Unsent messages to ADAM

Thank you for showing me how not to love someone. I will always love better and harder because of you.

you were my first love, i remember the day we met too. I want to thank you for the good memories, and the bad. The ones where you cheated on me when i left to camp for a week, those memories were the worst, and they shaped me into the person i am today. Cold,hard, unable to really feel in a relationship. I hate you so much, but i love you you toxic son of a bitch.

i’m sorry that i was never enough for you. but i’m glad that she was. i’ll never understand why you left. you were my everything. my happiness, my joy. you were my best friend and more. and i’ll never forget you. i still think of you. a lot. but i know you’ll never think of me. i miss you so much. i see you in my laugh, i see you in the stars, i see you everywhere. a constant reminder of you. and i’ll be waiting here just for u. even tho ik you won’t come back. so if your reading this, i’m so sorry

the way you emotionally guilt tripped me and controlled me made me so sick and tired. don't ever do that to anyone else, it's exhausting.