Unsent Messages

tbh i don't know what i'm still doing here. it's so confusing... i told my friends i was over you and for a while it was true but tell me why my heart still skips a beat when your name pops up on my screen. i hadn't thought about you all autumn and winter but then you had to text me. i know you meant it in a friends type of way but i guess a spark of my love for you hasn't died yet. i wish it had because being just friends would be cool. anyways, i'm gonna stay away from you for a while so hopefully we can be normal again someday.
why you though?
i mean what's so special about you? honestly i think it's beause when i first caught feelings for you i was in a great place in life ( happy, confident, many good friend and all that shit ) and i think that letting go of you would feel like letting go of that version of me. but it's time to let go. that way i can be a newer, even better and happier version of me. it's better for both of us...
the sad thing is that you'll probably not even notice cause we don't talk anymore. ok, that's all i had to say. i hope you're happy with your new chick;*)
- a (again and hopefully for the last time)