When I joked that I’m such a great person and you said ‘you are’ and kissed me. I think about that a lot. I miss you and your now well-combed blonde mop.

i miss used to waking up every morning and being excited to go to school only to see you. whether i’d even get the chance to speak to you or not it gave me the joy and happiness. i don’t miss you now, but who you were.

blue... the colour of your favourite hoodie. where did i go wrong? i cared so much about you and i still do. what i’d give to have one more chance. i wish you knew how i felt. thank you
x

it’s been nearly three weeks but i still think of you everyday. i miss what we had. i miss the old you. i just want to go back relive all the love you gave to me. all i want is one more hug and to hear you say you love me. i know i deserve better but i wish it was you. i will forever look for you in everyone i meet.

You got two sons yo. I don’t know how y’all haven’t figured it out but yeah I’m trans lol it’s not a phase tho I’ve known this for years. (Haha pls don’t kick me out)

i wish u were still in my life . u did everything for me and i miss u more then anything . i hope u still love me like i love u

it’s been a year and every time I see one of those corny love quotes we used to make fun of, I think of you.

I dont want to see how much fun you are having at that party when you definetly know im home alone...

I don’t regret meeting you but what i do regret is giving you my all , giving you everything I had in me I never received from no one. At some point I felt like you were too good for me and u deserved so much better. I would see how sad I’d make you then happy. I took the most hardest decision and left you. which til this day I regret but then I kept coming back to you and so did you. why would you come back to just leave me like I left you. Why would you put me into more pain than what I was already going through I just wanted u man. I wanted everything with you and just you. there was so significant other i wanted but you. You were all I thought about and still do. you kept coming back and saying I changed you but you know why I left but sometimes I wish you would understand it wasn’t easy. You made me sm better and happier. you felt home. I miss you , but why would you come back again to just tell me to finish what I started when I was willingly trying again in us and still had faith in us. But I see you didn’t you just came back to keep me happy for a lil and do the same shit you do and make me leave without me wanting too. I left with a pain in my back .. I hate you but love you my love is so strong for you and I hate that you act like nothing happend while I’m always here hurting I’m always the one hurting and I’m so tired of it you don’t understand how much I’d want to let go of you and forget you but I can’t. someday I will though and that day I will your gonna be stuck on me like I was stuck on you. I hope you feel my pain that I’ve held because of you. As much as I love you I don’t deserve someone like you. I hope you find what u wanted and later on hurt , because you lost the only person who was ever gonna love you u conditionally and for you. You ever find someone like me who was lovely and patient and had much care for you. I regret putting you first before myself. you were my first love and It sucks it went this way , I’ll never forget you but I really hope I get the ability to move on and glow up within it. I loved since day one and I still do but til the i move on from you. Goodbye my love

thank you for being my best friend and sticking by me no matter what. we annoy each other sometimes but its all in the name of love...

Siempre supe que jamás llegarimos a nada, pero te ame como a nadie lo había echo. Hasta pronto amor de mi vida, si lo llegas ver adiós.

I loved you and treated you like my first love. You were never fair to me. You expressed your love with words but I with deeds, and the words are blown away. Now you took your way and I took mine.

I wish you hadn’t acted like it was nothing personal. I spent forever thinking maybe you felt our personalities didn’t match, but now everything I hear about your new girlfriend sounds like it’s being said about me. She and I are so similar we could be the same person...every hour the question goes round my head and I can’t sleep. Why did you pick her and not me? Why, why, why?

Was it that easy to forget? A year Charlie, and you gave it up for a girl. I know you should've but why is it so easy for you? Why was it just something that slipped out of your mouth? All those memories we made, just down the drain for her. Thanks I guess.

You're one of the strongest people I know, I admire you so much. Thankful every day to have you in my life.

man u we’re my bsf, i literally told u ab everything my traumas my family problems everything. u knew everything and so did i. we loved eachother bro all that and u threw it away twice u we’re literally like a lil bro to me. and sometimes the big bro either way we’re the person i trusted the most bro. all that and it’s gone. just cuz of u my trust issues have gotten worse. i literally can’t have a relationship w someone w out thinking they’ll do the same as u. u honestly fucked up man.

man i honestly fucking hate u bro. i told u everything everything man all my traumas, my bad grades, my family problems everything i told u everything and u just threw it away ? bro i told u my biggest trauma you literally told me “if one dude ever does this again send him to me” like bro u knew what happened to me as a lil kid man. ion say that shit to everyone bro. it’s such a shame for me but i told u it cuz i trusted u man. u honestly fucked me up. just cuz of u i literally cant have a friendship/ relationship w out thinking they’ll end up doing the same u did. you knew everything ab me and i knew everything ab u.

i have never felt such a strong connection to someone. your love was like no other. that smile. but you walked away. you gave up. i question if you ever loved me because you walked away so easily. it’s been three days. i miss you. i just want to talk to you. hear your voice. feel your touch. everyone is saying i deserve better but i wanted you to be better. maybe just maybe we will cross paths again after we both find ourselves. i will wait for you. goodbye my love. i love you more.

i never liked you or even loved you so thank god we didn't date but I hate you you got everyone to call me a whore even after there was proof your bestfriend cheated on me

my sweet love; i have loved you, and i understand you don’t love me. but we all want things we cannot have.

what you did to me and put me through was so unfair, yet i constantly put up with it over and over. how dare you threaten me and feed me lies when you knew would make it harder for me to escape you, you and your strange ways of loving me, holding me, kissing me. you don't deserve this.. any of me and you never did. the things i did for you even when i didn't want too, i think about constantly, it isn't fair i didn't want to hurt you, but you left me with no choice. i think about those choices daily and all it does is worry me and stress me out. why did you try and ruin me? i thought you loved me.. cause i know for a fact i loved you and never would do any of the such to you.

i thought it was real. i really thought you liked me. but it was too good to be true. i know its not my fault but it feels like ive done something wrong. like youre bored of me. i gave you all the good music and then you left. i dont know if you were just 'using me' for my music or if you felt something too. i dont think you ever liked me, not like i liked you. i dont know if im annoying you or if i should message you. i think i really like you. but you dont feel the same way. you couldnt give a shit charlie. and it hurts because i really thought we would be something. but we probably wont be. not now, maybe not ever. i dont know, i dont want to believe it. you confuse me, you send such mixed signals and we probably wouldnt be good together. but i want to try. if only we could. if only.

i miss you. text me. i want to talk to you again. i dont know what i want. maybe i love you. but you dont care and i should know it.

i loved you. sorry i couldn’t manage to say it. people have finally stopped asking me about you. i’m relieved.

The last month we've spent getting to know each other has been the best month of my life: You've made me feel emotions I didn't think I was even capable of feeling and I've never smiled and laughed so much in my life before.
I hope things continue going the way they are between us - you're amazing.

It hurts,knowing how fast you moved on,yet,after more then a year,I’m still so in love with you,the way you give me butterflies,your freckles that seemed to be placed so perfectly,those dimples by your eyes when you smile,everything.
Your heartbeat is my favourite melody and your voice my favourite song. Cant you see,Charlie,I’m still so in love with you,please,come back,we’re meant to be,I know we are. If you see this,just know,these are the words of my unsaid.

at this point i’m starting to wonder if time or fate is really on our side. i’d like to believe it is. i’d like to think that every birthday candle, lost eyelash, or 11:11 is the universe bringing us one step closer together. it’s been so long that i’m starting to doubt it.

the thing that hurts the most is that you say you felt nothing even though I poured as much as i could into you

i don’t think i know what love truly feels like, but if i had to take a guess i think i’ve been in love with u for 12 yrs now

We were talking just a few seconds ago. You're saying it's fine, but I don't know if I can really believe that fact. Why am I even typing this? Because I'm too fucking afraid. You'll just say "it's okay" but I want closure. I want you to be specific. I'm sorry I'm so rude. I'm sorry. I wish I could say this was my last message to you, but if you're seeing this, I probably told you beforehand, right? I tell you everything, even the things I don't want to. But I can't manage to say this. I'm sorry. You're probably tired of me saying that. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I'm so weak. I'm sorry that I could never be good enough. I'm sorry I can't even say this to your face.

were still messaging, huh? im not weak, then why am i writing this? am i going to end up saying "heyyy loverboyyyy i sent u some messages ;lolollol okay bye" over amino???

please call me your lucky charm just one more time. i just need to know that were okay. i just want us to be okay
please hug me.

i dont think we'll ever be able to recreate what we had. you have a new girlfriend and yes shes prettier but i know she cant make you laugh like i could. i kind of miss getting into fights with you and breaking up a million times. one time i was so close to calling you and asking you to come over but ill never tell you that.

I wish I never let you go, but you moved on and you’re happy, it’s time for me to do the same. But if you called I’d still run right to you.

I’m not over u. I can’t keep watching u be okay without me. I want u back. But there’s no chance i can get u back.

What happen to being soul mates?
U hurt me, u broke me, u were horrible but i still want u. I was in love. U were in a daze.

I've finally stopped thinking about you. I don't think you'll ever realise how much you hurt me, but I'm glad it's over.

i can't wait till i can give you your origami santa irl. i hope you're sleeping well, my baby. you mean more to me than words can describe. I'm listening to impossible by nothing but thieves right now. It says everything I can't. I thought it was impossible, but you make it possible.

I’m tired of missing you. Don’t come back please just leave I can’t do it any longer. You had my heart for two months and now you’ve got my mind forever I just can’t do it

i think i'm getting better. slowly, sure, but i am. its still hard to come to terms with the fact that you're done with me. i've made new friends, you know. i think i might be starting to move on. i'm not saying i found someone new, because i still don't want to give up on you yet; i still feel like it's not really over. but, if it is, then it is. at least i'll have people who actually give a fuck by my side.

i hope you're happy, you know. i hope you're happy that you lied to me and practically led me on. i mean, if you had any doubts at all, ANY, even ONE, you should've kept your mouth shut. if you had any second-guesses or anything of the sort, you should have never told me all of those things. you should have never even told me anything at all. you should have gone home that night, not saying a word, and figured out what the hell was going on in your mind yourself before you brought someone else into your bullshit.

i hate you.
i hate your stupid brown hair.
and your stupid eyes.
and your stupid dimples when you smile.
and the bracelet you wear.
and the watch that you left at my house that one time.
and your laugh.
and your dumb jokes.
and the voice you used when you used to mock the things i said.
i hate the way you would kiss my cheek.
or my head.
or the way you would rest your head on mine when i leaned on your shoulder.
or the way you tucked my hair behind my ear for me.
and above all, i hate that i didnt even fucking mean a single word of that.
i hate you.

You make me feel so special and then just drop me. I think about you so much and it’s truly exhausting. I tried so hard to be “ just friends with you “ but I can’t do it and know you can’t either.. I see the way you look at me , no one looks at someone like that and it doenst mean anything. I think if you love somebody let them go and if they really love you they’ll come back , and you DID come back but now your fucking confusing me and it makes me so unhappy. Please I know deep down you do and I know that somewhere somehow you know we are meant to be.

the sky still reminds me of your eyes. i wish i would stop looking for them every time i walked into a room

To the boy I like in 9th grade!, I still like you! You said you liked me too but can you remove the D??

You made me feel special. A coming of age movie type of special. But I knew that you didn't care about me. You don't really care about anyone.

hey, i miss you. I always wonder what we could've been. So many what ifs. In the end. I really hope something comes out of this. I hope that i didnt waste 2 years of my life being in love with you just for you to be a highschool memory. Maybe you will just be a highschool memory. But i wish there was more to our story. You ruined relationships for me. Relationships that couldve happened even. In the end. I always chose you. I dont even think im a choice for you. Which hurts. Youd be my first choice without doubt, without hesitation. I love you. I know that. But what i also know. Is that i need to get over you. So i think for now, its ok to love you. Its ok to think about you its ok to care about you. Its ok. Its ok to still love you. It just shows, that maybe you shouldve chosen me in the end. Because out of everyone, id be by your side. Always, forever, and in the next life after this. I'll always be there for you. I love you charlie. I really do. Thank you for everything.

i fell for you, i know i shouldn’t have but i did. and now u barely acknowledge my existence and it broke me.

I never expected us to end, especially the way it did, but it had to happen for me to learn about how I should actually be loved. I loved you and you'll always be my first love, but you hurt me so much. I know there's somebody better for me out there who won't make me doubt their love for me. Ever. I'm so proud of myself for getting past you. I hope you're doing good, cause I know I am.

Platonic love was my worst heart break. There was never an official end. Just silence. I want you back in my life