i love you. you dont know it, and it sucks. it hurt when you said you couldnt vc with me for new years. i cried for an hour straight. i never told you though, you were playing with ethan. i always wanna tell you how i feel but i cant. i cant handle rejections.
if you see this, please snap me and just tell me you like me. you make me feel happy. you make me feel like someone. my moms so toxic and you dont know it. but you still make me happy without even knowing what happens in my household. you make me feel like i actually matter. i havent cut since i met you. over dramatic and cringy, ik. but its the truth. youre perfect for me. i like our matching fits btw. whenever i play a game it reminds me of you. also, youre always on my mind. i cant last literally 5 minutes without thinking ab you. me daydreaming about you makes me smile. ive never done that before. you were the first boy i cried over, you were the first boy i fell really deeply in love with. your personality, your voice, your everything. youre perfect preston. you mean the world to me. keep sending me memes everyday. let me wake up to a meme and lets have 4 hour convos everyday like we did before. i miss it. im never annoyed at you,
ill never be. you overthink ab things that arent true. im not gonna stop talking to you because your friend said the n word. im not annoyed at all the memes you send me randomly. i love it, keep sending them. send me one every hour so i know you think ab me all the time. i want you to look at something and think of me and a memory we had with whatever you looked at. i wanna tell you all of this, but im scared youll reject me and just say “oh i dont like you like that, sorry” like it took me so much time and effort to write this and you give me a 7 word sentence. like no please. you ask me out babes?. im tearing up from this please. anyways, i hope you see this but i hope you dont at the same time.
PLEASEEEEE

you look at me as your sisters friends but i look at you as the guy i want to be a cute pinterest couple with.i love you.

My goose
You have taugh me how to love and shown me love deeper than I think I may ever find. You have given me so much laughter and happiness in our relationship, I know I would not be the same person without you. If we do not wind up together that will not doubt that you and I are soulmates. I love you with all of me and no matter what happens I will always love you. Mwah your bumbo

You keep giving me hope you’ll come back. Please, my heart can’t take this anymore just tell me if you want me or not. Make your move. Please.

I can't believe I allowed someone like you to have so much power over my life. I don't wish you the best because I'd be lying, but I do hope that you get what you deserve after treating me poorly, I think I'm more upset with myself for allowing you to treat me that way for so long.

hey preston, i know this is weird but idc. i didnt really realise i loved/love you until i lost you. you were perfect, now we are nothing you have another lover. now your mean to me, we are at different schools but our story was legendary.

hi, i miss u. i wish things were different. in a different universe maybe we worked out. i pretend idc about u anymore to keep my pride. i could never tell u how much i love u cause of the amount of pride i have. i don’t know when i’ll get over you. i hope it’s soon. plz be safe. i’ll keep writing to u here. ull probably never see these. but that’s ok. u made me see things differently. but ykw? f u. u broke my heart and cause of that i won’t ever tell u how i feel.

I don't know how to explain to you how many ways you broke me. I could have been so different if I hadn't met you.

i hope you know how badly you hurt me. yet i longed for you for some odd reason, and sometimes i find myself, in the same position i was in months ago. waiting. even though i dislike you, i cant bring myself to hate you.

lemme just say that ur a F I N E looking guy and i respect that and i remember back in fifth grade we’d never talked to one another before but i thought u were so cute so when we played capture the chicken (like capture the football but with rubber chickens instead of footballs) i would always try to get you out from stealing my teams chickens but u were always to fast and i swear to god u did the same to me like it was mutual but now we haven’t seen each other for so long and i’m not sure u remember my name anymore.

You hurt me deeper than probably anyone has ever hurt me but after everything that’s happened, I forgive you. I don’t love you, but I forgive you.

You hurt me worse than anyone has ever hurt me before. But I forgive you. I don’t love you, but I forgive you.

ya know i really thought you were the best thing that happened to me. you had my back on everything, then i found out you supported trump... and as a bi bi-racial girl that was a phat no :) i still miss you tho and yes ik thats dumb.

i never thought anyone loved me until i met you and then you broke me like no one else ever did before

even if we’re so different, i’ll always have some love for you. you might not have been my first love but it felt the realest. i’ll always be cheering for you- even if u don’t know it. thank you for also breaking my heart, i’ve learned not to be so trusting

I miss you.
I wish we where together now.
I've grown so much as a person. Why'd you leave me for her.

my life would be so much different if you never left. but it would be even more different if we never met.

I hated the nickname mads until it was you saying it. I really hope I don't fuck this up, ur everything ive ever needed. thank u for showing me everyday how it feels to be loved

i miss you so much. please come back preston, i promise i’ll be better. i lub you forever my beautiful boy

who would've thought right after posting that other one you were gonna leave. at least I didn't fuck things up, but I really wish things weren't like this. I hope u come back but ik you won't :/ forever and always, p

You were my first illusion you made me believe I could be enough but then you left just like everybody else.

today was the second day without you, i woke up at 3 pm and immediately you came to my mind. i got up and got to the stairs and broke down crying. today we had to tell my grandparents about what happened and my grandma was so upset, she saw me come in and gave me a huge hug and said some sweet things. i held back tears the entire night because i couldn’t stop thinking about you and about us and everything that happened. i miss you so much it feels like you’ve been gone for so long but it’s only been 48 hours. i’ve never felt this way before. i lub you forever beautiful boy.

I used to like u but I think it was pretty obvious haha :,) would u wanna hang out sometime, as friends?

it’s day 3 without you, today wasn’t too bad. i went on a walk in shorts and shark shoes while it snowed. i only cried a little bit today. my parents found out i relapsed and they went crazy. my dad went ballistic and started saying he was gonna take away my phone and make me change my room and all of that. they both got so angry at me. that’s when i reallyyyyy missed you because i know you could’ve made me feel better. you’re the only one who can make me feel better. i love you and i miss you more and more everyday.

I'm sorry I never got the courage to tell you how I really felt, I know that for a bit you felt the same but I know now all you wanted from me was for someone to date, I miss you more than anything now and I have never felt the same after the argument I'm sorry Preston, I truly am.

preston ive fallen hard for you.so very very hard for you and your my dream boy please oh please like me back.

Hearing your voice today brought me to tears. I’m sorry you’re going through so much. I wish I could be there for you even though I know that’s not what you want. I really miss you, and everywhere I go something reminds me of you. You never leave my mind and I’m don’t think you ever will. I wanted to give you the whole fucking world but it still wasn’t enough. I’m sorry I was so shy. I’ve been working on that. I hope you would be proud of me for that. You changed my life forever, and I just wish you were back in it. I wish I could spend my time with you. I know you have a lot of time since you quit your job, but I know it’s hard for you to find motivation for much right now. Anyway if you see this I hope you’re doing good. Maybe consider calling me even if I can’t be anything more than a friend. I just want to be there:(

this is the last update im going to do. i gave myself 4 days to cry it out and now i gotta move on. i love you with everything i have, but you don’t love me and i need to accept that. i miss you more than anything and i wish we could’ve gotten the timing right. i’m always here beautiful boy, i lub you.

I can’t stand you anymore. You ruined my family. I hate you, but for some reason I still think about you.

it was so unfair of you to tell me you loved me, then proceed to cheat on me the next night. but tell me it hurt you too bad too see me with someone else.

good morning sleeping beauty, idk if your awake at this time cuz you're probably horsed from all the party you've been going to lately ahaha, but I just wanted to say that even tho we haven't met in real life, I want to say thank you for making me feel things that I thought I could never feel and yess think of you every day and night man I wanna text you but we both know I can't .

i wish that you would see me how i see you, but i know thats just not possible. ill forever care about you. i love you

you hurt me and acted like it was nothing i hope you know that i love you despite it all but fuck you

You were a crush, and now you're one of my closest friends. Thanks for dealing with me and everything honestly.

I didn’t tell you this yet but I love you

You're my best friend but I think I may love you. I want to talk to you forever.

Who dont u ever choose me

You left me for her. You didn’t love me in the end and you lied about it. I shouldn’t have trusted u

i love you so much

i wonder if your favorite color is still purple

we both know something was there. i wish we didn’t run from it. i’m sorry i was to scared.

i wish you’d just tell me you hate me or something so i can get over you and move on with my life.

i could never hate you. honestly, i'm still kind of obsessed but that's a me problem.

I can't tell if I love you like that or not.

You can't always have forgiveness, Goose

i love you so much please don’t leave me

3 years later and i still hear your voice in my dreams

I can’t believe you let me believe you were a good person

There’s still something here. Can you feel it too?

I’m ready when you are