Unsent messages to VICTOR

Siempre estuve para ti cuando tu ni te preocupabas por mi, aunque me lastimabas siempre estuve y creo que estaré para ti, me juraste amor cuando tenias a otra persona, cuando mas te necesite no estabas para mi hoy en día me rompo a pedazos por tu ausencia, te dedique una y mil canciones y tu jamás pudiste decirme un te amo sincero, cada día a tu lado pensaba que me sentia bien y no me daba cuenta el daño que me hacías te extraño a pesar de lo mierda que me trataste.
Cada noche lloro por ti y al dia siguiente tendré que fingir que soy feliz ya que mama no se debe de enterar del sufrimiento que me causaste, pensé ciegamente que cambiarias que serias como antes de los problemas pero la desconfianza que te tenia y tu con tus inseguridades acabamos destruyendo algo que pudo ser perfecto para los dos, ayude a sanar tu heridas y tu solo abrías mas las mías me hiciste creer en falsas esperanzas, eras casi todo para mi y eso no lo notaste cada vez te dejaba de importar nuestra relacion y parecía que querías que me alejara y cuando lo empecé a hacer realmente no te importo y ahora que todo se termino simplemente me déjate en visto los mensajes en los cuales te exprese todo y eso significo que realmente jamás te importe y no te importo, lo intentamos tantas veces que juntos nos matábamos y separados nos morimos.

I had loved you for 5 years. And you didn’t return my feelings once. You caught feelings for your ex after he cheated on you...do you know how bad that hurt? I let you go finally....but I still think about you and what you put me through....f##k you. Seriously. I hate you so much that I can’t hate you..... I’m sorry I wasn’t enough for you.....

hey bestie. 2nd shot here we go. i just wanted to say im grateful for you and am so happy you made it into my life right when i needed you and i love you for that without you these months would be so hard. i cant wait for us to go to concerts together and scream til we cant talk anymore. i cant wait til we can dance again normally and do recitals. i cant wait til we can drive around at night and blast sad music together while we get mcdonalds. ily bestie.

What we had taught me heartbreak and you just act like it never happened. i still hold on to the hope i meant something to you.

Hey its been a while, I wanted to tell you that the short amount of time that we talked meant a lot to me. I had so much fun getting to know you Vic. We would stay up late and talk about random topics. when we would talk, time would pass by so fast. I am grateful that I was able to have a good friend even if it was for a short time. I will cherish the memories. Take care loser :)

i miss u but u dont even care about me so what can i do. we had great moments but rn is not our time. why u dont care. one day we will love eachother like in the past i'm sure

Somehow you really had me falling for you I have no clue why but your kinda toxic for doing what u did no cap on baby fool

I haven’t seen you in years but some nights i still fall asleep fantasizing about you. I’ll forever appreciate our love even if it doesn’t exist anymore.

You were my first love .. its been years since we talked and yes I’ve moved on in life but somehow sometimes i catch myself with the thought of you . I hope you’re doing well

we havent been together for a while, but for some reason i have always found a way to keep you in my life. whether its as friends or more, i have always wanted you there, but now i think i have finally realized that i need to let go of you, for good. i have to let go and stop referring to you as my first love and more as the guy i used to love. you can't be that important to me, you cant constantly be in my mind, when I'm never on yours. i wish we were able to walk into this year as friends in a healthy friendship, but i dont think that's possible. i think i have come way too far to let you know about me and who i have become, i dont think you deserve that. so while i dont wish you harm, i dont think i want you in my life anymore, but you will always be in the back of my head, and I'm okay with that.

I really like you and lately I have been thinking about you. Last night I was thinking about you so much I couldn’t even fall asleep. I really like playing minecraft with you and hopefully today you will send me a text. I know that we might not date because of the long distance but hopefully soon we will in 2021. I hope when I wake up from this nap I receive a text from you since last night I didn’t get much sleep from thinking of you

you are the one who broke my heart and did not care, you are the one who made me cry and did not realize, you are the one who fucking left and did not even say goodbye

I broke up with you and now we are back together. I will try harder this time, we couldn’t even last a day without being each other girlfriend and boyfriend.

I broke up with you today, I don’t know how to deal with the pain and I miss you so much. You’re not mine anymore and it’s my fault.. everything is my fault.. it hurts that you’re not mine but it’s okay I guess.

I love you, but you hurt my feelings too much. I’m still with you so.. I hope you change and understand me better.

hi i rlly like you..maybe even love im so glad were together never in my mind would i think youd like me back. so um heres to forever+1 ily

i wish i could tell u how perfect u r to me and even tho ik u dont feel the same i still hop i can give you the world someday ;)

I'm glad that at least she's making you happy. I know she's way better than me. I wish you guys the best.

I wish we could have a do-over. I wish I had done so many things differently. I wish we had more conversations about what we were both thinking/what we both really wanted. I think we could be really great together if only we had done it differently. I’m sorry for pushing you when I knew you weren’t ready. You are such a good person and I wish you could see that.

Reach out to me please. I know we haven’t talked in a while but I know what we had was something more. It was special and you know we can’t just ignore it. I hope one day we can talk about this. I miss you.

I hate the way you make me feel. It’s been years and I still can’t stop thinking about you. No matter how badly u hurt me, I’m still head over heels for you. You bitch.

i forgive you. i spent my whole life telling myself i hated you but in reality i was just mad at the fact that i needed you.

you were mature in some ways, and not mature in others. that was what i liked most. i liked the way you talked, if i can remember it, it was like every word that came out of your mouth had to be absolutley convincing and careful. I liked how we would spend an entire day planning to cook and diving headfirst into it without thinking about wether or not the guests we invited were going to come. i liked that we did it together. i don't like how, despite all that, you still didn't like me in the end. what did I do? I like to think it was because it wasn't at the right time and you weren't mature enough to see it. i liked you, but i dont think i do anymore. youre arrogant and cant understand sometimes. i would like to say i wish you the best, but i cant.

why do i even try with you? it's hopeless. everything about you and I is hopeless. there is absolutely no use. you make me feel so powerless. i never do anything right no matter how fucking hard I try. i just want to be able to love you without having to fight for the bare minimum in return.

three years ago, when we met, i fell absolutely in love with you, even at 11. you were so charming, and kind and understanding. i could talk to you about anything. you were so comfortable with everyone, and social. the most I get from you now is a fucking stupid text every three fucking months. i just miss you, so much. and you don't even try. our friendship has become so one-sided. it always has been. you never seemed to care. not even a little bit. i try to get you to talk to me, to us, but you never do. you have other people to talk to. it's like I don't matter to you. you can apologize all you want, but I know the truth. i know that deep down you want me gone. you wouldn't give a shit If i was gone right now. nobody would. nobody would even notice. fuck you, man. fuck you for making me feel like shit all the time. it's the worst when it's not even your fault. it's mine.

the worst feeling in the world is when the person you hate the most is the same person that you would take a bullet for. i would die for you, and I don't get shit in return. not even a fucking text. you never fucking talk to me. i just want to hear you. call me, text me, send me stupid shit that makes me laugh, the bare minimum. why can't you just prove that you give a shit instead of just being mean to me and the apologizing. you had me fooled, honestly. you could be the worst fucking person on the planet to me but i'd still adore you because I love you. and it's so tiring. you don't give me shit, ever. yeah, I made things awkward, why does that matter? why can't you just love me like you love the rest of them? you chose deborah over all of us, especially me. you'd choose anyone over me, and not bat an eye. not give a shit. not think twice. because you don't care. as many times as I text you, try to get you to interact, it's never enough. you don't care. and neither do I apparently. not enough to just let you fucking go.

Sabes las cosas no se dieron como se debían de dar, lo teníamos todo para ser una hermosa pareja, pero llegaron ciertas personas y lo jodieron todo; aunque yo sé que quedamos solo como amigos, no sabes las ganas que tenía de estar con una persona como tú, eres esa persona correcta en el momento equivocado. Espero y si seguimos hablando en algún momento se nos de la oportunidad de ser algo más que amigos

dude like i miss you all the time and thats so dumb because now i guess we were just childhood bestfriends so what does it matter now anyways but like it totally does still matter to me and thats so dumb i hope youre doing better and i wish youd text me back one of these days just so i could see how youre doing and maybe talk for a second so life could feel normal again. i love you always

You know I loved you. You failed me... Right person in wrong time,I hope you can have somebody that loves you with their heart

all of this shit im feeling is so stupid but why wouldnt you just watch it with me? or at least just pretend you wanted to spend another second talking to me?

Enserio prefieres a ella que a mí? no me mientas wn, ya me canse, además creo que ya debería irme de tu vida, así que si vuelves me despediré de ti, me jodeeeee

Que puedo decir de ti. Ya va para un año de que te conocí y meses de que nos alejamos. Puedo decir que me brindaste una amistad genial y que me hubiera gustado que no terminará por culpa mía. Cada día te extraño, pero sin duda hay días en los que me pega mucho más ese sentimiento de nostalgia y de que ya no te tengo. Espero en un futuro volverte a encontrar, que me cuentes todo lo que haz hecho mientras no estuve porque la verdad yo te he necesitado en cada decisión que he tomado, pero no hay vuelta atrás y solo queda seguir. Sé que prometimos amistades antes que noviazgos. Te quiero y de verdad lo siento.

Entiendo que no me fuera correspondido, pero no tenías que haber hecho las cosas tan incómodas. Ya éramos mayorcitos.

I really liked you so much. I had to leave you to show myself the power I had. you were not ready for me. It's literally been a year, how time flies. i wonder how you are not in a romantic way I just kind of miss you

after 4 years we're finally together, idk if this is love but I kinda like it.
ty for being always there.

Si me encuentro contigo dentro de 20 años el corazón me seguirá dando un vuelco.
Disfruta tu vida y gracias por haber sido parte de la mía.

you made me feel special, you made me feel like you actually cared and that i actually helped but you took months of opening up to me just to leave me

I'm sorry.
No, and i needa stop saying sorry.
i don’t even know what to say.
i try so hard to make u happy that i kinda forget about me.
it’s not that i’m not happy.
nvm i’m not fucking happy.
and i haven’t been for a while
every time i smile it’s cus i’m tryna make someone else smile .
but i’m j so numb on the inside
and i act like a child cus i don’t wanna grow up .
i’m not happy anymore.
i haven’t been ina while. You caused all of my pain and suffering.
i cut my self a while ago
but i didn’t feel like telling cus i would probs j overreact
it’s ok tho.
i’m ok now.
but the fact that u wanted to break up w me
for talking w my girl bsf
is ... crazy.
i do eveything to make you happy
but, u get mad at me for doing things that keep me from having anxiety attacks and that make me happy. You don't let me post anything on social media, you don't let me talk to my best friend, your a fucking controlling freak. I should have listened to my friends.
and no it’s not that i don’t wanna talk to u.
it’s j your too busy playing video games to rlly care ab me.
I’m done.



Im finally happy.

You made me realize I've slowly been falling in love with you. You've been my friend for 5 years. You may have trouble communicating to people and so did I but when we would talk to each other it would feel like no one was there at all, no judgement. I know you liked me that one year, but where was I? In a depression because I was heartbroken over another guy. Even though you knew I didn't like you back you still cheered me up. Two years later and you came to my school. I see you as a close friend now. And I'm glad to say I love you. I don't know what happened to you, but where ever u are rn I hope u know that Ily

having you back after losing you all those years ago is the best kind of indescribable feeling, i can't wait for the rest of our life together. i love you to the moon and back and a million miles more

despite our age difference (3 yrs) you made me happy and i felt so overwhelmed with joy and butterflies when i was around you. I haven't seen you since and it makes so upset I even cry sometimes just of the thought that I might never see you again. I hope I see you soon.

ik being distant was so hard and i’m sorry things turned so toxic but i love you endlessly and i will never forget u

Y pensar que yo estuve para ti tanto tiempo, que eras mi motivación para levantarme cada día y tu pasabas de mi, encima me dejaste en San Valentín. Desde ese día odio el 14 de febrero.

si hubiera sabido que seria la última vez que nos veríamos te hubiera abrazado mas fuerte.
te amo y te recuerdo siempre

Victor, no sé qué hacer ahora que ya no estamos, por favor:( quiero volver contigo, quiero que volvamos a tener la relación que teníamos antes de que termináramos. Te extraño demasiado y no sé qué hacer ahora que no estoy contigo:c, quiero saber si te sigo importando o si de verdad quieres que me vaya de tu vida, por favor, quiero volver contigo, extraño mucho a mi niño hermoso:(

in a different version of the world we live in, i know we would’ve been something absolutely beautiful. i’ll always love you.

I loved you, and bits of me still do. And for the months we talked, I never told you I loved you. And I didn’t because there was no chance of us actually being together. And I’m sorry, that it was like I lead you on. But we couldn’t be together and i found something to fill in the voids I wish you filled. We went so well together, and the way you talked to me and the way you’d tell me I’m perfect, and the way we blended just perfectly was insane, how we could be loving and joking all at once. I was happy. I was the happiest I ever was, and I wish we could have been together and you didn’t live so far. Because who I’m with now, I’m happy but he isn’t the same as you and I. When I was with you I didn’t cry I wasn’t worried I wasn’t anything negative and i all I felt was positivity. With my new person, I love him, but like I said he’s not you. He’s not completely perfect and compassionate like you. And I miss you and I miss what I once called us. And I hated the fact I couldn’t say I love you because I feared you felt the same, and I knew you did but you never told me either. But I fell in love with who you were and your personality, your cute face, your voice, and just you for being you and caring for me. And I’m sorry, for leaving you so unexpected for him. With no warning. Just a text. Saying I found someone else. It hurt you. And I can never forgive myself. But victor, I really did love you. And I still love the thought of you. And I’m sorry. For this all.

Creo que fuiste mi primer amor, no correspondido e incluso el más y único doloroso. (No dejé que volvieran a lastimarme, creo que en parte fue por ti, creé mi propio escudero, una torre con miles de candados, ocultandome) Más que nada fuiste un crush, te confesé mis sentimientos pero fue un rotundo rechazo. Cuando te fuiste creí que te había dejado de querer, todo este tiempo me había olvidado de tu existencia, volvimos a hablar y nose que es lo que siento solo decirte que deseo que pare, ya no te quiero querer me duele y mucho. Agradezco los momentos felices que tuvimos siendo compañeros, me rindo. Cuídate primer amor♡

even tho we didn't work out,i'm happy that was a thing between us.u are still my classmate and that sucks.but i got used to it.i know it wasn't to be.you treated me sometime like a shit,and sometime like a fucking goddes.and i hate u for that.but i also love u for that.u were my first love.i don't regret it.but i'm sorry that u chose this way.last week u followed me back on ig after 2 months and 3 days ago u called me but not for what i thought.i miss the old you and how you were in the beggining.because somehow,this thing between us became toxic and it broked me.i miss you and i will always love you,even tho i m over you.i wish you all the best.

Te quiero a pesar que diga que no,te quiero con locura y se que no me quieres pero yo a ti si mi reina