We deserve to try and we deserve to be happy. This holding back can't go on. Especially by people who are already in a relationship. It's not fair. Life doesn't stop.

I was so blinded by love that I didn’t see how toxic and manipulative you were. Now I know and sometimes I can’t stop myself from going back to the happy memories. Us dancing in the basement, you singing songs to me, staring in to your eyes. And when I found out about her, I felt so hurt. I knew when I heard about her that’d you’d never mentioned her, and you told me you barely knew her, yet you FaceTimed nightly. You fell asleep on FaceTime with her after talking to me. You told me you loved me, but you don’t restrict the friends of someone you love. You don’t make them feel guilty for wanting to spend time with friends, you don’t use your mental illness and prey on their empathy to get what you need to feel valid. That isn’t love. I was healthy and ready for a relationship, and now I feel broken and traumatized. How can you not see how badly you had hurt me? How could you not seem to care? I see things and feel a pain in my heart from where the fake good memories used to be. I’m grateful to have escaped, otherwise I wouldn’t have noticed how horrible all your toxic behaviors are. I wish I hadn’t left with you, I wish I had been stronger and not cared so much about you. I put my trust in you. I loved you. You also made me feel bad about things that made me... me. Why make fun of how loud I can be? Why make fun of my jokes and say I’m not funny? Why? If you love me, please make legitimate jokes instead of just preying on things that you don’t like about yourself. I feel bad for that girl, I’m more mad at you than her by a mile. I have your clothes packed away, the necklace and the ring too, along with the tie and the birthday card. Everything. I’ve packed those memories away. I cannot wait for the day when I don’t feel the urge to glance at your house to see if your there. I cannot wait for when I can listen to a song we danced to and not feel a painful twinge in my chest. I cannot wait for the day when I can go all day without thinking of you, and can fall asleep with somebody else in mine. Thank you for hurting me so badly. I’m not a crier, but I screamed into my moms arms the night I thought I lost you. But really, that was the beginning of me discovering your toxicity. I never lost you, you completely lost yourself. And you tried to drag me down with you. I am better without you. I treated you with so much care. So much. I didn’t deserve this. I am out of love, but the memories still hurt from where our love used to be. That is what our love—my love for you and your manipulation and toxic “love”— is, something that used to be. It is in the past, that is where it belongs. You lied and manipulated when I all I had done was give you my very best. Goodbye, I hope you find happiness and get the help you truly need.

i miss you. i miss feeling appreciated and loved. no matter how cheesy and stupid your jokes got, i was star struck by you. i wish i had the confidence to say that you meant something more to me.

our breakup is going to hurt so bad. im preparing myself even now. im going to be destroyed. i love you g. this is so stupid

I loved you,or I thought I did. You were a good lesson, thank you. I'll always try to love you deep down.

you used to say you couldn't imagine us not lasting forever. can you do it now? because i still can't

I'm so glad we broke up, but I still wonder if you cheated on me with her. You were too much of a coward for me.

I got a notification that your birthday is tomorrow but i already knew that. i still think about you everyday. you fucked me over so bad. you lied over and over but you were so manipulative and good to it. i didn’t know what it was like to have someone gaslight me until you did it three years straight. i did everything for you and got absolutely nothing in return. you made excuses for everything you did and made me believe them. i still think the best of you and want the best for you. the last time i saw you you told me you loved me but i don’t want you to love me i want you to respect me. you did not care about anyone’s feeling except your own and only did things for your convenience. we were such good friends too. you know you fucked up this time. i forgave you so many times and made excuses for you and defended you to my friends and family. you called me crazy but it’s bc i knew all of your answers were lies and you were just using me. i don’t want to argue with you i just don’t ever want to talk to you. i asked if there was another girl and you said no but what about the 17th and what girl came over when you “fell asleep”? i still love you and care about you but i know you can’t say the same about me and i now love myself more than i love you. i will never let myself go through that again and be treated like that but now i never want to love anyone else. the feeling of love so rewarding and peaceful but it’s never worth going through the feeling of heartbreak and pain.

we told each other "i love you" but I don't think you actually meant it, you just loved the fact of having a girlfriend

i woke up on my birthday this morning, after having a dream about you. knowing that dream will never come true.

I really miss you, my love; You will always be in the back of my head. I never loved anyone as much as I loved you.

I love you more than words can describe, and I think you love me too but you’re scared. And you’re right— it is scary. But I need you. Love Megan

Hey. I think about you all the time. I wonder if you think about me. There are a million things i wish i could say to you. I loved you. I love you. I have never fallen as hard for anyone as I did for you. You made me feel butterflies the second you walked into a room. I fell in love with you like one gets drunk on cheap, sour wine; slowly and then all at once. I don't know what to do now that you're gone and ill most likely never see you again.
I wish I had kissed you. Fuck Graham I would have kissed you forever.
the blue is for your eyes, and for the ocean

Hi I think about us in fifth grade everyday. You don't know I exist, I don't think. I wish you would remember me and we could see each other again. I hope you are happy, despite all the shit you've been through lately. If I could see you one more time, I promise I would try and make you feel better, even if it was just for a little while. Goodnight G

I make it seem like Im over you but in reality id give anything to stargaze and eat pizza with you just one more time....

U did not deserve me nor my bomb ass personality. I was way too out of ur league for u and u can’t handle a bad bitch like me, get some hygiene skills loser!

I knew you were never going to last, they rarely do. But if I made that month a little bit brighter than I can pass away in peace. I am not enough for you and that's ok, I am not meant to be loved.

I hope you know how much you hurt me. I never did anything to you to deserve the way you lied.

I really wish we could try again. I can't stop loving you no matter how hard I try.

I really wish we could try again. I can't stop loving you no matter how hard I try.

In another life.. I promise

i wish it would go back to the way it was .

You’re such a silly person and make me laugh. I love that about you. Or maybe I just love you?

you have no idea how glad i am that we didn’t end up together

sometimes i miss u but i rmbr u were j an idea i created in my head cuz i was lonely

i think a part of me is in love with you.
i'll never tell, though.

got time for a cigarette? maybe a cup of coffee?

i wish you had actually said something to me.

i’m still trying to find it in my heart to forgive you, but i’ll never forget.

I think about you a lot

I fear that for the rest of my life, a part of me will always be hopelessly devoted to you.

we r best friends but i want you bro realize it pls!!

I wish you weren’t so stand-offish and told me what you want.

Just know, I never stopped loving you. 7 years and counting. I'm better now, mon amour, please?

i see you in other people. It sucks

It's time I accept that my feelings for you will never be reciprocated.

I hate this. I’m heartbroken everyday. I think about you everyday. Please come back.

I'm really sad we'll never get to eat all those cute snacks together anymore

We really never knew each other at all...sorry it took me 6 years to realize that.

i hope you are doing well. i hope you know i meant it when i said i love you always & forever

i miss ur blue eyes looking in mine, almost half a year without them. talk to me :(

I guess we'll never know now.

i love you. im sorry for hurting you. please be safe. i miss you. i still believe we are soulmates

im never going to reach out again, you know that right? we’re lost to each other.

I hope yk that i love u sm. Ur the person I want to spend my life w even if we’re just friends rn

i promise you did nothing wrong, i'm the one that's messed up

im so sorry. i wish i could redo it all. ur my soulmate. pls come back 2 me. ily forever and always.

I haven't known you long but it feels like we both need this more than we know.

you make me feel safe. im still in love with you. i wish you would feel the same

I should hate you but I dont. I forgave you sm times and I still wish youd tell me how u feel