Unsent messages to ADRIAN

u suck a lot but I’m in love with you lol. Why do u have to be so intelligent and so to yourself, I love it. But fr I don’t catch feelings so ??‍? bye

how could you say you didn’t like me that much if i had a crisis choosing between you and someone else. regardless, thank you for keeping in touch. you’re a great friend.

I really wanna talk to you, idk how tho, i need to focus on myself though but in about 3 months, when i finally get the courage to swipe up on one of your stories, youll be mine. We barely even know each other but you seem like a chill person and you can dress very well lmao. I feel like we'd be good together.

You taught me to love when thought I never would be able to. You also taught me what true pain feels like. Thank you for showing me how to feel again. I'll love you forever.

It’s ironic because we would get into silly arguments fighting about who loves who more. But based off of you’re recent actions that lead me to cutting you off it’s clear I win, definitely don’t feel like a winner!

Deciding to cut you off this time is different, because I know I’m actually done with you. It hurts so much and I miss you so much. Goodbye I still love you :)

I always had the weirdest urge to say “I’m in love with you.” randomly. I could never tell you so I would playfully say “I’m so obsessed with you.” instead to suppress that urge.

not u talking shit about me (lowkey fan behavior)n e waysss, u were a rude bitch, u also made me feel like a really bad person when we started talking, like i was the problem?girl noo?

we had something so special man.. we are just friends now but my heart will still always have a place for you and our love.

i always will love u ,not at the same form but you stell here in my heart, like a missed love, like a friend, like a stranger, like u

It took me so long to get over you, but at the end of the day I feel like it always ends with you. And I hate myself for it

It's been 3 years, and sometimes you pop in my head. I shouldn't be missing you, but at the silent hours of night I always am.

I truly don't miss you, I've learned to overcome our differences and out heartbreak. But some nights, I just wanted to be in your arms. At the end of the day, no matter how much distance comes between us I will always love you.

I loved you so much and I didnt know how to communicate that to you, and now that youre gone the feelings for you i never let out are tearing me up inside

hey ive been noticing things arent the same as they used to be and was wondering if it was anything i did.

hey,
its been a while since ive last seen and talked to you. i hope your doing well, as always. but i also hope you know how you made me feel, worthless, used, unloved, and unlovable. i used to think that you loved me and all i needed was love to stay with you, but no, never in a million years is that enough for someone. in a relationship you need friendship, commitment, communication, respect, loyalty, trust and especially love. between us, we didnt have half of those things and it sucks bc i really really loved you but at some point i had to put myself first for once. ik even then you left me twice for someone you always told me not to worry about, and eveytime i believed you, like a fool. by now your probably with her, and yk who, eveyone does, what a shame. you really brought me back to the lowest point in my life that took me three months to get out of, all because you gave me that stupid look in english. i wish you wouldve loved me like you said you did, i wish we were back in 2019 so i can still have the old you back. i hate this new person that youve become, you arent the man i once fell in love with back then, now your just 'that one person'. i have more to say but its not like your ever going to read this.
goodbye c.

i started to like u literally 3 days after i came to sawyer . you liked ty and i couldn’t change that . i didn’t know why i liked you , but i did know that u liked her for her personality , not that many people like others for that . mainly they like them for their appearance . a lot of people asked me what i saw in you and i honestly didn’t know . but i liked u for almost a year , i think like 10 months . but i kinda lost feelings since we never talked and i just knew u didn’t like me like that . but every time a notification pops up and it shows ur name , i get happy :)

I don’t miss you at all. I found someone that truly loves me for who I am and would do anything in there power to keep me happy. I love them sm but i am so thankful for meeting you and for loving you as much as I did because you taught how to love myself after you left me in pain, you taught me to never trust again, you taught me that I didn’t need you. You caused me so much pain.

i miss you. we never dated or anything but you made me feel like i was the happiest girl in the world.. now that’s gone lol.

I'm not even completely sure that I was ever in love with you. I think I fell in love with the idea of you. We were way to similar to each other and maybe in another world we would be together and that would have been cool but I know realize I never loved you. I just loved the thrill of being with someone that was so similar to me and about having a beneficial relationship so secret that I would be embarrassed if it got out. So I never loved you I only loved the idea of you. Its sad that I've just now realized that but I at least I finally did. you were a nice guy and I hope everything works out the way you hopeplan it to. some times it think about if you ever think about me.like if I just ever pop into your head and you just think of me. i always wondered that because sometimes you pop into mine. Its for the best thought because we wouldn't work out and I've lied to you so much and you have no idea. so it kind of hurts I guess but I also wouldn't have it any other way. so I guess what I'm trying to say is forget about me adrian because I already did. Goodbye adrian.

they all loved you. but i was there. silently watching them have more of a chance than i do. and i only admitted it now.

What happened? Those weren’t the three words I wanted hear. Did you give up or is that rlly you? Why did you give up? I was real, you’ll never get someone like me again. I’m trying to let you go too. But every guy I look at...I see you. I want you to come back but I know it’ll hurt.

hey :) i thought you were the most amazing person ever. i've never even believed in love until i met you. i'm sad i had no chance and you moved on :/

i love the way you make me smile. i love the way you laugh at my jokes. i love the way you apologize to me when you didn't even do anything wrong. i love they way you have a soft spot for me. i love everything about you. i love you.

you say I'm so good at making you look like the bad guy. have you ever thought that maybe it's because you are?

(Bcn) Labouré 2008,
Estabas en sexto, y yo en tercero;
Pero me alegro, fuiste el primero.
El primero en conquistar mi corazón
sin haber entablado conversación.

8 meses después y sigo creyendo que eres para mi. Te amo hoy, mañana y siempre bae. Espero que la vida nos junte de nuevo y poder hacer lo que un día planeamos.

i don’t miss you as much anymore. i’m moving on and it feels so good. i’m finally gonna let go of you today. you used to say how you’d never leave me and that you’d never hurt me but it was so easy for you to do, why? no matter how much i miss you i won’t go back to you. i deserve better. i’m not gonna sit here and beg for the bare minimum. i’m so drained and tired. sometimes i miss u. but i miss who i thought you were. the old you. you’ve changed. not for the good. i wouldn’t go back and erase you from my life. you were a lesson. you taught me so many things and used to make me so happy and i slowly saw you fade and drift away i just didn’t wanna believe that it was happening. i tried my hardest for you. i tried to be better for you. but now i have to be better for myself. i hope u understand. pls don’t come back. you hurt me so much and you’ll never understand. i let my guard down for u and it was one of the stupidest mistakes ever. i actually trusted u and believed u when u said u weren’t gonna treat me like that and that i deserved better. i just wanted u to be better and u couldn’t. i’m so tired of being the second choice. u said i’d never be a second choice but now i’m not even one. one day i hope you’ll realize. but for now i have to let u go no matter how badly it hurts.

I hope you can find someone who loves you in the same way that you love. I can't carry with this anymore.

i truly believe you’re my soulmate, you really have no idea how much i love you but sometimes I’m not sure if i should keep trying, or just let you go.

Ojalá pudiera explicarte todo, te amé un montón, desearia que todo fuera como antes, te extraño mucho :(

i wish it didn’t end like that. i know we’re different people now. but you know. we’re still yin and yang.

hey stinkster, how've you been? I just wanted to say that I hope that you will one day succeed in life, and finally prove to not only yourself but to your family that you are smart and capable. I know that you will be successful. I care for you always, even if its not in the way that you wish it to be. You got this.

You are constantly on my mind. Im happy about the fact that i know you like me:) i already know were going to talk soon

Fuck you. I trusted you and you had to spread a secret I trusted you with. You ruined my trust. Fuck. You.

even though it’s been over a year you still cross my mind every so often. if anything, i just wanna know what i did wrong.

Hello, it's me. It's kind of weird talking to you right now. I just have to say that I do not have feelings for you, but I do like being your friend, you are sweet. I'm sorry. :(

this really sucks. everything about fall reminds me of you. it used to be my favorite season; it still is, but i can't help but keep thinking of you. old habits, i guess. i don't miss you, but i guess i miss having someone with me. that was always you. it's my first winter alone in a while. idk why im writing, you'll probably never check this again. (which, is probably better) but i passed by your house the other day. i've seen your old locker twice this week and i spend a lot of time in the room we went to every morning. i just want to forget about all of it and you but everything just throws all the memories back at me, and i go back to thinking i miss it. so yeah, this really sucks.

dios eres tan GENIAL, divertido y atento. se que no te fijaras en mi nunca, pero agradezco haberme fijado en ti

Lmao, this was a really weird one but it sucks that I wasn't the one who was able to tell you. Still high-key annoyed that my best friend told you even though I begged her to not. Oh well- I don't really care now. It was a small crush lmao, just wanted to write on this website. K bye now. Oh, also- the term first love is way too dramatic because I didn't date you, I just liked you for a couple months. This was fucking weird, lol. Okay, FINALLY bye~

idk if you'll ever see this but I wanted you to know that you are my first love. It may not seem like it but you were

I’m over you but now I just can’t get emotionally involved with boys because I fear them doing the same.

I’m sorry, i used you as a backup. when i wanted revenge on someone i did come back to you for making someone else jealous

I wish you'd get out of my head. Every time I think I'm over you all I do is see you and I fall all over again. It's like no matter how much I want to be with you there's always an obstacle in the way. But if for some reason you're reading this I just want you to know you deserve so much better. Don't settle. Not for her. I've heard of the way she treats you and I promise this has nothing to do with my feelings. You can do so much better. I just want you to be happy.

i love u sm, u made me feel something after such a long time. U made me feel like i can be loved and even though we dont talk anymore i still love you and i cant stop. I hope someday u will feel the same for me ?

I have never loved someone the way I love you and I don’t think I ever will. You’re my best friend and I will always love you forever and then some

You weren’t my first love but instead my first true friend, I always prayed to have real friends, to have someone do dumb stuff with and I found you! You’re my best friend, I may not be yours but you are mine. I love and appreciate you like no another and want nothing but the best for you in life , I love you.

I know you’re not the same person I fell in love with years ago, but I’m sure I’d fall in love with you now too.

You were so fun to talk to and I wouldn't have stopped but I thought about your sister and how it might affect something and want to say sorry for not even letting you know, I hope one day our paths cross again or hope the girl you're talking to end up being everything you have always wanted lol.

I love you so much and will continue for the rest of my life you say that you would love me till the day we die and I hope that is true. I miss you and everything about you?