Unsent messages to ANTHONY

i wanna give you the world. i wanna explore it with you. i wanna be with you all the time. you mean the world to me. you make me so happy. i don’t know what i would’ve done without you. you are so perfect. your voice is so soothing. i get lost in your eyes. you are so smart. i can’t believe you’re mine. thank you. i can’t wait to make new memories with you. love you, always and forever.

I’m not sure why you still come across my mind but I just wonder if you were really being honest with me

how could you say you had feelings for me two days ago and lose them to easily. how could you say "goodnight love" less than 24 hours ago and then say you lost feelings. i just wish I was dead.

i knew i loved you from the moment I met you. i never knew what love was before we met. now that ur gone I cant stop thinking about you.

No matter what let’s always find each other and last forever like we promised. I’ll always love you so stay.

in the end no matter how much pain u can cause me unknowingly i still love you so much and i wouldn't trade that for the world, u are my person.

i trusted u when i told u abt me harming myself and u just had to say "u did it for attention", ill never forget that.

you told me you’d love me forever, but why didn’t you say that was only until someone better came along.

i still love you and even though you might not come back i’ll be here for you and even tho all those times you hurt me and i annoyed you and everything i still love you so much. hopefully we’ll still be something. i’m sorry for anything tht i have done. and if anything happens i love you.

I liked you so much for so long but for why? I thought you where someone who was actually respectful. I thought you where different. wtf is wrong with you?

since when are you such a douche? i remember when i would do anything in the world for you ,and now i’m nothing to you. i hope all the other people are worth it, because i sure wasn’t.

you make me all giggly and i can’t help but smile whenever i’m with you. i never knew one person could make me this happy. you really are my yellow.

sometimes i hate how bitter i am at the memory of you. i wish you would know that we knew nothing back then and my bitterness is a result of that. you deserve nothing less than sweetness.

i think i am ready to let go of you now. we barely talked, but you still managed to make me feel like i wasnt good enough, made me feel like i had to prove myself to you, and had me spend countless nights crying over you and countless days thinking about u constantly. to then find out i was just another one of your hoes. i want to say you're so fucking stupid for thinking i wouldn't find out, but right now i look like the stupid one for putting up with you for so fucking long. and somehow i still love you. im done wasting my time wondering why ur replies were always so dry. im done trying to be perfect for u. because in the end, its really ur loss. im literally the best you had and ever will have and because of you, i need to work on myself for myself. have fun constantly looking for validation and attention from other girls like u always do. im moving on to better things while you cry over chicks not liking you back. i dont blame them. ur friends and my friends talk so much shit about you and u have no idea. stop lying to me acting like u care for me when u dont. i want to wish you the best, but youve fucked me over so many times. i loved you more than life and i dont know why. and maybe its my fault for falling for u so hard, but u didnt have to lie to me and lead me on. good luck. -?

lol i wish i wasn't your second option, you played me and just ended up with her. it hurts more knowing she was the one i would ask for advise on what i should say to you. "i only like him as a friend"

I might be pregnant. And if I am I know it's yours. I know I can't get rid of it but I can't keep it either it's not fair to him/her/them.

I'm not sure why you tried to kiss me that night, and I'm umsure of why but i still like hearing your whisper through the rays of sun, the smell of new books, the rain hitting my window... I still see you in the littlest spark moments of happines i breathe through,and all I can do is, hope you recognize me in the photo album when you go through it with her.

i have to admit the moment when i fell for you was freshman year of hs when you got on the bus that morning and then after it was a neverending series of butterflied whenever i saw you around school.

Part of me wished you had texted me after we stopped being friends because I know you did that with her....

i know you'll never see this because youre not into sentimental shit. or remorse. you were supposed to be my #1, my bestfriend. you were my brother. i hope it keeps u up at night knowing how shitty you are. i hope you always think about the people you hurt. fuck you, choke. i hope for your sake i never see you again.

i hate you but if you called me i would answer. i hate how im scared to let people care bc of you i hate how i panic when texting people bc of you. i hate how you made me feel. i hate you but part of me will never hate you.

Sigo esperando tu mensaje. Me duele muchísimo que me dejaras de hablar de un día para otro. No sé qué hice mal cuando todo iba tan bien. Solo te deseo lo mejor. Te extraño en mi vida. Gracias por hacerme feliz, realmente feliz.

so you came back.
the endless letters i wrote on here, finally made their way to you. we're seeing each other tomorrow and quite frankly...i feel so out of love. i don't want to see you. i don't even have the energy to text you back sometimes. i think it was just me getting so used to living without you, that i no longer feel attached to you. i no longer feel full with your presence. i waited so long for this moment and now that it is here, i do not know how to handle your vain presence.

i’ve liked you since elementary and i still don’t have the courage to tell you how i feel. but at the same time do i really like you like that?

you told me you loved me and i didn’t because i wasn’t ready. when i told you i loved you, you stopped loving me

Conexiones como la nuestra no ocurre todos los días. ¿Seguirás conmigo o dejarás que el destino decida unirnos?

thank you. thank you for always checking up on me, asking how i slept, and how my day was. i saw something in you that i didn’t see in any other guy. you were different in the best way possible. i never got a chance to tell you how grateful i am that i got to know you. even though we don’t talk anymore you’ll alway mean the absolute world to me.

If I listened to other people then I wouldn't have been so attached and felt so guilty after leaving.

heyy.. so you were the first person to give me butterflies after years of being hurt by others. and that night you said "goodnight love" i thought I was something to you. but unfortunately it meant nothing. days passed you talked to me less and less. you stopped saying goodnight. you went from good morning to gm. you leave me on delivered for hours. you gave me a little hope- a purpose to live- then crushed it. i thought maybe God had finally seen that I was in need of someone and he had seen that I was hurting and that he had brought me you. but I guess that wasn't it. but what did I expect right. i always get hurt. maybe that's just my purpose on this world.

bruh ur the funniest person i know and u make me laugh constantly. ur so much fun to be around and theres never a boring moment with u. i love u so much dude.

We had a budding friendship through the 10th grade, and then it became plain awkward after I confessed my feelings for you... I also hate whoever catfished you into thinking I was messaging you when I wasn't...

im probably an idiot for thinking you'd come back ,, its been 2 years. but i cant move on. hope you're doing well

Thank you for teaching me that there is no Peter Pan.
Rooting for you always. I miss you, my red power ranger.

never mind what i said. i’ve finally realized that very thing!your a terrible person who couldn’t see how much i cared for you, i was so blinded by liking you i lost myself and turned into someone i didn’t want to be. you ruined me and my mental health idk it was just something about you, i don’t know if i truthfully loved you. maybe i did idk it was just something abt you. abt us i genuinely hope from the bottom of my heart that you realize everything and can change for the better. i did. because underneath that sick manipulative pyco lost little boy is a person with a good heart. idk if ill ever see you again but our chapter is finished and i’m worth so much more. good luck with your life and thanks for helping me learn and become the person i am. idk how one person can have such an impact. we were meant to meet not to be

you can be stupid, and real mean, i hate you so much, but you are my best friend and i love you a lot, i wouldn’t trade you for the world, you idiot

hey anthony. i just want to type this text because you just mean so much to me. i think that we've become really close this year. you make me laugh and smile like no other. you're really something different but, while getting closer i think something happened. i think i caught feelings for you. i know it must sound crazy but, it's true. you make me a better person and i just love you who you are. not by looks or anything. you're amazing. thank you for everything

i know i wasnt the best at communicating, but i was trying for you. you changed everything for me, i miss you.

i feel so empty without you now i’ve never felt this way about anyone and i miss talking to you everyday you made me feel special but i’ll always love you.

I've loved you for as long as I have known you. I will always love you, all of you. I want to be with you for all that life has to offer. You're the only person I want to fall asleep with, and the only one I want to wake up with. I love you.

you werent really my first love. you werent really my friend either. i would jump oceans for you Anthony, but you wouldn't even jump puddles for me.

sometimes i miss the way you would let me put my head in your shoulder in school and the way you acted Towards me how much you treated me like a sister i miss it i’m sorry for everything i wish things could just go back to how they where i love you to the moon and back twin (even tho your already calling someone else that) but yeah i know even if we apologize it won’t be the same we both change for the better and the worst but i love you so much and please i just miss our early ft calls out after school ft calls and everything you bought me and just your present in general you always mad me feel safe and yeah our i side jokes those time i slept over at your house when you would help me through my shit when my parents where fighting i and you where there for me i just miss you well ig your old self even tho things will never go back to how they used to be i wish you nothing but the best okay antonio if you ever need someone i’ll always be here i love you.

you aren't my first love but I caught unwanted feelings for you fast. I thought I would actually have a chance with you.. but I guess not. Sorry if I was irritating or just really pushy for no reason. I wish it could've worked out for the better.

You’re my person. You’ve always been my person & I love you more then then words can even explain. I’m happy I got you back.

Hey Anth, I really miss you. I am sorry for not being there for u and hiding my emotions. I love you so much. I hope you thought the same :)

We didn't stay together very long, but you made me feel the most happiest I've ever felt. You were different and I thank you so much for everything. Now and then I remember how happy and complete you made me feel. I'm sorry I broke it up, I'll always regret it. Sometimes I think you're my soulmate. You're moving away in a couple weeks and I just wanted to tell you that you'll always have a special place in my heart. Thank you for everything. Maybe in another lifetime we'll meet again...

I fell in love with you when I was only 15, we didn’t know each other much but your brother and my sister were dating and then mentioned you. I followed you and you followed me on social media. We were text once in a while but that was it. Years go by and we live our own life until this year recently you texted me and we just went from there. I honestly thought this was meant to be but things changed when we would hangout. My heart hurts now that we don’t speak anymore. You would tell me how you weren’t happy with life and everything. If I could protect you for all the awful and not so great things, I would in a heart beat. I hope you can find happiness soon. I
Love you.

I chose red bc its ur fav color. But hey ant. I just wanna say. I love u so much. Idk y exactly i do. But i do and thats that. Ive never really been in a relationship that was serious before ours. So maybe thats y im so attached. Or maybe its bc u take my breath away. Idk. But i do know one thing. No matter if we never speak again. If i never see u again. If one of us moves. If one of us dies. No matter what. I will always love u sm and will always be here for u if u need no matter what. I wish u hadnt blocked me that day but it was ur decision and it’s probably j wat u thought was best. And im ok w that as long as ur happy and ok. Im hoping that one day we’ll meet again face to face and hopefully that day even if its j for a split second ill be able to feel like im home again. I love you so much and i miss you so much. I hope you’re good and i hope ur fam is good too. I love you and if we never meet again. I hope you have yhe best in life and succeed with everything u want to succeed in. Maybe. Hopefully. One day we’ll be able to look back at what we had and just smile. But until then i love you forever and thank you for being the best person to have ever walked in my life. Even tho u sadly walked out too. I love you brat.

ur super unfunny but idk why i find u attractive and idk why i like u its been a year ever since ur ass popped up inside of my dream HOW DOES THAT EVEN WORK LIKE HOW DOES A PERSON GET FEELINGS FOR A RANDOM PERSON AFTER A DREAM THEY JUST HAD IT MAKES NO SENSE I LITERALLY HATE IT HERE ALSO I HOPE U GET A BAD GRADE IN CHINESE

i hate reading our old messages, i missed every single hint you gave me. and what hurts me the most is the you sent telling me to not live my life with regrets that exactly what i did

You don’t force me to do anything like the other 3 guys did. You’re different and i appreciate you so fucking much.