I love you so much it physically hurts me to think of life without you, but we are so toxic. I hate to say this and admit this but you're so manipulative, Mo and Hat are right. But i can't bring myself to end things for both of our sakes. Its what we need but i can't do it because im addicted to you and yk that. Yk that i wont be able to let you go so you keep stringing me along. Ik thats what you are doing but im so emotionally wrecked that idc because at least i have you.