm stuck between whether this is on me because i'm a jealous bitch or if it's on u because no girl would want to date a boy who's in love with somebody else. i do feel that u gave her a lot of attention and i just wasn't comfortable with that. idk if this sounds bad but i pictured u cheating on me with her a lot. in my head u liked her more than u liked me but she rejected u so i was second best. this relationship is not one i would like to revisit in the future bc now ella is all i associate u with.

I dug myself into a dark hole and you filled it with love. Sitting on the boat at sunset made me realize I want to watch the rest of them with you, I want to lay with you until every star is counted, till we’ve seen every phase of the moon 1,066 times . You will never know the happiness you have given me.

u have given me reason to believe u would still like her. a lot of reasons. with my guy friends tho im constantly telling u i would block any of them for u. even before i met u i didn't compliment them. ive told u how i feel abt her, would it hv killed u to maybe unadd her so she was lower on yr bsf list? we don't click the way we thought we did. there were so many things i just didn't mention that rly did hurt me. we're so over rhis is so pointless.

yr always gonna b close w her :( its ok tho ull find a girl who doesn't mind that and ill find a guy wo a girl bsf

u were my first crush ever and I miss u every day even tho u don’t like me anymore. u made new friends and I understand that. please come back.

Every day I want to text you, but I never do. You have to heal and grow without me. I love you always.

i didnt do those last two black ones in case u were wondering. if yr ever bored and wanna stop by i'll always let u. if u think im toxic then lets b toxic together.

hey griff, I know it's almost been 2 years since we broke up there are still times where I wonder how happy we could've been. We only dated for like 7 months but to be honest with you, I haven't felt that happy with someone else. You were the one that I didn't think I had to let go of. Sometimes I wish I can talk to you about what really happened, but then again it's been so long it's like nonsense to talk about it. Anyways, I hope you're happy and I wish you the best. Always.

im afraid that you won't love me. how do I tell you I like you when we don't even talk to each other?