It’s been nearly two years but I still think about you constantly. I hope you’re doing well, and I wish I had the guts to text you. But we’re different people now, and even though I wish it would’ve worked out, I know that it’s better this way.

Joe, you were always coming back to me, only to leave for another girl who caught your eye. I don't regret the time we spent together, only that I wish I hadn't stayed your friend. Maybe then it wouldn't hurt so much to see you with her. How many more times will I let you back? How many more times will you tell me you love me?

im starting to question if im lesbian. i know im not straight, but im stating to think im lesbian. wanna know why i havent labeled myself as lesbian yet? i love you, and youre male. thats why

You are my first love and still is my first love, i hope one day you find this. you mean the world to me no matter what, your my soulmate i wouldnt be here without you, you make me feel like nothing else matters just me and you. i love you.

I love you.
I’ve loved you since we first went to the city.
It broke my heart when you took a different path.
I hoped you’d come back.
After a year I let the idea of you go.
And then you came back just after my birthday.
I was so mad at you, and you took it all.
You’d grown and I’m proud of you.
I loved that you were patient I’d just escaped a second toxic relationship and I hadn’t planned on falling in love again.
We snuck out and went for walks. Then I knew it was always gonna be you.
I remember the first time being in your house again it was so weird.
I thought I’d lost you but love has a way of finding a way.
I love you Joseph xx

Sometimes I think back to my happiest moments and even though you caused the most pain, for some reason, you are part of my happiest times. I was so in love with you, I still hope you'll come back even if we weren't even dating. I love you. Thank you for understanding about my past experiences, you were the first guy that I told. I'm happy you were. Thank you.

i love you, yet its almost foreign. i cant seem to understand it.. but its there, as always and its so tormentingly incessant.

joe i’m in love you with but i’m not at the same time. what do i do? we are so young and have such a long time to figure life out but i don’t wanna see you with anyone else. is love not what i think it is? am i just desperate? do you even care about me? i miss you but i don’t and it’s heartbreaking. please please show me what to do. i really care about you.

i wish you could see the pain in my eyes the way that i see the pain in your eyes. i love u but im hurting rn.

I watched you change in the same way that the leaves turn a different colour when the weather changes.

I still think of you every day, even though I can now recognize that I was incredibly out of your league and you are a bad person.

hey joe its me again i just wanted to let you know that i know you dont like me and thats whatever i have kinda accepted it yk but i had a really bad today and yesterday and you leaving me on delivered really hurts i dont expect you to understand what its like but it really hurts i seriously j want to talk to you like please man just talk to me it felt like we were getting closer but then you completely pulled away it really hurts i will probably end up talking to you so we dont just stay in this place but you will probably j ignore what i said idek y you do that its really annoying i dont even know why i have feelings for you you listen to jucie world like man come on ttyl love ya

hey man i just snapped you again even though you left me on delivered its kinda fun having the adrenal rush through me and i just wanted to say that i really hope that you see these that i write for you just to help you they are all in this color and are addressed to "joe" but yeah please just talk to me love ya
love ashley

will i ever get over you? will i ever stop crying about you every night? i just want to forget about you. why do you keep popping back up into my life if you don’t want me? i just want to let you go. i want you to let me go. idk what i’m even holding on to anymore. i want to be happy and part of me only believes i’m only gonna be happy if i’m w you. why did you do this to me?

will i ever get over you? will i ever stop crying about you every night? i just want to forget about you. why do you keep popping back up into my life if you don’t want me? i just want to let you go. i want you to let me go. idk what i’m even holding on to anymore. i want to be happy and part of me only believes i’m only gonna be happy if i’m w you. why did you do this to me?

When I was in the 6th grade I thought you were the type of guy I would marry. You were. But not anymore. I bet you don’t even recognize yourself. I always wanted better for you

i hope you're a little less lonely this year but when you're not sober it's hard to feel much of anything.
call me if you need anything

I know I can be clingy, I know we aren't meant to be serious, but you made me feel again. Im not numb anymore.

How can you keep saying this is casual when you treat me like a girlfriend. Why don't you want me how I want you

You made me realise my mind, how it could see things that never existed. You’re broken, but you tried. I learned about myself and I wish you the best

I wish I could tell you to fuck off and never speak to me again. but I fell in love with you. and it hurts

Thank you for being kind to me and for giving me strength. You’ve moved on but I still wish you well.

i miss you and everything we had. nothing is the same without you i’ve finally moved on but i miss the way u made me feel

Never stopped loving you, hope to try again some day when I’m wiser and ready to give you the affection you wanted without over thinking every tiny detail

Never stopped loving you, hope to try again some day when I’m wiser and ready to give you the affection you wanted without over thinking every tiny detail

Whenever Kayla asks me if I ever had feelings for you I scoff and say never, you’re like a brother. When Anna asks me I say for a week in the 6th grade and never again after middle school. None of these are true. I liked you from the end of 6th to the beginning of 8th. And some days I really miss that guy, because he was great. He was my first love in a lot of ways. Someone I could cry to, someone who would listen, someone who knew me, really knew me and it was easy. Loving you like the bestfriend you were to me was so easy. And somewhere along the way it switched. Suddenly you weren’t you anymore

It’s funny. Remember that band party freshman year? When we wandered back behind your house in the woods and I took those ridiculous Polaroids of you? Yeah I never told you but if you had kissed me I wouldn’t have stopped you. I actually thought about it but then the second passed and I looked at your freckled face and I realized I never wanted us to change. But you did

I miss you
Your smile
Your eyes
But you don’t miss me
I’m too broken that if I ever have to face you in public I would just break away even more

I still think about you a lot, but after 2 days i feel better that were not talking. I'll never watch a callmecarson video without thinking of you though. Do you remember the first day we met, you called me cute? I said "you're kinda cute too" and you complimented my good grammar. I'll never forget how we met, what i was wearing, and everything that happened after that. I remember why i didnt skip you on omegle. When i saw you i said "what game are you playing?" and you said you werent playing a game, so i laughed and asked why you had a headset on. Izzy was there just watching us flirt up until i got your snap. Ill never forget. It'll always haunt me.

thank you for showing me what love isnt. Thank you teaching me that i need to know my worth. Im with the guy of my dreams now thank you for showing me what a man should not treat me like.

If one of us decided to make the first move we would definitely be something right now. But instead you fell back to her and i feel used and empty.

Hey. I don't feel the need to write these anymore, I don't think you even saw the others I wrote. I'm glad we called when we did, it gave me the closure I didn't know I needed. I realise now that I saw the relationship in a different light to you. You were my everything whereas you were just trying to move on from your "everything". I dont want to talk to you again. This time I want to focus on my life. I think I'll always love you but I don't like you anymore. Looking back you drove me insane to the point where I was a person I hated. I'm sorry we were so toxic, things happen for a reason even if the reason is really shit. I hope you find happiness in your new relationship and life. Please don't reach out to me again. We are better off without each other. Thank you for the memories Squish. You were the best 'nj' I could have asked for. :):

i’m sorry that i couldn’t make you as happy as you made me. i will always love you heylen, i miss you

im sorry for everything. and im sorry for never telling you how much i loved you. i’m sorry and i miss you.

you told me we wouldn’t work because of the distance but somehow no matter how far away you are you make me feel things that no one else ever has. i love you.

I always laughed about the way you pronounced my favorite color, but when I see it now, I can only think of you.

I wake up every day because a world with you in it is a world worth living in- but i’m not “supposed” to live just for you

I'm so in love with you. I have never loved someone like I love you and I've never even dated you before. I need help. Please love me back. I can't stay obsessed with you like this man. I can't handle it. I love you.

Do you just want me for my body? I really like you man. Please like me back. I need you so bad.
- "Miss Maam"

you were different. you made me feel special and for that i thank you for so so much. you made me happier than i’ve ever been

I love you more than anything. I’d do anything just to be back in your arms. I always have and always will love you.

Joe. Joseph. JDF. you'll find out one day that I loved u in a way no one else ever has before. But I just wish we could be toxic together one last time, but all things have to come to an end.

You left with no reason and I was left with trying to figure out why. My mind is a bad place sometimes. I wish you would come back.

Everyone says that I should be angry with you for what you did to me. I just can't bring myself to hate you. Maybe I shouldn't have stayed up late that one faithful night.

It’s been a year and my heart still hurts the same as it did the night I threw the necklace on the floor. I still love you Joe but I wish I didn’t. God I wish I didn’t. Keeping you blocked is the only shot I have at letting us go. I’m glad you’ve found someone who makes you happy. I’m sorry we didn’t work, I wish we would’ve been better for each other. I know you aren’t the one for me, I just wish you were.

you taught me how to be ready to love myself because you broke me down to nothing. i have never been more thankful to someone who made me hate myself and the person i was becoming. im so glad for the times we had together. i loved you and i always will. i just wish you wouldve been ready to love me back the same. maybe one day when you grow up more and have some more life experiences it could work. for now i hope you find someone who loves you as much as i did because you deserve it. we had one hell of a love story didnt we.

I’m sorry your life didn’t turn out the way you wanted. You could do better but you’re choosing not to

You're graduating in 2 days. I think this is going to hurt more than when we ended because i know that i'm probably never going to see you again

I feel better now. I've forgotten about you. I went half the day not thinking about you. I can genuinely say fuck you :)

Se que nos conocimos hace poco pero sentía que conocía alguien con qué podía hablar de lo que sea.Se que eres mayor que yo.Y qué tal vez no sentirás lo mismo que yo.Pero te dejaré de pensar y de sentir.