Unsent messages to TYLER

Does he actually make you happy? Maybe he does but he never made me happy. I think you would make me happy.

i used to love you so much but you were always searching for her in the crowd while i was searching for you

I think my mom bought the same laundry detergent as you. I now lay in bed with my hoodie newly washed. Specifically the one I wore around you all the time. To just remember you, your existence in my life is fading away so quickly. It’s so scary.

I think my mom bought the same laundry detergent as you. I lay in bed with the hoodie I would always wear around you, newly washed. So I could remember you, your existence from my life is fading away so fast it’s scary.

I can’t even look at someone else who has ur name.
It wouldn’t be fair.
I can only think of u when I hear it

You made me feel on top of the world when I was with you. I wish you didn’t push me away, I knew we had a connection

You made me feel on top of the world when I was with you. I wish you didn’t push me away, I knew we had a connection

i wish you knew how much i like you. i wish you liked me back. i think ive loved you since the first day i layed eyes on you. it will always be you

7 months later & i still can't get over you. just fucking text me already. i can't go much longer w/o you. i promise i forgive you. i want to get things right this time. please.

You only ever talked about how much I hurt you but, if you cared to see how much you hurt me. Then things would be different. I hate you.

I really fell for u man and u left me for another bitch
What happened I always said I loved you more guess I was right

please don’t change how you are just because you’re around your friends. i want the sweet, more precious version of you.

Just know no matter what happens I will always be here for you, I know you do not like opening up about yourself but you can not keep everything in.

you weren't my first love, and maybe not even a love at all, but for a while, you distracted me from the pain, and that makes you unforgettable in itself.

you're with her now and it hasn't gotten easier. i still love you, always have, always will.
come back.

i regret ghosting you. i really liked you but i was just scared, you were literally the sweetest guy. and omg i like you even more now, but i hurt you so now your playing the game i had played on you. i wish we could be friends again like we were when everything was normal.

i wish i could’ve loved you like you loved me but if i was afraid if i let myself love you and you left me, i would fall apart.

you know who you are if you read this. it's me. yes me. just know that even though you were a jerk and don't care about anyone but urself, you are tyler. and idk if you think so, but I think our last major conversation was unnecessary. I hope you know what kind of person it makes you, not being considerate about others. and I know it was you who messed up bc for once in my life I felt like I didn't, and I never felt like that. And yet you made no means of fixing it. Who the heck are you tyler. I mean, you are the definition of narcississt. It's like this, your little sister is getting bullied and you're the only person she is comfortable telling, the only person who knows. Then you proceed to do nothing about it, and walk around like nothing happened. Yes, I know the relationship you have with your sister is completely different. It's the thing in general. It amazes me that I thought you were this amazing guy. SO yes it is my expectations that let me down, but in my opinion, my expectations from you was to be a decent human being, and you couldn't even do that. the world doesn't revolve around you. I don't understand what is so hard about understanding this. And it's not even that, you're a smart guy. You're just so freaking clueless. And you're going to hate me for this, if you ever find it. But I have every right to be mad at you, don't you think? What have you done to fix yourself. Nothing. I did most of the communication, I apologized three times. for what? I did absolutley nothing wrong. I have such a strong dislike for you it's unreal, but I do not hate you, far from that. Why do I care so much about this. Well it's because you weren't a stranger when it all began. I knew you well enough to know how you'd act on a daily basis. There is no way you're actually that selfish. Is there? I mean, at this point, I honestly don't care enough to find out. I cared too much the first time and look where it got us. you just proved to me I need to stay away from you. I know however I can't do that no matter how much I try, because even though you're all this, for some weird reason I realized have feelings for you last week, a rollercoaster of events that I am never experiencing again. btw I knew who it was the first time you asked me, but I figured it wouldn't matter to you. anyway have a great day.

i still think about you everyday. ive never met anyone like you. i wish it didnt end the way it did. i wish you would come back to me

Not sure if I’ve ever spoken to you. Always thought you were cute I’d like to find out more. This is my subliminal, reach out anytime :)

I hate you and I miss you and I miss our friendship. I miss our friend group and how us 4 stuck together. I hate that they picked you over me despite you admitting that you were the one who hurt me and you didn’t deserve forgiveness. I don’t forgive you. I miss you. I hate you for ruining everything. I say the only emotion I feel for you is hatred. I wish that was true.

god i loved you so fucking much it hurt. its crazy after all this time i still care about you. i wish things would have worked out. maybe one day they will. till then i wish you nothing but the best

Thank you for making me laugh every day in eighth grade. I never thought I would make it to graduation, thanks for saving my life. xoxo.

you were the first guy that ever made me feel special and then I had to find out that you were texting girls.

I trusted you the most in the world and you broke me. You were my best friend and now I hear your name and all I can think of is what you said to me that one night. I used to think about you constantly and now I don’t even miss you. I finally feel free and that I can be my own person. I hope you find happiness and realize you are only hurting yourself now.

You shattered my heart into a million pieces, but now your picking it back up. If i trust you, will you break it again?

hi twot
hope you are okay
thankyou for being my best friend
u better not be watching anime without me
lauv ya bye

p.s ik purple is yo fav colour
ehehehe:))

you are my bestfriend and i would hate to lose you.. i want to grow old with you and still have the bond we have now. ily bestf

Hey, I miss you. I know we're together but you've already expressed you wanna leave. And I understand because I'm not very emotional, I'm not always available to talk, I'm not always even in the mood to talk. But I promise I just put everything I can into this relationship. I'm struggling too. I think I'm at my lowest point. But I'm still trying to be with you. And I think that's part of the problem. But if I loose you, I feel like, I've lost myself everymore. Loosing you is going to hurt even more than the pain I'm going through right now. I know that we're stronger than this. I know I'm not perfect. I know I've brought you down. I know I've made you sad and mad. But I'm trying. And it pains me that I feel like you don't see it. I try to tell you, but maybe it's just not what trying looks like to you. You made me feel like no one ever has before. I've put myself out there for you. I've completed new experiences with you and this shows my trust with you. I just wish we met in another life time.

I still get butterflies in my stomach thinking about when you said you were glad to finally see me smile.

Hey...we have been through a lot and i just want to say thank you for everything im a lot to handle but even after everything you stayed....and i just want to thank you for it..all of it.

i just wanted to say thank you so much for coming into my life and making me the happiest person alive, we've been having some small problems , and i'm so sorry for that my love, i love you deeply that i don't even know how to explain how i feel about you my love. i'm so sorry for hurting you these last few days baby, i know i can do better but i don't know how to and i'm sorry i promise ill try my hardest to keep you happy and just keep you by my side as long as i can baby

I keep trying to tell myself i hate you..and push you away..but i cant and i hate it..i love your dumbass..

the worst part of you is that you broke my heart and will never know. thanks though now I know who I can trust

why the fuck did it have to end like that? i loved you. i still do man. i miss you so much. i hope you miss me too.

I wish I hadn't ghosted you all those years ago. I'm glad we've reconnected but I missed you so much during the time we weren't speaking. I'm truly sorry about that.

I told you things no one else knew. I liked being your friend, even after we broke up. I understand you have gf but you knew you did to, so why did you ever come abck into my life in the first place? The sad thing is, i would probably still be your friend again if you ever texted me. I hope youre keeping my secrets safe with you. But fuck you

I really don’t know how to live without you. I’ve tried moving on haha it went pretty bad. You need something new from what I’ve heard and it’s kind of sad but, I think i do too. Hope you and that girl end up working out I pray God has plans for us eventually.

It took me forever to get over you but I finally did it. Thank you for showing me how to love, and thank you for showing me what to do and what to not do. I forgive you for everything, I hope you are as happy as I am now.

so yeah, you are my first love. i’ve never cared, loved, and cherished a person more than you. yes we are only best friends and yes you do have a girlfriend but that will never change the amount of love i have for you. you can make me smile in any situation, you light up my face when i talk to you. love in my definition is someone you would do anything for if your life depended on it and that person brings the happiness up from the darkest of times. tyler i would do anything for you, i love you.

not only do i miss you. i miss what we had more. although you’re still in my life, i still wish we were more. i love you. i’m to afraid to tell you that. but i do. i love you so much.

imy a lot. like a lot a lot. it’s insane. remember when you said “if anyone ever cried like that abt me, i’d take them back in a heartbeat” well the time is now tyler :/ i wish i didn’t fuck u up as much as i did. sorry like genuinely i wish we could just talk. i hate loving u when u hate me

Thinking about you makes me so angry. You used me and honestly if I didn't find someone so much better than you, I probably would've gone back again. You made me cry everynight for months. I weirdly hope you miss me as a sort of revenge because I missed you so much and you didn't give a rats ass. And now that I'm the one who doesn't care, as selfish as it sounds, I hope you go through the same shit you put me through. I wish you could even just feel a fraction of what I felt and now that you're gone I'm so much happier. All you left me with is shitty memories I used to romanticize. Fuck off and date another dude you'll use for a few months.

You are still on my mind. I wonder what we would be had I never left. But I somehow feel you aren’t good for me. I could text you but I don’t want to stir up emotions.
I hope you’re doing okay.

Fuck you. I hope you lay in bed next your girl, and remember what it was like when i was in her place. I hope you hate yourself as much as i hate you. I hope you remember all of our shared jokes and laughs, and late nights. and i hope you hate your self for what you did. Fuck you.

im giving you all of my affection. every single day. i tell you i miss you and how much i wanna see you.
all i get back is a "me to" or a "hehe". it seems like you dont care. and like im sorry that you might be dry at times but it honestly seems like you dont want me around. i dont know what else to do to keep you in my life bub. im trying my hardest right now. it seems like you care for a split second and then you show no interest. i get upset alot because of this. i dont want you to ghost me because you dont like me anymore and you feel bad about it. please. tell me you dont like me instead of ignoring me. dont lie to me. please. ive cried over this every fucking day but i dont want you to feel bad. please dont hide shit from me. if you dont like me just tell me. i cant take it anymore. i miss your hugs and kisses and cuddles. i miss the way you would play with my hair when you hugged me. i miss when i made you happy. i miss when i meant something to you. what did i do wrong? -neon boy that apparently isnt cute anymore

I don’t know if I consider you my “first” love, or if I’ve even had one, but you hurt me the most. I’ve grown from what you’ve done, but you still left some thoughts. You manipulated me, played me, made me look like a fool, and confused me. You never thought of it as a big deal, and you will never know how much you affected me. I was growing and you made me feel stupid. You’re older than me; you told me I was a child. You told me I would understand when I’m older. You were right. I would come to understand how much time and effort I wasted on you. You wanted my body, not me. You wanted nudes. You never wanted to hear my story, but I would beg to actually know you. The depths of you: good and bad. You did not and do not deserve me. You still have to audacity to try to get nudes from me when one of your relationships fail, though. You hate for a woman to have her own voice, yet you claim you want an independent woman. You want a girl who you can control.It was never me, and that’s why we never worked out. I hope to see you prosper and learn one day. I hope you find a stable relationship, and treat a real woman right. I hope all of your attempts to manipulate people make you realize something. There’s no love in that.

listen ,
i know i know my friends are exactly fond of us and that’s okay i liked u . i saw a different side of u everyone say your douchey we all are but you were a never a that i feel like a lot of people didn’t see.

tyler, I still like you. I always have. I have too much to say to you and I wish I could call you and tell you everything but I all I can say is I am so happy we are friends. But I miss when we facetimed and laughed and when he held hands how our hands fit so well together. I miss the way your hair flops on your head or the way your brown eyes sparkle. I miss your laugh and I miss being happy with you. But u don't feel the same way. It has always been like that

You made me feel wanted and special even though you treated me like dirt. I wish I had more self respect