Unsent messages to CHARLIE

i don’t think i know what love truly feels like, but if i had to take a guess i think i’ve been in love with u for 12 yrs now

You're one of the strongest people I know, I admire you so much. Thankful every day to have you in my life.

You got two sons yo. I don’t know how y’all haven’t figured it out but yeah I’m trans lol it’s not a phase tho I’ve known this for years. (Haha pls don’t kick me out)

blue... the colour of your favourite hoodie. where did i go wrong? i cared so much about you and i still do. what i’d give to have one more chance. i wish you knew how i felt. thank you
x

If you were actually sorry that it was ending this way you would have done something to keep that from happening

If you were actually sorry that it was ending this way you would have done something to keep that from happening

My heart was so fully consumed by you that I helped you realise your feelings for her and hid back the tears as I typed

It's been 5 years and I still don't know what it's like to love someone else. It's been 5 years and you still don't know what it's like to be in love with me.

You will always be someone I love and I pray that you’re okay. Thank you for letting me go so I can be with my soulmate.

i’ve loved you since we were 12 and although i can never tell you, you made me discover yourself and i’ll always love you.

Hey.. You'll never see this but I lied when I said I was over you and we could just be friends. I still like you. And I probably always will. You're my support system and only friend at the moment. I know I can always rely on you and you'll always have my back. It's hard for me to trust guys because of my childhood but I want you to know that I trust you fully. I trust you with my life. If you do ever see this then oops. I love you.
Love Elly.

i'm sorry you had to chase me, and now it's me chasing you. i wish we could just talk but i know that's never going to happen, there isn't a single day i don't think about you. you make me be the person i want to be and i love you for it, it's so hard to just let you go.

if you ever see this message from a growing curiosity, know that i love you more than anything in this world, and you have saved me from ending me, and i’m forever grateful for that.

i’ve know you for a little while and it’s going good but idk if i can do another long distance, i just picked pink cause i said you liked any colour :)

if you ever see this message from a growing curiosity, know that i love you more than anything in this world, and you have saved me from ending me, and i’m forever grateful for that.

you made me who I am. Even knowing that we don’t end up together I would do it all over again. You are completely unique from anyone I have ever met. Never give up on yourself.

I'm glad you found happiness with her, but I can't help wishing even after all this time that it would have been me instead.

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i love you please don’t leave me again, i can’t live without you. you are my person even if i’m not yours

I dont want to see how much fun you are having at that party when you definetly know im home alone...

it’s been a year and every time I see one of those corny love quotes we used to make fun of, I think of you.

it’s been nearly three weeks but i still think of you everyday. i miss what we had. i miss the old you. i just want to go back relive all the love you gave to me. all i want is one more hug and to hear you say you love me. i know i deserve better but i wish it was you. i will forever look for you in everyone i meet.

a big fuck you for making me think u actually loved me. and gaslighting me into thinking i was crazy for what i got mad for. You don’t deserve me. Every thing u did was wrong but i convinced myself i was overreacting. I thought i had a nice guy but ur just like the rest. I hate you. i really do hate you. but if u were to come back I might consider which sucks. You have the highest ego and most cocky personality. i think u forgot who u were dating buddy, lmao go disappoint the next girl. FUCK YOU!

I’m sorry Charlie. For everything. I wish we could’ve lasted longer. I miss u and all the memories. but i get you don’t feel the same anymore. I wish you the best, have fun and love the next girl baby.

i want to stare at the stars and feel at peace again. ill never be enough for you, but yet again i dont think ill ever stop counting your mistakes since that night, im sorry.

our songs hurt to listen to now, but theyll never hurt as much as the 3 words you never meant and the other 7 you did mean.

idk why i can't stop thinking about u but i can't. I don't love you I promise. But still miss you, i think

You made me feel special. A coming of age movie type of special. But I knew that you didn't care about me. You don't really care about anyone.

To the boy I like in 9th grade!, I still like you! You said you liked me too but can you remove the D??

The last month we've spent getting to know each other has been the best month of my life: You've made me feel emotions I didn't think I was even capable of feeling and I've never smiled and laughed so much in my life before.
I hope things continue going the way they are between us - you're amazing.

i loved you. sorry i couldn’t manage to say it. people have finally stopped asking me about you. i’m relieved.

i have never felt such a strong connection to someone. your love was like no other. that smile. but you walked away. you gave up. i question if you ever loved me because you walked away so easily. it’s been three days. i miss you. i just want to talk to you. hear your voice. feel your touch. everyone is saying i deserve better but i wanted you to be better. maybe just maybe we will cross paths again after we both find ourselves. i will wait for you. goodbye my love. i love you more.

What happened to u, u made so many new friends and completely changed, I miss the you I fell in love with ); I wish it could be just me and u alone forever with no distractions. I still love you xx

Almost what would have been our 6 months and yet not a day goes by that I don’t think of u. hoping one day you’ll realize I’m the one.

All the times you said you missed me where u telling the truth cause I haven’t. I always say to everyone I hate you and I’m over you but I’m not there’s a voice in the back of my head telling me to still love you and I can’t get rid of it cause I want to hate u for what u did.

I still think about you every night and think about stuff you said to me a year ago while wearing your t shirt

I still hear your voice, it runs through my head all the time. I see your face everywhere I look. You broke my fucking heart and I said sorry. I don’t know what I did to deserve the hell you put me through, I couldn’t have done to you what you did to me. I wish I could just stop thinking about you. It’s been 9 months. If you ever see this, I miss you but fuck you.

The last thing I said to you was that I hated you, when really I loved you. I’ll regret that for the rest of my life

i’m sorry i wasn’t good enough. i was scared and young but i loved you so much. i’m happy now and have moved on i hope ur doing good

Honestly I ask myself why did I like you, and sometimes I still think this because everytime I see you I feel sick because I knew you didn’t like me back so I’m sorry for taking that out on you but please wash your hands

It’s crazy how you’re still affecting my life. I’ll always have love for you and remember you even when you claim to have forgotten what we had.

If I wasn’t dating someone who I wasn’t comfortable dating at the time, would we have happened? And would we still be in contact?

Damn i miss you, its been almost a year since we had such an amazing summer, it was insane, i regret what i did/didn't do for you and i hope that next summer it will be even better

It's true when they say 'you don't know what you have until it's gone'. Seeing you with her kills me. I never stopped loving you. I still do now. I wouldn't want anyone else to hurt me the way you did, because it was you what you did was okay.

At the time I thought it was the best. Now I just wish we stayed as friends it’s where we are better off

If you’d broken up with her we could have been together forever. I still think about you everyday and it hurts.