het feit wat je deed boeit me neit eens, want iedereen zei toch al vanaf t begin dat ik beter verdiende, maar je hebt me echt trust issues gegeven en daarvoor haat ik je echt voor altijd doei

Dear Kevin, because of you i saw something in life a little more and i still dont know how i feel about you. Sometimes i think i like you and you’re a great person but then the other day i dont want anything to do with you because im scared that its gonna be weird. I can’t imagine you and me being a thing it just makes me uncomfortable. I dreamt about you 2 times now and i dont know how to feel about that. You also told me yesterday that you liked me and i never noticed that but now you told me that you lost feelings because you thought me and you was never going to happen and i dont think its ever going to happen so you thought right. I really care about you tho and i dont even know why i just do. Love Maud

I'm disappointed you left before we got to really know each other. And eight months later, I'm still waiting for you to text me back.

everyday i miss you more and more. i wish that you were still the same person that i first met and fell in love with. how could you leave and feel nothing so easily? everyday i wish and wish that any guy i try to talk or date end up to be like you during our relationship because i still fucking love you, so so much.

You made me believe love is supposed to hurt. I'm so glad you left me before I fell more in love with you.

maybe it’s too early for this, but i love you. thank you for being the world. ur the warmest ever. and i love you forever.

you told all your friends my secrets and then still acted like my friend, and i continued that act because i didn’t know.

Sometimes you make me feel happy but sometimes you act so different. I hate it because I actually love you... please show that you care your hurting me..

Te amo y lo siento que no soy perfecta pero si eres importante. Te lo prometo que siempre Te voy a qurre

You honestly took a big piece of me and I will never forgive you for it , it’s been years but even now it hurts so much . You stopped me from loving myself and I shouldn’t have let you .

FUCK YOU! You didn't have to do me like that. I was ready to love you and I thought you were ready to love me too. I know my worth and you don't deserve me. You never did.

You weren't supposed to mean this much to me, but you're all I think about now. I don't know if you feel the same, distance is hard, but I want this to work out for us - whatever we are. Thank you for being you. The world needs people like you.

Me gustaste mas de lo que debía, jamás sentí amor solo atracción y ahora lo entiendo, tu personalidad no me agrada eres un asco y porfa dile a tu nv que no me escriba gracias.

You hurt me. You damaged me, but it's alright. You made me into the person I am right now. I might seem like I'm okay, but inside I deeply want you to realize what you did to me.

I miss you so much and I hate that. I think we'll never really talk again and you'll disappear from my life and it makes me so sad because I can't control that. Despite everything, I'll always be thankful for our time together. I think a part of me will always love you.

If I put a ring on your finger, will you never leave? I still worry. The ring is in my pocket. Its been there 3 years.

Aun me hacer sentir cosas pero no puedo decírtelo por que creo que ya me olvidaste :(
Kiwi, me gustas

I still feel things for you, but I can't tell you because I think you already forgot me.
Kiwi, I like you

you haven’t been much of a dad to me for a while now. i miss you. i miss laughing with you. i wish you’d talk to me.

me equivoque lo se, pero no se por que no puedo olvidarte, desde que te fuiste no e sentido lo mismo que si contigo con alguien mas, siento que dejaste vacio mi corazon y me enseñaste muchas cosas, se que estas pasando por cosas muy dificles pero no te rindas, yo confio en ti y se que puedes lograr todo lo que te propongas porque eres un chingon y porque se que lo mereces porque eres una muy buena persona, perdon si te hice algo malo en el pasado, solo no sabia como experimentar cossas nuevas pero te juro que si hubiera sabido que me ibas a pegar muy duro en mi corazon no te dajaria tan facil, espero que te vaya muy bien y si volvemos a coicidir que sea algo hermoso, honesto y agradable, si no coicidimos nunca mas te deseo que encuentres a alguien que te trate como lo mereces porque de verdad tiene un corazon muy grande y eres una persona unica, te quiero muchisimo de verdad y siempre te voy a tener en mi corazon y te extraño como no sabes

dreaming without you

I used to have this recurring dream
That I’m running to you
I jump into your arms and you hold me tight

But now in my dreams
I’m being buried alive
Dark blue waves pull me under the surface
I gasp for air
But the water is engulfing me
I grab onto your shirt
Begging you to stay
But someone rips you away from me
I scream your name
But my voice echoes back in the darkness
I run to your outstretched arms
But I never get any closer

A single tear rolls down my cheek
And lands on your ash white face
You lay in your coffin
I hold your cold hand in mine
It’s the last time we are together

Nightmares ravage my sleepless nights
My own sobs startle me awake
My pillow is soaked with tears
I could make the dreams stop
But they are all I have left of you
In my nightly terrors
You kiss my lips one final time

No se por que no te he podido sacar de mi mente, siempre recuerdo ese abrazo que me diste en el festival, pense que sería el primero de muchos, pero fue el único. Han pasado 5 años que no hablamos y tu vida amorosa ha ido bien, pero, ¿por que no puedo olvidarte?

i never felt more comfortable with anyone than i did with you. i hate how things ended before i lost you and i wish i could've said sorry. you will forever me part from me. always and forever x

i never felt more comfortable with anyone than i did with you. i hate how things ended before i lost you and i wish i could've said sorry. you will forever me part from me. always and forever x

I love you so much and I wish you’d see that. But I’m so bad at showing it especially when I’ve never been treated this good, I love you.

why do i still miss you. why do i wish you were still in my life why didn't we work out. I've moved on but i still think of you from time to time

I don’t know if it was real love but you were the first one for me and sometimes I think back and miss you. You probably don’t even remember me anymore but thank you for being my first love. Maybe we weren’t meant to be or maybe we’ll meet again in the future. I wish you all the best and I hope you’re happy, always.

i hope you are happy. honestly i still cry and it hurts to drive by your house. and it hurts that you can’t be there for when i need you. when we broke up i didn’t lose someone i loved i also lost my best friend. i want my best friend back.

Que bueno que ya no andamos porque mi reputación ya estaba muy manchado, pero tengo que confesar que aquel fa*e que tuvimos estuvo muy rico, eso es lo único que extraño, hacer otro fa*e

i still can’t get over you and it’s been a while after we broke up, even tho you hurt me i still want you.

i’m sorry for how i treated you. i was so insensitive and manipulative i regret everything i did to you

We were never the right people at the wrong time, we were the wrong people at the perfect time. I will always love you to the ends of the world but I need someone who will at least talk to me about how they're feeling.

I miss you everyday. I always wonder how long our first hug would’ve been or our first kiss. I won’t love anyone the way that I loved you.

if you think its me...it isnt. Im happier and every time I check on you ngl I get the icks because youre gross. Im in fault for not letting go sooner ...who knows maybe this year would of been a little different if I did...or you know, you never did what you did haaa. waiting for the day i truly let go of whatever this is now, u sick fuck.

I cant believe I came here to kinda talk to you ew. I want to say Im over you, because I dont want anything to do with u. But, here I am talking to you(kinda)..in a way does that mean Im not over it all?....dont answer yall, its sadly a little yea. I spent some years on this icky dude, so its ok for me to take my time, it hasnt even been a full year since everything. Im at 90% getting over you tho hahaha.

Creí estar tan acostumbrada a dejarte ir que extrañarte en estos momentos es insoportable. Me duele pensar que solo contigo he sentido esa conexión tan increible, que te quiero como a nadie aunque nunca hayamos sido nada.
Te odio, niño guapo del bus.

You saw me when nobody did. You talked to me when I needed it the most. Now you moved on and your gonna be a dad with your new girl.

You weren’t my first love only my first boyfriend I never loved you and the things you did to me affect me so much today I wish you knew how much I hated you and how much pain you caused me, I feel so guilty about all the things you did to me and how I stayed with you even though I didn’t even love you. I was just too scared to tell anyone what you tried to do. Black represents his numb you make me feel and how I feel sick to my stomach when I see you.

hey kev, u prob wont see this but i really miss you. you were the only reason i would wake up every day and without you it’s so hard. you probably moved on but i haven’t lol. i’m still keeping my promise and you’re always allowed to come back. i would be so happy if you did. just know i never lied abt anything and i was and still am yours. i love you

when I started texting you I turned caps on because I wanted to make a good impression but now that I think I have feelings for you I feel like you should know that I dont type with capital letters and it makes me uncomfortable to text with them

Kevin, hay muchos errores de los que me arrepiento, pero sin duda repetiría el momento en que nos conocimos, te ame tanto, en serio que lo hice, cambiaría tantas cosas de mi solo por haber estado contigo formal, tienes un lugar en mi corazón que JAMÁS ocupará nadie, siempre serás la primera persona que quise de verdad, te desearé lo mejor siempre

i’m gonna wait for u even tho i’m probably wasting my time. just kno that i’m always gonna be here always

Alguna vez me dijeron que tenia que arriesgar para ganar,pero se que no soy tu tipo,y que no te fijarias en mi,es dificil verte todos los dias y no pensar en ti.Por favor sal de mi cabeza.

I loved you, with my whole heart but i need to let you go because you don’t love me.. i still think about you everytime 24/7, i hope one day we will see each other again and fall for eachother. I love you Caro

It’s already going to be 8 months without hearing your voice; I miss you, You probably don’t and that’s okay. I kinda wished that I realized earlier, That you treated every girl the same. lolz I really thought you liked me back ngl, I’m slowly getting over you, even though we didn’t date aha?, but yeah I heard you’ve been talking to her for a while now? I hope you end up with someone that will be there for you until the end, whether it’s me or not. I will always be happy for you.

if I went back through everyone I've had feelings for, you top everyone on that list. I don't know what we are or what you feel for me at the moment, but I love you. I could tell you that a million times. you're my best friend and I never meant to fall in love with you. you're one of the most beautiful people I've ever met, and I'm so grateful that our lives collided somehow. I wish I knew if you loved me back, because you act like you do, but you can't communicate anything with me. you kiss me and hold my hand in the car, but then you don't text me for days at a time. everything about us is so incredibly toxic and it makes me love it even more. the toxicity makes me crave you and I hate it so much. I deserve better than this but I refuse to walk away.

You talked to me for this time in quarantine... I thought maybe you were bored but then you tested your loyalty to me by talking to me even when you didn’t have to. I love you for that.... yet you made me hurt so much

i had a crush on u in middle school but thank god i dodged a bullet with that one
u turned out to be a trump supporter

To the boy who I can never confess my feelings for. To say my first love, even though you never loved me back. I mean how can I blame you, you probably never knew. But admitting my feelings weren't allowed to be told, since you fell for her. Idk if you remember this but one day in history i had my head down, and was really upset. But when I lift my head I see you looking at me , in my point of view you looked worried. Which is a memory I will always hold. Whenever I have serious feelings and then no one could have found out. I would always lie , like with you I told you I had feelings for one of your friends, but in reality I was hiding the fact that i was upset. I thought you were different but they never are. They always go for the beautiful girls, the ones who I can't compete with. But of course my dreams were crushed when you asked her out, and I had to sit through yours's conversations. It hurt to see you slowly fade away. From when you guys broke up, cause she still had those feelings for her first love. I thought we would still be friends but you quickly disappeared. Maybe from the fact that you were hurt, and I understand but that hurt , you were doing so good and I remember looking at your seat and it being empty and you not being there. That experience is something I will never forget, we still talked after that but it's not the same. An it's been a year and sometimes I look back at the messages to smile, but then remember I never got to confess my feelings for you. Well if you ever see this which you probably won't. I loved you , and you hurt me a lot and I won't forget it. I still want to text you to see how you are but I think you wouldn't like that . But I hope you are safe and I will always believe in you , work hard.

I miss you. Im sorry I went too quick.nI was in love, and you cant say that I wasnt. You cant say that I wasnt experiencing something, because thats not your place. But I will forever love you. Im sorry you couldnt do distance. Ill always miss you. You say you cried but I did too. I feel hurt that you lied.