Unsent messages to WILLIAM

I no longer care anymore and honestly it feels amazing. These two years away from you taught me a lot and that devils can be disguised as people so watch who you let into your life. You were so very toxic; put me down every chance you got. Always from day one looking outside our relationship for more... If I knew back then what I know now; I would’ve ran as hell and never looked back. I’m the happiest since you’ve been gone and if I never have to see you again; that’d be answering my prayers. ??

Ps when you finally decide to come out of the closet you’ll be happier and you’ll stop destroying everyone that comes into your life.

Goodbye Everett

You're the opposite of a fun-house mirror, a crystal-clear reflection of all the worst parts of me. I can't describe how wonderfully terrifying it was.

They can't hurt you if they can't see your heart, so you bare your teeth when they try to hold your hand.

i’ll love you forever. it hurts. i wish you would lose your anger and pride, and see our connection and the bond we will always have for what it is. once in a lifetime love, neither of us will ever be able to replace it. you don’t understand though; so until then, at least we sleep under the same stars. always, “so into you.” godspeed, my love.

I’ve physically never felt this infatuated with a person before. I now resonate everything pleasant with you. I hope you recognize me soon.

The day will come when all your attempts to replace me with someone else will not be enough because you will never find me in other eyes or no matter how hard you try

i rlly like u but ik u are playing me and only want me for my body but why would u do that if u didn’t think of me that way. they has to be some reason why you would. but now u j leave me on open. ig were friends w benifits but minus the friends part. maybe one day you’ll realize

you treat me better than i knew was possible. i smile everytime i see your name pop up onto my screen. thank you for reminding me what butterflies feel like ❤️

hey, we met in south africa at a pizza place, we were about 6 or 7, we played together , i still remember you.

I really hope that you could see that but I’m prob gonna keep it for myself. Anyway the first moment I saw you I knew you were the guy that would make me so happy and that we would do some gigantic adventures. unfortunately any of that happened.. why? I messed up again. I didn’t shoot my chance. I stayed there doing nothing and waited for you to come. But I guess you didn’t have the same thought as me. you know I kept quiet and kept everything that I suffered inside me like always. and now I am broken because I still think of you like you were mine when in reality you’re sleeping and laughing with this other girl. I guess she’s the perfect one and I wasn’t

Since the day I met you, you have not once failed to make me smile and not once let me down. I miss you more than anything else in my life, and being your friend has changed me for the better. When I say I want to marry you, I am kidding, but only partly. I am not attracted to you, but your happiness radiates in a way that I cannot put into words. I wish I could say all of this to you and have you understand the impact you have made on me. I love you always and forever.

I’m searching for you in every guy I’m meeting but if we would be together I won’t be searching for you in others

i feel like youre a ghost. and im doomed to unrequited love. because youre a funny ghost, a pretty ghost, a delightfully strange ghost, but a ghost nonetheless. barely a body and barely a soul.

as I ponder about how we parted ways and how it came to be, I realize how important you are, how you perfectly filled the hole in my heart. your charming ways and flattering compliments, never failing to make me smile. no matter how bad the day was, just the view of your name on my phone heals all of my burdens and troubles. every day I think about you and, what we could've been. the bright future ahead of us full of laughter and joy. living every day worry-free knowing you'll always be by my side. if he never got in the way then I dream about the spectacular things we could have done together.

and remember, see you again :)

i really like you as more than just a friend but i know we will never be together and im to scarred to say it because youre my bestfriend and i cant afford to loose you

I never loved Someone how I loved you ich already told it to you but you don’t Tell me how you feel my best friend is your best friend and you Telled her that you have feelings for me but why you don’t Tell it me?

I'm sorry I couldn't stay longer things were getting to hard. I wish when I told you everything that you understood.

I had dreams about u and you told me once that whenever you have a dream about someone you know you like them

why. why couldnt you let me down easy. you lead me on because you know i have a softspot for you. but now that soft spot is gone. FUCK YOU and FUCK HOW YOU FEEL you inconsitirate bitch

i thought you were the one, you were my person. but i wasn’t yours. the day you told me you were losing feelings for me was the day my heart shattered into a million pieces. it was like i was as cold as ice and you were the heat. next to you i melted, but you took me to the coldness of your heart and protected me, it felt like home. you’re everything to me, but you broke me. i shattered. i wish i could’ve made you more happy. my heart has nothing but endless love for you. i wish i could’ve told you how much i love you while you were still mine. my heart is yours and forever will be, my love

Ayo, so I'll just admit it right now,

I like you. Not like a friend tho
I never got to tell you this, but I was positive you liked me until I found out you actually didn't like me... and you liked someone else besides me... :/

you are my everything. my best friend. my soul mate. i will always love you no matter how hard it gets, i will always be there for you through it all. my sweet boy i love you with my whole heart, please don’t ever change.

How come I gave you my all when you gave me nothing? And yet I still was shut out of everything like trash.

sometimes i wish we could go back to just being friends. because then everything wouldn't have got so complicated. but then i remember everything that you've done and think im happy we're not. because you're not a good person at the minute. unfortunately, i still love you though.

I think if I wasn't so hurt I wouldn't be making you feel as though I was pushing you away. But despite my own fears thank you for deciding to stay.

I can't believe you. You did nothing but hurt my own brother- he loved you. But you didn’t love him. You just didn’t want to be alone. Or maybe- maybe he was good for your ego. Or maybe he made you feel better about your miserable life, but you didn’t love him. Because you don’t destroy the person you love.

Every time you appear in my dreams is a reminder that you aren't here with me. I am letting you go. I am tired.

hi william. there's really no way for me to legitimately say this to you because i'm afraid, so i'm going to write my message here. ever since the first day we spoke to each other, i've liked you. like ALOT. you seem like such a kind and sweet person who would be amazing to be close with. i'm not entirely sure if you feel the same way because i keep getting lots of mixed signals, but it's all good.
but yeah, i just thought i'd come on here and say that i like you :)

you made a million promises not to hurt me and you hurt me more than anyone has and yet i still want u

the beauty with which you love something intangible makes me wonder how heavenly it would be if you loved me

hey William it’s me veronica I know we live on opposite sides of the US but I really hope we meet again someday we have had so many ups and downs already and it’s crazy. I love you. And I hope one day you can love me back again.- ur Cali girl V
PS if we have a snowball fight I’m totally winning

Pss - stop leaving me on delivered for days just love me again please.

jag hoppas det hon var värt det, du betydde allt för mig, konstigt hur jag inte kunde betyda nått för dig

I wish we ended things in a better way, because i miss our friendship everyday and i could be my honest self around you in a way i couldn’t with anybody else.

You make me so mad and literally confuse me so much like why would you tell me this. We haven’t talked in so long and you just decide that I have to know about ur new love interest like there’s no reason.

I wish I never fucked things up. You felt so perfect to me and I miss it everyday. You are what I’ve been needing and I just want it all back.

I’m trying to distance myself because you don’t feel the same way but it’s so hard because we’re close friends. This really hurts honestly.

I still like you. Idk why, but I do. I miss you like hell. Idk if youre ever gonna see this, but I still like you.
- Your Little Angel

when I go to heaven(or hell) the first person im asking to see is you. first to slap the shit of you for being a bastard and then hug you so tight you won't be able to breath, im longing for your hug.

I loved and loved and loved and you didn't feel the same after a few months. crazy how that one works.

He whispers "Je t'aime" in my ear every night before he falls asleep. I lay next to him with the sound of his quiet breathing in my ears and I wonder if you're thinking of me. I wonder if I'm actually going insane or if you are only a way to distract myself from the fact that I am once again allowing someone to fall in love with me when I know I will never love them back. I fall asleep into nightmares of your face, you on top of me, your hand in my hair, and my nails in your back and your breath down my spine and I wonder if this is what it means to really love someone. I wonder if the haunting I am experiencing is the closest I will ever come to being madly and inexplicably attached to someone. I hope I never have the answers to these questions because I think they would ruin me, I think that you and I together would be the end of me because I would love you and I would stay until you left. I've always been the first to run but sometimes I think I'd like to know what it feels like. What it's like to watch the person you want most in this world to walk away from you without a glance back, as I have done so many times before. Do I love you? Or do I just love the way you could hurt me?

hi will,
its me. i still wonder how youre doing day to day, even tho i know i shouldnt. i will always wish the best for you.

At the very least, we always get to be each other's first love. We left a great impression on each other's friends and families. There was nothing but love and respect the whole relationship. I just wish it would have lasted forever...but maybe someday we will give it another try. Maybe when we're both happier.

The weirdest part about all of this might be that I could text you that I miss you right now. I don't even doubt that you'd answer. But what would you say. We could be fixed with one conversation, but I'm too scared that you won't feel the same way and then I'll have to fully let go of my hope for us.

You were my bestfriend and im sorry we can’t talk anymore, sometimes i miss you and sometimes i hate you.

I had a huge crush on you. You made my heart skip beats whenever I saw you. Then when i actually got to talk to you, I realised you were actually a dick and bully and no different to other guys. Obviously lost feelings for you after the first year of liking you.

Im still here wondering if Im supposed to be with you but it’s too late now. Thank you for everything

I'm moving away for college and you hate that fact so much you've started distancing yourself from me.
Is it that hard to say you love me and want me to stay?

We went through all that to become strangers again. I miss you. You were the only real friend I had left