Unsent messages to GAGE

despite being strangers again, i regret nothing. my door is always open to you. take care.

i think ill always silently love you just a little even if im already with someone

I know I’m better off without you playing with me but I wish you still were

i love you

you screwed me over yet i still crave your friendship

idk why i let you do this to me and i still stay.

please let me go, i cant do this anymore

i wish i’d stayed

i do love you still. just wished it could’ve been different.

im sorry for breaking your heart

it was never going to work but i miss you.

you ruined me. i still cant get your voice out of my head.

I really hope that we can be together again.

i miss you. i wish we talked more but i know we're just friends now. this shouldn't be a surprise to me but im still sad ig. be nicer to yourself please. you're such a cool person and it sucks having to leave that behind. its fucking nights like these that get me thinking about you. im sorry

Fuck i love you. I love you so much. I'm so sorry all of this is happening. I love you, but i also love him. He's so pure and healthy and i know that he'll never hurt me, but i still want you. I have no idea what to do. I love him and can see a future with him, but with you i see a completely different relationship. I've never had someone try this hard to win me back. It feels so selfish of me. The fact that you don't know about him makes all of this so much worse. I have no idea what to do.

i cant forgive you for what you did, but i'm here for you to make sure you dont have to go through what i did. my feelings are long gone but you still deserve happiness and i hope you leave her in your past.

I’d marry you tomorrow if you asked. I’d marry you ten years from now. Even if tonight was the last time I heard from you.

you’re amazing. everything about you. you’re so different from everyone else. but i feel like we kinda drifted a little bit which breaks me to think of. but omg how much i love and care about you?

i lied, it did hurt that you liked her because i like you. thanks for the good music though, you have great taste, and i’ll spare you the ‘speech’ it’s just too bad you’d never go for someone like me

Our story isn’t supposed to end like this. Why do you keep doing this gage. I’ll always be here no matter what, idc how many times you push me away.

i still love you and i always will. gage you were my first love. but the relationship was so toxic and i hadn’t realized it til everyone said something. after nine months of dating i realized why i went from 135 lbs to 80 lbs.

Your curly hair and striking blue eyes made me melt. But hers made you forget that I was at your feet.

Not you knowing I liked you but then dating my best friend anyways lol but you and her like trump so f you ?

I never truly think I loved you. I loved having you and someone that loved me when I never could. You lied and left me heartbroken. Today I can now say that I don't miss you anymore. I hope you're happy back with her bc I know she can love you more than I ever could. Also, stop blaming everything on everyone else and running away from your problems, own up to your shit:)

I think about u almost everyday, but I know that I won’t ever go back to u and let u hurt me all over again, no matter how much I want u. but that doesn’t mean I don’t miss u.

I love you so much it physically hurts me to think of life without you, but we are so toxic. I hate to say this and admit this but you're so manipulative, Mo and Hat are right. But i can't bring myself to end things for both of our sakes. Its what we need but i can't do it because im addicted to you and yk that. Yk that i wont be able to let you go so you keep stringing me along. Ik thats what you are doing but im so emotionally wrecked that idc because at least i have you.

it's sad how much I truly loved you and you walked away so easily after everything. I'm glad you're happier with her.

you’ve hurt me many times. i still come back to you though, even though it reminds me of how i would always come back, i just love you ya know?

Sometimes I wish you would stop and look at me for one moment and realize I've loved you no matter how many times you've broken my heart.

i have given my everything to you. you texted me and i got really excited cause i hadn’t heard from you in five months. you said you wanted to actually try and be the boyfriend that i should be and that you were ready. but then a few days later you ghosted me again. i have never felt so empty. i love you with all my heart and it hurts when you do this. i know you’ve been hurt in the past and was not brought up in the best household and you’ve been hurt by multiple people in other relationships. but i wish you would come back and just be with me. i miss you. and i love you always. and i’ll always be here for you no matter what.

STUPID TRUMPIE AHH idk y all those girls including me were obsessed with u, u aint shit. sry for all those ppl posting those photos tho that was trash of them

you made me happy. i was slowly falling for you. i know i was clingy, but i loved having your attention all the time. the nickname you gave me ‘shorty’ , i loved that, puts a smile on my face. i know i didn’t really show my face on facetime, i was just so insecure, i thought that the more you saw me, you’ll realize i’m ugly and just drop me. i was getting comfortable slowly and was going to start showing my face all the time, it was just taking time. i know we’re far away from each other, but if you truly cared it wouldn’t matter, you would try, but you didn’t even try, you just ended it. that means you knew we weren’t going anywhere, you knew you weren’t for this, you knew you would hurt me. i cried for two whole ass hours, i was in so much pain, i screamed, i cried in silence, i cried loudly, i was broken... i mean i should’ve known , everyone leaves eventually, no matter what i do, i open up and tell you things that i don’t even tell my friends, and you left. i saw it coming, you were acting strange for 3 days or so. you said we’ll stay the way we are, we’re just not talking, what’s the point though ? you’re not willing to have a relationship so what’s the point of still talking how we did, it’s not right. i texted you ‘your free trial ended’ meaning you talking me ended, the free trial ended baby. i’m not a person that you talk to because you have no one else, i’m not a person that just comforts you, i’m not a person that fills up time, i’m not a person you think about when you have nothing else to do, i’m not a fill up buddy, i’m way more and i should be treated like it. i was so into you , key word: was, you lost me, i lost nothing , you had everything to lose, i didn’t. i know my worth and i know you will never find some else like me, you can fill in the spot, but you can never replace me, there’s no one else like me. i’m so over you , completely, the moment i knew i was , was when you ended it, and i cried out in pain for two hours, after that i felt nothing, nothing towards you. this is goodbye forever. we’re not dating when i move way closer, we’re not trying when you feel like it, we are done. you lost me and it’s all your fault. i’m sick of being that person who does everything to make you happy, to make us work, everything. i was get us long distance bracelets, get you gifts for christmas even when you were gonna get me nothing. goodbye gage, i hope you follow your dreams and gets everything you ever wanted, i hope you and your family stay safe and healthy, i hope you can be trying in school, just know you’re smart, stop doubting yourself, you put a smile on someone’s face just by your presence, bye dummyy

hi, i don’t know what really say but i liked you. i did but i think i did too much, and i miss cuddling with you but i don’t miss you. your bad for me, and i should of fucking realized from the fucking start. i hate how close we got, i don’t know why but i hate it and hate myself for it. your such a player, and it’s so so crazy how i was so in love with the idea of you, that i lost myself n got too attached. i do miss who i thought u were, and sometimes i’m miserable without you, and i need to move on. well i am honestly, i’m with sean now, and he might not have all the things “we” have, but at least he’s not a fucking douchebag, weed smokin, player. i don’t hate you, i just hate the idea i had of you, because that was not you, but i was in love with THAT idea of you.

Thank you for all of the memories but i think i've lost feelings because of the arguements and our problems were too much. I'm so very sorry. I dont know what to do.

I wish I could get the butterflies being with you. But I can’t. I’m really sorry that I’m not the one. I hope you find her. Tomorrow will probably be goodbye for a while.

You are so amazing. Watching you grow into the man you are now has made me the proudest girlfriend. I am so thankful to have you back. You treat me perfectly, and I truly feel like we are forever. Thank you for everything my love.

hi bug,
u came into my life when i needed u. and u reminded me how i should be looked and treated. im grateful for that. our time together was short, so it wasn't too terribly hard to let u go. but deep, deep down, though i will never say it loud, i have this small inkling of hope, that you will find your way back to me.
i hope u are doing well. and smiling. ur smile was always my favorite.
sleep well bug.

hi i miss you so so much babes, i hope you are doing great :) i still think of u everyday i dont want to let you go, but maybe in another chapter we can try again. i love you b

it hurts so bad to dream of you. i wish i could just sleep forever so i never have to wake up without you.

Hi Gage I know its been a year now since we officially ended things and I can tell you right now that I'm over you. I texted you a month ago and I just wanted to check up on you. Once I received your text, I was glad that you are doing much better now compared to last year. I still remembered you saying that your scared of making friends and I'm glad that you made a lot of real friends. You keep glowing. I hope one day we will meet again and our faces will be covered with smiles. I hope you will be happier in the future as well. Stay safe :)

I hate you so much, why do you pop in my head everyday. Your'e a douche bag who I cant stop thinking about. Great

when your kids ask you about what you think love is, I'm dying to know if my name will pop into your head. because I know your name would pop into mine.

i would have done anything for you. i would have followed you to the ends of the earth. why couldn’t you just love me right? why do you want me dead so bad? you used to love me. you loved me so much you would kiss my hands and arms when you held me. when did you decide you wanted something else? how did we get here? i wish i could understand.

imagine being such a low person and can’t even respond to my texts ? it makes me feel awesom quite frankly. you ass used me during quarintine for nothing but answers. no i’m shit to you. makes me feel awesome ?? i fucking hate myself for this ?

you hurt me more than you will ever know but i also loved you more than you will ever know, and I don't think i will ever fully get over you no matter how hard i try

you had me all over you. i cant ever let it go. i’m so very sad to see me drift away become of the things i’ve heard. you can even talk to me. i hate it i hate seeing things. you ignore me as you snap my friends bad. fully knowing that i am right there. all you care about it crushing me. i hate it so much. i hate the feelings. i hate that i am always feeling sad about you. all i want is a friendship but quite frankly you don’t care. like at all. i wish we could talk more. but you don’t care.

how will i ever love anyone else when i still love you with everything in me. how am i supposed to live with this forever what the fuck.

it’s so hard to remind myself it’s over for a reason and the gage i love doesn’t exist anymore. you will be the death of me.

i have liked you for a very long time but i don't think you ever liked me back so i'll try and stop thinking about you.

I got to sleep in your arms once and I felt loved. that was stupid of me. tell your girlfriend I'm sorry