Unsent messages to TOM

I love you, first and foremost. I found the love of my life so early, I feel so blessed to know I have you for the rest of our lives. I can’t wait to meet Teddy and Daisy, I can’t wait to see the father you’ll be to them.
I can’t wait to be your wife

i wish it ended differently and i wish it didn’t end at all. everything reminds me of
you and i don’t want to let
go

i loved u when i first met u over two years ago. i still do. i just wish u could love me back but i know it’s not possible

you were the first person that made me feel this way, and it feels like you’re the last too. i was so in love with you and everything about you, but we were too immature too act on it and i was dealing with a lot at the time. but now and again you pop in my head even though the ache has dulled and i remember how it felt to feel.

I don’t think I’ll ever recover from what you did to me, you may be gone from my life but the trauma isnt

you were my first love and i wish we could have worked out better. i am sorry i am such a jealous person and i wish it lasted longer and i would give anything to date a person like you again

Nothing feels right at the moment. I feel empty. My biggest fear has come true, the fear of being replaced. I’m no one’s first choice. I didn’t feel like this when we were still together. I don’t know if it’s because I just miss you or not. There’s part of me that wishes we never met, but the other part of me wishes that we were still together.

i miss you and im sorry that I didn't know what I had last year. I want to try again but I know you dont feel the same, and thats ok. I wish nothing changed after that night at your house with everyone.

I don't know if I loved you, or if you were the first person who just treated me like a normal person

I think the funniest thing to me is what could’ve been that wasn’t. I’ll most likely never see you again now but I think I’ve come to terms with that now. The endless hours I sat next to in class now seem centuries ago but I still wonder what would’ve happened if I’d made some form of signal I liked you. I wouldn’t call it love but I think it may have turned into it x

i hate the fact that we will never be together but i want you to know that you will always have a special place in my heart. I love you Tom

why was i pretty enough for a ons but not for you to treat me like a human? i still don't understand why you picked her over me...

Thank you for being so kind to me even after I moved out. You helped me through a really dark time, and I’ll never be able to thank you enough for that. Love you.

i cant explain how much a absolutely hate you. i seriously wish you would die. all you have done is ruin my life and my families lives. you divorced my parents, you impregnated my mom just so she can stay with you, you ruined the relationship between my mom and i, you make me and my mom want to kill ourselves everyday, you brought that retarded ass devil child of yours, you ruined my brothers life, you ruined my moms thought of me and made her think that i am j terrible but i know that it wasnt just you it was her sisters as well, you caused so many mental issues with my mom that i have to help her with and she has to deal with, and literally so much more. i am not going to be surprised if you are a sociopath and end up going to jail i really hope you die in the most cruel way. i am nothing of what you think i am i dont care what you think ab me bc i know who i am and how truly sick of a person you are.
-the sister that needs to get off her ass and get her own food.

I will always love you and I miss what we used to be. You know where to find me if you ever need me but I hope you’re happy
I also miss your dog

des milliers de nuits à rêver de toi
des milliers d'heures à m'imaginer des scénarios avec toi
des milliers de secondes passées à te regarder parce que je ne vois personne d'autre que toi
et surtout des dizaines de lettres jamais envoyées
mais ça tu ne le sauras jamais

I’m sorry I pushed you away, we could of been perfect for each other but I didn’t give you a chance. I can’t stop thinking about that, it was was fate bringing us together those 3 times. Maybe if it’s meant to be I will run into you, in a coffee shop somewhere in London.I hope so.

Hi! I know we don’t really talk often but I love you. You make me laugh and can save my day just by smiling! Even though you don’t know much about me, I love you.

I don’t blame you for leaving and it’s been so long now but I can finally say that I’m over you and I’m gonna be happier without you, you’ll still always be blocked though because I don’t wanna see you on my feed

I’ve always admired you from afar, I just wish I could tear our distance apart and hold you in my arms

I hope you know that I’m sorry for being awful to you and thank you for understanding I was broken. I miss you so much get well soon. Talk soon x

no matter how many times i try, i can’t get you out of my head. i can’t find a solid reason for loving you. you saved me more times than you could ever imagine, and at the same time you’re the reason i’m broken

i still wonder why i was never enough for you but i hope your happy with her bc that’s all that matters

there is no one in this world that I can see myself spending forever with besides you. I hope you feel the same, dear

I don’t think you’ll see this but thank you for making me feel safe enough to want to stay in one place for a while

I’m sorry that staying isn’t always easy but I promise that I won’t stop loving you until you leave me

i hate you. you ruined my favourite song and for that i’ll forever hate you, yk it was my favourite and you ruined it how could you

you broke me, i got into old habits bc of you. i have so much anger that i still forgive you for anything

Thank you for being all I could ever ask for. I hope we get that apartment in Long Island like we’ve talked about

I’ve never been the commitment type. All it took was you showing interest in me and now i’m convinced I want to stay forever

It took you four years to finally see me the way I’ve always wanted you to, but you were worth waiting for

Sometimes I laugh sometimes I cry thinking about the times we had. But I bundled it all up in a pretty ship so that it can sale away and sink peacefully.

“coming from the cold, buried under heat, lay you on the floor, heavy like the force between us” if you’re reading this, i love you

Hi, I really like your style. But I like a lot of things about you. I hope u realise that you like me more than you want to admit.
Yours truly,
G

i'm sorry i wasn't good enough. was it because i was dumb, or younger? was i too basic or too *different*? i miss you even though we've never met

i should've known you wouldn't like me as much as i liked you. i guess it works better when the guy likes the girl more

I’m sorry for everything you’ve had to go through, but even though people throughout your life have treated you like shit, you’ve always managed to show that you care for me, and i love you so much for that

i wish i could feel your arms around me again, and you burying your head into my neck. i love you still

i hate the fact i still like you but i cant help it because we talk everyday still. but you like her and seeing you with her hurts but its okay because your happy. i just wish i was her you know? you understood me so well and thats something i will never forget. thank you so much for everything. but please stop snapping me when youre with her because it hurts. alot.

As much as girls will always be my interest, I will still always have love for you and I know you feel the same.

Blue. The colour of your fav hoodie. Yes. I paid attention to everything about you, even your chewbacca slippers :) but it all happened too fast and we didn't really know where things were going. We used to facetime for hours. It was obvious we were both in love, but I know we have drifted now and I know you don't think of me anymore like I do of you. I'd do anything to go back a few months. I've shed uncountable tears crying over you, but I'll always be waiting here for you. No one else but you. I've never felt like this about anyone before. I've realised how much I need you. I still and will always love you. All my love, M

I've loved, when I was eleven. And then we tried again but you're to inlove for me, I hope on day someone will love you as much as you do.

i think you know how much you meant to me. i wonder if you actually didn’t feel the same way or if you were too scared to admit it

uhm hi, sometimes I just think about the time we had together. I really liked it, but now u got a fucking girlfriend, fuck off

hola, fuiste mi primer amor y mi primer todo, jamas me arepentire de nada contigo. ya no te amo. porfin pude superarte. te espere tanto, y ya me canse de esperar. me hace feliz verte feliz y cumpliendo tus metas, siempre tendras un lugar muy especial en mi corazon. aveces si pienso que seria si siguieramos juntos y felices, me hiciste tanto bien pero tanto mal. todavia recuerdo todas esas madrugadas y esos dias tan bnitos juntos, a tu lado me sentia completa segura y feliz. espero volver a sentir eso con alguien. de verdad a tu lado fui la niña mas feliz. despues de ti tuve muchos encuenntros y ninguno como tus besos y tu piel, tu voz y tus palabras tan sinceras y bonitas. te escribo este mensaje porque se que no lo vas a leer. no se si me atreveria decirrte todo esto. regreso al principio ya no siento lo mismo. pero si me gustaria volver a revivirlo.

sometimes i think of you and i think of how dumb i was to like you. cuz u look like a monkey's ass xx.

i didn't realise how comfortable i felt with you until i noticed i had never said those things out loud before

even though i’m with somebody else and you are too, i lay in bed at night and wonder what we could’ve been

I will never regret having met you even though you have surely forgotten about me, you promised me that we would meet again and I will wait that day until I die.
I love you from wherever you are.

YOUR HEAD IS COMPRESSED FUCKING FILL IT WITH MANNERS YOU DICK. IM FUCKING SAT HERE CRYING OVER YOUR ASS. FUCK YOU. to think i now have to see you everyday for the next 6 months. shit thats not long. i really hope u get ur head out ur ass and grow tf up and humble yourself. fucking grow a pair ur dick is like 2 inches ur not all that.