Unsent messages to F

you still love me.

we both losing

do u think of me every time u listen to frank ocean???

dont let me go

hi, i miss you. i hope to see you soon, ma'am.

i miss the way u used to love me

i wish you cared as much as i do

you mean so much to me

i love you so much but i shouldn't

I just want to know why.

i wonder if u know its me i wish i could properly apologize

i just want us to have a chance this time

I had a dream about you last night

When will you see that is you and me and no one else?

I just want to be loved the way I love

why did u stop caring about me what was it that turned you away?

i js wanna hear ur voice again, i miss u

i love you :( i miss you

we could have had so much if we had met at other times </3

I hope you think of me as often as I think about you

Cause your just a man, it’s just what you do

I wonder when will I ever kiss you for the first time

you hurt me in a way i cannot describe

we've been friends for a long time. can you believe how much time has passed? i like to think that our relationship is picture perfect, but if there's anything i regret from our friendship, it was making all those stupid flirty jokes with you. fuck that, hah. i think i've fallen for you. every time we pull away from a grasp, i always yearn for more. whenever we talk, i wish i could squeeze in another sentence for you, all to hear your stupid laugh again. i want to look and adore you for ages, to listen to all the tiny stories you'd ramble on about forever. i always want more from you. but i know that i'm not ready. i know you're not ready. i don't want to push these feelings away like i did with everyone else, but it's for the best. i'm still hurting, i'm not in a good place at all. it's too soon, or perhaps it's too late. i need to grow. we need to learn.

you'll never hear these words come out of my mouth, but i love you. i love you so much, more than anything. you mean so much to me. i'm so sorry i can't be up and honest with you. i'm sorry that i don't have the guts to tell you how i actually think about you. until then, let's remain the way we are, feelings lingering deep inside me. let's carry on holding hands without a care for the world, without facing the truth. let's remain clueless, it's for the best.

We were great friends then you fucked me up, so badly. It's been some time since it happened but it still hurts to know you could do something like that to me. Nonetheless, I hope you are happy and good things go your way.

Sabes? Siempre quise que todo sea como en un libro pero uno con final feliz, la vida a veces puede ser tan hdp y te manda todo lo contrario y vamos soy feliz, claro que lo soy, tengo serlo ¿No es así?, pero que pasa si el motivo por el que quieres terminar de una vez con todo esto es el mismo motivo por el cual tienes que seguir adelante?, solo quise que me mostraran afecto e interés, eso era mucho pedir? parece que para ustedes si, ni siquiera puedo recordar los momentos en los que "era feliz" con ustedes, y bueno seguro que dirán "la adolescencia" y puede que tal vez sea eso o puede que no y todo se haya salido de las manos, solo pido un poco mas de comprensión.
*si alguien esta leyendo esto, tranquil@ no me pienso matar ni nada pero escribir esto realmente desahoga.

Me arrepiento de haber enamorado de ti,cuando vos no me dabas chance.Me hiciste tanto daño que decidi dejarte ir y empezar una vida sin ti.No quiero ser ni tu amiga ni nada,quiero ser una completa desconocida para ti ya que si soy eso podre olvidarte más rapido y dejar de romper mi corazón.

cada vez que te veía era como ver a las estrellas, eras tan brillante pero a la vez estabas tan lejos de mi, aunque se que no estaremos juntos lo comprendo, solo quiero que seas feliz y que puedas cumplir tus sueños, tu sonrisa era lo que buscaba cuando lloraba, aunque no pueda hacer nada directamente por ti, solo espero que en serio sonrias y si pasas por momentos malos recuerdes que nunca sabremos de la verdadera felicidad si no pasamos por la tristeza

Fuck you, fuck this absurd perception of reality you've conjured where you can never do let alone be wrong

a pesar de la distancia quiero que sepas que nunca sentí algo así por alguien, espero algún día conocerte

I loved traveling through time with you, from the Beatles to Simon &amp; Garfunkel, you were my music!

se avessi saputo che quella sarebbe stata l'ultima volta che ti avrei visto, avrei preso tutto il coraggio di questo mondo e ti avrei abbracciato forte.

tbh i don't know what i'm still doing here. it's so confusing... i told my friends i was over you and for a while it was true but tell me why my heart still skips a beat when your name pops up on my screen. i hadn't thought about you all autumn and winter but then you had to text me. i know you meant it in a friends type of way but i guess a spark of my love for you hasn't died yet. i wish it had because being just friends would be cool. anyways, i'm gonna stay away from you for a while so hopefully we can be normal again someday.
why you though?
i mean what's so special about you? honestly i think it's beause when i first caught feelings for you i was in a great place in life ( happy, confident, many good friend and all that shit ) and i think that letting go of you would feel like letting go of that version of me. but it's time to let go. that way i can be a newer, even better and happier version of me. it's better for both of us...
the sad thing is that you'll probably not even notice cause we don't talk anymore. ok, that's all i had to say. i hope you're happy with your new chick;*)
- a (again and hopefully for the last time)

i started this text over and over not knowing what to say, we never knew what to say, atleast i didn’t and we never really spoke. i wish you had atleast said goodbye, but all you did was walk by with your eyes in mine.

i just want to know why you did what you did, if you still miss me, if you truly ever loved me, why u stopped.

i felt numb before i met you, even if you didn’t believe me... i did really like you. im not really sure what happened but i miss you, you deserve nothing but happiness and im sorry i couldn’t give you the love you deserved. don’t change for anyone, there’s an incredible person under that tough front you put on. thank you for showing me love for the first time.

i realized you were never as good a friend as i was to you. sad things ended the way they did but it's so much better without you.

i love you; and i messed up. i made a mistake, that you won’t let go, i’d let go 1000 mistakes for you to just come back. but instead i’ll let you go. no need to chase what doesn’t love me anymore.

you are the prettiest flower i’ve ever come across. and i’ve visited tons of gardens, but none of them are quite like you. i wish i didnt still like you so much. i want to see other flowers’ beauty without comparing them to you every damn time.

Me encantas, siempre me encantaste, pero nunca pudimos dar el primer paso, y nuestras vidas se separaron y ahora que volviste, eres la persona correcta en el momento equivocado. Siempre te tendré mucho cariño

You were the best mistake i’ve ever made. I hope i was good enough. Even if you left me shattered, it’s impossible for me to hate you, cause you were the reason why i used to smile every day. Did i do something wrong? was leaving me worth it? have you found someone better? why didn’t you say goodbye?

I never let go. Never let go of the thought of you holding me, never let go of the thought of you kissing me, never let go of the thought of you loving me. I never let go...

Hi, this is in red because although there are colors I think would fit better here, red reminds me of you because of your Chicago Bulls cap you used to wear in sixt grade. I wish I could have been better to you, please know I've always love you and that will last forever. I know you're probably having the best time of your life now so that's why we don't really talk anymore but I miss you so much.

I wish i couldve done something to make you stay. sometimes we still make eye contact and i feel like that feeling is still there

Hola, de verdad lo siento perdoname, no tenia idea del daño que te hacía pero gracias por abrirme los ojos y decirme que todo estara bien te lo agradezco todo y bueno solo queda continuar con nuestros caminos que no se unirían pero lo que paso fue lindo gracias por todo que seas feliz.

i wish u would pay attention to me. the little things big things. just anything. it’s like you don’t even care anymore. but i cant seem to wrap my head around why. was it me ? did i do something ? did you mean it when you said you love me? was anything you said true ?

Me hubiera gustado que no me hayas ilusionado después de darte cuenta que no sentias nada, me hubieras ahorrado lagrimas y angustias. Sin embargo, me hiciste comprender muchas cosas, como que en el amor a veces se gana y a veces se pierde, y que no hay que entregarse tan rápido a una persona o tal vez sí, pero hay que procurar que esa persona de todo de si mismo también.
Gracias.

Realmente no se que es lo que hice mal para que me trataras así, entiendo si no fui la niña de tus sueños, la más linda, la del cuerpo perfecto, pero fui la que siempre te perdonaba cada error, la que te acepto tal y como eras y lo único que hiciste fue decepcionarme de todas las maneras posibles. Y la verdad es que odio tener que obligarme a superarte, porque se que será muy duro, pero también se que será lo mejor.

I thought we would be together forever.
You were the first person I’ve ever loved but now we’re strangers.

i honestly tried to make it work but everytime you just give up. even when you’re the one that hurt me. i hope she was worth it.