You were my first love. You will always have a place in my heart, but that place shrunk a little after i found out you cheated on me twice.

i dont have the words to explain how you make me feel. but i stay up all night falling more and more for you..

Why can’t I be your girlfriend.. it’s been 5 months why plan a future with me but I’m not your girlfriend

I wish you saw us the way I see us. I know were best friends but if we ever gave it a chance our love would be infinite. I love you and I pray one day you see us the way I do. you're the best and ever since I met you I can't imagine my life without you. you make me the happiest and saddest. you'll always be my first love and the person I tell my kids about when they ask about my first love. I wish I had the balls to tell you all this but I cannot risk this friendship. I love you even though you hurt most when you talk about another girl or when you don't text me back quick. you'll always be my number one.

How can I love someone and hate someone so much. You're my best friend and I'm in love with you. we could be great, our love would be infinite if you just gave us a chance. I wish you saw us the way I do because now I can't unseeded it. Ever since I met you I can't imagine life without you. I pray one day you see how great we could be. I love you and always will, if I could stop I would but I can't. I love you!

i dont even know where to start, i miss u so much and what we used to be. im so sorry that i wasn't enough for you, but i really did give my all. you came into my life when i was at my lowest- and made me feel on top of the world. i never knew that one day you would be the reason that i am now at my lowest. to this day, i still dont know where i went wrong, all i know is that i will always be here for you no matter what, just like i said i would. it hurts so bad to know that you dont care anymore. you will never have a clue, that loving you was the best thing my heart went through.

I might be pregnant. And if I am I know it's yours. I know I can't get rid of it but I can't keep it either it's not fair to him/her/them.

so much time has passed, but i want to say i'm sorry. i wish things were different. but you need to get out of my head

i love you so much man. you saved me when i was at my lowest. i looked forward to texting you everyday, but now it's not the same. not the same vibe anymore :( but it's okay. you're happier now with someone else. sending memes to someone else lmao. if you ever find this, it's going to be so awkward.

You know I feel Really used by you. I thought we could be friends and maybe even more. But the second you started talking to me I felt a connection. You chose her and that’s completely okay. I just can’t help but think that maybe if I had been more open with my feeling we could have worked.

You rlly hurt me and you wouldn’t let me live anything down. You treated me like shit and I’m more mad at myself for not setting boundaries

Im really sorry you got your heart broken. I was just tying to be a good friend and be there for you but you didnt care you goshted me a couple of times. which hurt but what can i say i deserved it im sorry.

i hate that you still make me upset. i mistook a genuine fear of you for butterflies. but i haven't felt that strongly about anyone since you. i hope to feel indifferent toward you someday.

i’m sorry i didn’t feel the same way you did. i’m so messed up in the head i couldn’t do it. you’ll find someone better. you deserve better.

you completed me. you were the only thing keeping me going. i’m gonna make you proud one day. so proud muffin. rip.

i dont know why i’m so attached to you. i see you talking to other girls and i’m still dumb enough to believe you want me. but i know you won’t ever stop talking to them because that’s just you and i would never ask you to change for a dumb girl like me.

I wish i never ended it with you because now everyday I get remined about how we use to date and now i just want you back but i cant because you are with someone you love more than you ever did with me. which is fine with me, but I cant stop thinking about you and i shouldn't. I just wish i had the courage to tell you the truth but i cant because then i would mess up your relationship with Edith. I just want you to knw that I still love you and i want to be with you but you can't. Hopefully you can if anything happens with you and Edith. Love you Anthony.

I meant it every time I said I love you. Even though things suck, I still do. You are my favorite place.

You don’t force me to do anything like the other 3 guys did. You’re different and i appreciate you so fucking much.

you never believed that i really loved you or anything like that. but i choose to believe i did. some
type of gravitational pull happened and i wish you just gave me a chance

Thank you for being my friend while he is gone. You stayed with me even though you had so many options that weren’t with me. i am glad we are friends now and i can trust in you

thank you. thank you for always checking up on me, asking how i slept, and how my day was. i saw something in you that i didn’t see in any other guy. you were different in the best way possible. i never got a chance to tell you how grateful i am that i got to know you. even though we don’t talk anymore you’ll alway mean the absolute world to me.

I miss you. Please come back. I think about you all the time. I regret so many things. Please come back.

I still have a lot of cute screenshots and when I miss you I just go through them. Sometimes, I get to the bad screenshots, where we argued and end up feeling better that we broke up. Sometimes, I dont get that far and I end up crying at the first ones. When you told me you would run away with me. When you would tell me to take care of mom. When you'd tell me you loved me even when I was annoying. When you said that you wanted to try. For us. It hurts. Seeing all those unsleeped nights go to waste. I even told my mom about you, but not in the context I was hoping for. I told her we already ended things. I miss you. A lot. I miss the times you were trying to talk in romanian with me. It was rlly cute. I appreciated every single moment talking to u.

I know you used me for my body but I still wanted more I wanted to love each other I wanted to lay in your arms again where I felt comfortable I wanted to love you loudly or silently I want to feel your touch again I miss you maybe someday we can be something

i hate reading our old messages, i missed every single hint you gave me. and what hurts me the most is the you sent telling me to not live my life with regrets that exactly what i did

hey listen, i don’t know if you’ll ever see this but i just wanted to let you know you hurt me. i just fell in love with a version of you i created in my head. but no matter what i feel like i’ll always be stuck having some kind of feelings for you. i’m glad we broke up but am i really? fuck. yk what, i hate you.

I think about you all the time. I wish you gave me as much attention as I gave you. All I want is some of your time bb.

You treat my week for thirty minutes and than I might as well not exist for the rest of the day and I’m deluding myself into thinking I’m happy with you because I love you. I use to choose me over men and not chase, but you’ve done something to me and I can’t let you go. Wtf.

This week is your only week to make things better. I want to see that you’re trying and that you want me. I want you to chase me for once. I’m tired of sprinting after you all the time.

ur super unfunny but idk why i find u attractive and idk why i like u its been a year ever since ur ass popped up inside of my dream HOW DOES THAT EVEN WORK LIKE HOW DOES A PERSON GET FEELINGS FOR A RANDOM PERSON AFTER A DREAM THEY JUST HAD IT MAKES NO SENSE I LITERALLY HATE IT HERE ALSO I HOPE U GET A BAD GRADE IN CHINESE

the most painful part of the breakup wasn’t even your text. not your words of you saying you didn’t want to be with me anymore. It was the realization that I had lost you. And I wouldn’t be able to talk to you anymore, at least it wouldn’t be the same anymore.

I talk about you all the time, and people tell me how strong I am, how mature I am for not resenting you. For not talking badly about you. And I wonder how they think that I’m being strong when even the thought of you still shatters my heart into a million pieces.

Yes you ant, why did I have to love the idea of you but not you, I am so sorry. I know you fucked up too but I miss you in this life. I hope you’re happy living with someone or something that makes you proud. I forgive you. I do. Everything that happened. I love you. I actually love you so much. So damn much. You were/ are my soulmate. I miss you. I need you. But I can’t keep waiting in this life. I love you. I never stopped even after everything. I love you. I love you. I love you.

I chose red bc its ur fav color. But hey ant. I just wanna say. I love u so much. Idk y exactly i do. But i do and thats that. Ive never really been in a relationship that was serious before ours. So maybe thats y im so attached. Or maybe its bc u take my breath away. Idk. But i do know one thing. No matter if we never speak again. If i never see u again. If one of us moves. If one of us dies. No matter what. I will always love u sm and will always be here for u if u need no matter what. I wish u hadnt blocked me that day but it was ur decision and it’s probably j wat u thought was best. And im ok w that as long as ur happy and ok. Im hoping that one day we’ll meet again face to face and hopefully that day even if its j for a split second ill be able to feel like im home again. I love you so much and i miss you so much. I hope you’re good and i hope ur fam is good too. I love you and if we never meet again. I hope you have yhe best in life and succeed with everything u want to succeed in. Maybe. Hopefully. One day we’ll be able to look back at what we had and just smile. But until then i love you forever and thank you for being the best person to have ever walked in my life. Even tho u sadly walked out too. I love you brat.

i hate you so much but i love you at the same time. you came back into my life when i was the happiest without you. fuck you

when you chose her over me, it really broke me. I cant believe I lost to the girl who knew I loved you

it hurts to listen to the songs we listened too when we were together. I love you. until we meet again my love. i will always be waiting.

I fell in love with you when I was only 15, we didn’t know each other much but your brother and my sister were dating and then mentioned you. I followed you and you followed me on social media. We were text once in a while but that was it. Years go by and we live our own life until this year recently you texted me and we just went from there. I honestly thought this was meant to be but things changed when we would hangout. My heart hurts now that we don’t speak anymore. You would tell me how you weren’t happy with life and everything. If I could protect you for all the awful and not so great things, I would in a heart beat. I hope you can find happiness soon. I
Love you.

I wish you realized how much I love you but you’ll never see me that way. And I can accept that as long as I can keep you in my life, I can keep this secret to myself and lie saying I don’t love you when in reality I love you so fucking much..

Conexiones como la nuestra no ocurre todos los días. ¿Seguirás conmigo o dejarás que el destino decida unirnos?

you told me you loved me and i didn’t because i wasn’t ready. when i told you i loved you, you stopped loving me

i want to text u but i think that would be weird lol. i feel like we could’ve had something special, but it just wasnt the right timing i guess. i do miss u. i hope you’re happy :)

i’ve liked you since elementary and i still don’t have the courage to tell you how i feel. but at the same time do i really like you like that?

Will you continue to think about me when you bond with another? Will you think about your body pressed against mine? Will you
lucidly dream about my wet kisses? Will you reminisce in my laughter, my eyes locked with yours, grasping
my small body? Will you return to me? Better question, will you ever be fond of me? Would you announce to
others that I am yours? Will I be a secret? Oh how I admire our secret romance! I question myself... do I genuinely
like you or do I yearn for a sense of affection and validation? I am okay with losing you in all honesty. In the
end, we will have our friendship. I want to wake up in your big, strong arms at 7am. I want to hear you moan at
me. I want to feel your kisses. Did you ever like me? It is a shame that you caught me at a point in time
where I feel nothing. Do you find me to be ethereal? I wish I had the guts to ask you these questions instead
of pitifully typing them out to strangers. I secretly want to cling onto your hoodies with firm, great care. Okay,
I will admit, when you move on, I will be jealous. For now, I will cherish my loyalty to you, the memories made/ will be made, etc. Am I good enough for you to be a lover? Will I ever know? I wonder who will take your place. Will I be as excited about them as I am about you? How long will this go on until I finally release you? Is it my genuinity that clasp onto you? I want to wake up to you, I want to be possessed, I want to be in a firm position.

so you came back.
the endless letters i wrote on here, finally made their way to you. we're seeing each other tomorrow and quite frankly...i feel so out of love. i don't want to see you. i don't even have the energy to text you back sometimes. i think it was just me getting so used to living without you, that i no longer feel attached to you. i no longer feel full with your presence. i waited so long for this moment and now that it is here, i do not know how to handle your vain presence.

I messed up, I know, and I am sorry. I shouldn’t have gotten into a relationship with you so quickly. I know it means nothing now, but I’ve changed. I’m ready for a relationship, how do I prove that to you? If you happen to be reading this and don’t know if it’s me, your in n out order is a double double animal style (yes on onions), fries animal style, and a neapolitan milkshake, at least, that used to be your order....

would it make you happy to know that you are the only thing I can still write about with little effort? at the thought of you when i'm staring at a blank page it's like all of the how are you's and conversations we haven't had in the passed year can just come out. i actively no longer write because it upsets me knowing you are one of the only things I can write about with ease. that's slightly ridiculous and i know it. how do i get back to myself? ps thank u for my favourite poetry book, i still love it and its still one of my favourite christmas gifts. (but also not thank you for making it so hard for me to write without feeling like I'm being torn back to the past.)

We didn't stay together very long, but you made me feel the most happiest I've ever felt. You were different and I thank you so much for everything. Now and then I remember how happy and complete you made me feel. I'm sorry I broke it up, I'll always regret it. Sometimes I think you're my soulmate. You're moving away in a couple weeks and I just wanted to tell you that you'll always have a special place in my heart. Thank you for everything. Maybe in another lifetime we'll meet again...

I like you like a lot but i fear you don't feel the same and i don't want to feel destroyed like i once did.