I cry every single night because of you and you dont even notice or care:) I hope that my love for you will fade as yours did for me.

You don’t know how much you hurt me when you said that I’m an amazing girl and that you wish for me that I’ll find someone who will love me back. I was already in love with you.
J

i have always hated my name ever since i was little, but ever since i heard you say it, i despise it even more now.

I tell everyone I've moved on and I'm ok but when in reality my heart still aches for you. I hope your as happy as you seem I just got you back as a freind so I'm scared to tell you I still miss you. Love you forever and always x.x

will i ever think that somebody could actually like me ever? you fucked me up big time. i wish we never met, i wish i could go back to how i was before when i actually believed i was loveable.

last night i had a dream that my dad randomly decided to take me to see you, i woke up before i got to see you. i wonder what it would be like if i got to see you again now.

(for fernanda)

last night i had a dream that my dad randomly decided to take me to see you, i woke up before i got to see you. i wonder what it would be like if i got to see you again now.

(for fernanda)

I wish I never had my abortion.
It was the best for us then and there, and I do not regret it, I just wish that my kid had a father like you. You are amazing.

cada vez que te veía era como ver a las estrellas, eras tan brillante pero a la vez estabas tan lejos de mi, aunque se que no estaremos juntos lo comprendo, solo quiero que seas feliz y que puedas cumplir tus sueños, tu sonrisa era lo que buscaba cuando lloraba, aunque no pueda hacer nada directamente por ti, solo espero que en serio sonrias y si pasas por momentos malos recuerdes que nunca sabremos de la verdadera felicidad si no pasamos por la tristeza

Me arrepiento de haber enamorado de ti,cuando vos no me dabas chance.Me hiciste tanto daño que decidi dejarte ir y empezar una vida sin ti.No quiero ser ni tu amiga ni nada,quiero ser una completa desconocida para ti ya que si soy eso podre olvidarte más rapido y dejar de romper mi corazón.

i really hope your next bitch takes your heart and shits on it then shatter it like how you did to me, die.

Everyday I realize mine was not romantic love for you but fear of never being loved. It was an illusion for both of us.
I'm sorry.

i wish i could've made you stay.
the world isn't colorful anymore without you and your sunflower is dying

I wish you wanted me for my smile, my mind, my heart, not my body and my ability to keep a secret....

you don’t owe me anything anymore and i understand why you chose her, it just hurt me more than you can know

please respond. leaving me on read for days hurts more than such a simple act should. please show me you don't hate me.

spoke with someone today that almost had your name

... and almost had the same number

... and lived on a fucking street that just so happens to be in my top 5 fav words



the fucking irony






braindead

I really liked u, I did, and I wanted to tell u but I'll never have courage to even admit it. so goodbye...

i want you to know that you’ve been the best friend i have ever had, i’m sorry it ended this way. I miss you and i still love you

i still can´t believe that you let me go so easily, you said that we´re soulmates, that I was the love of your life, why? why you did this to me? it´s been 6 months now, when will you stop hurting me?

remember that letter you wrote me, fuck you it didn't mean anything to you
-if your thinking this is about you, it is

Sabes? Siempre quise que todo sea como en un libro pero uno con final feliz, la vida a veces puede ser tan hdp y te manda todo lo contrario y vamos soy feliz, claro que lo soy, tengo serlo ¿No es así?, pero que pasa si el motivo por el que quieres terminar de una vez con todo esto es el mismo motivo por el cual tienes que seguir adelante?, solo quise que me mostraran afecto e interés, eso era mucho pedir? parece que para ustedes si, ni siquiera puedo recordar los momentos en los que "era feliz" con ustedes, y bueno seguro que dirán "la adolescencia" y puede que tal vez sea eso o puede que no y todo se haya salido de las manos, solo pido un poco mas de comprensión.
*si alguien esta leyendo esto, tranquil@ no me pienso matar ni nada pero escribir esto realmente desahoga.

i want you to know that you’ve been the best friend i have ever had, i’m sorry it ended this way. I miss you and i still love you no matter what and i hope you love me too

i love you much i cant even explain it like I want to hug you and kiss you and smile with you. i just want to tell you how much I love you. but im too scared right now, idk i just cant say it to you. you probably dont feel the same way and we will stop being friends. thats the last thing i want to do. youre just too perfect for me right now and im just the thing you need right now. you need love and affection you need kind words you need hugs... i just cant give you those things right now, which im so sad about. i dont know how to fix this mess. we have so much tension and i would do much more good for you if we were in love. but i think im the only one in love. but there is hope. everytime i see you youre so much happier with me and youre so relaxed with me. you can tell me anything and you just know i wont judge you. i just love you that much. i will always go out of my way to make you feel better. i just cant stop loving you. i never think of any of your bad traits and think well youre a bad person. i cant do that. i just cant. i love you too much. i just wish i could express that love to you.

I‘m super hurt that you pressured me so hard to give you a bj. You knew i dont want to but you like it huh? I expected more..

Yesterday I listened to a song about a girl banging her exes best friend. It included all the stupid things I said to make myself feel better about what I did. I couldn't unclench my fists until it was over. I am so sorry I ever fell for him...

as I shouldn't even know about this I can't even scream about it to your face, but I can't FUCKING believe that you dared shittalk my boyfriend for getting with me HALF A YEAR AFTER WE BROKE UP when you tried fucking another girl not even ONE FUCKING MONTH after our breakup. you are so not who I was in love with for those 5 years. and I have no fucking clue who you are but I hope this helps me get over how shitty I felt about dating a friend of yours. Because you are no better. Glad to finally know this, asshole.

You were the right person, it was the wrong time. I wasn’t ready for anything and ready was all you were. It’s too late because you’ve moved on to someone and you love each-other more than anything. It wasn’t you, it really was me.

Why was I never enough for you I did my best I really did but you always chose other girls over me and I’m in pain

You turned into someone I no longer recognised and resent you for that but I can’t seem to let you go

I dumped the most beautiful friendship I've had because of you and for what.
I don't miss you now, but I grief my lost friendship. I loved her.
You need to understand that you can love many people, you selfish b***.

I know we joke about it but I cant tell if you know or not. Everyone tells me you feel the same but I do not believe them.

I don’t like the fact you re stealing my precious time that I should be spending with “m”. I just don’t like I hate it. You’re not the center of it all, it’s muy life and I want you to be really far from it as it was before. You are just ruining everything idc. I DONT LIKE U

i love you; and i messed up. i made a mistake, that you won’t let go, i’d let go 1000 mistakes for you to just come back. but instead i’ll let you go. no need to chase what doesn’t love me anymore.

What did I ever do to you to make you want to hurt me this bad? I just wanted you to love me the way that I loved you. Now I'm left with a broken self image and trauma for the rest of my life.

I‘d do anything to lay on the grass, look at the stars and talk about silly things with you one last time.

I wasn't lying when I said that I loved you, hell I still fucking do. yet every time we talk I feel so exhausted, I'm always there for you and you know I always will be but why can't you do the same? is that too much to ask of you? Am I being selfish here? I know you say you’re bad at comforting and all but guess what so am I yet I still fucking try for you. Guess you can't do the same,huh? I don't hate you for this surprisingly, i've told you this before but i don't think i can hate you. Do you really love me though? Do you need me in your life? Or do you want me in your life?

i realized you were never as good a friend as i was to you. sad things ended the way they did but it's so much better without you.

u bitch. fuck u bitch. wasted so much of my time. took my virginity. fuck u i have sooo much hate for u.

We were great friends then you fucked me up, so badly. It's been some time since it happened but it still hurts to know you could do something like that to me. Nonetheless, I hope you are happy and good things go your way.

I wish you made time for me. I begged you to. I feel like you’re going to fall in love with that bitch. I hate her

i’ve liked u ever since we were younger and four years after the last time i spoke to u, one day u reached out randomly. i thought u liked me but one day, a few months later u stopped replying. stupid talking stage. i miss u. i hope u reply soon.

Please tell me that nothing hurt you, 'cause if tonight I can see the moon, please tell me that you can too

you can do better, she is great but not for you. you always had so much love to give, it nearly smothered me. please give it to someone truly worthy, who sees all the stars in your eyes like i once did.

you made me soft... you're still the only reason i can ever cry. i am ready to be warm again, with or without you.

you don't even know it but the sight of you still brings me to tears, you are always warm in my heart

i felt numb before i met you, even if you didn’t believe me... i did really like you. im not really sure what happened but i miss you, you deserve nothing but happiness and im sorry i couldn’t give you the love you deserved. don’t change for anyone, there’s an incredible person under that tough front you put on. thank you for showing me love for the first time.

I really dont want to continue with this, i dont want to be with you anymore, but idk how to tell you...

After 3 years, there's not a single day I don't think about you and how I fucked things up. I'm sorry.

i never loved anyone as much as loved you, that’s why it’s so hard for me to let go. you’ve already moved on and it fills me with anger, did our months together mean nothing? i’m tired of trying, trying so hard for you your attention and love. we lost each other once and found each other again, and i’m not trying to make this the last. and you’re making it really hard because i won’t let go of you, no matter what i say or do. you will never leave the piece in my heart that you own. but please give me something, anything, at all. i need you