I'm not even completely sure that I was ever in love with you. I think I fell in love with the idea of you. We were way to similar to each other and maybe in another world we would be together and that would have been cool but I know realize I never loved you. I just loved the thrill of being with someone that was so similar to me and about having a beneficial relationship so secret that I would be embarrassed if it got out. So I never loved you I only loved the idea of you. Its sad that I've just now realized that but I at least I finally did. you were a nice guy and I hope everything works out the way you hopeplan it to. some times it think about if you ever think about me.like if I just ever pop into your head and you just think of me. i always wondered that because sometimes you pop into mine. Its for the best thought because we wouldn't work out and I've lied to you so much and you have no idea. so it kind of hurts I guess but I also wouldn't have it any other way. so I guess what I'm trying to say is forget about me adrian because I already did. Goodbye adrian.