Unsent messages to RILEY

i'm so sorry for the past few years. you relied on me to be there for you, to be your best friend, and i left. for people. i thought would make me more popular, more exciting, more acceptable. i feel so much guilt whenever i remember how things ended- it wasn't even a bad breakup, but the drift was still my fault completely. i hope i can make up for everything and build up our trust again but i feel like i can't come back from that sometimes and I'll always be the unreliable best friend in your head. also- remember your confession that one night (or, i should say, morning)? i still wonder who it's about sometimes. please don't be afraid to talk to me.

thanks for being by my side when I was questioning my sexuality, it made me feel special and appreciated.

I'm sorry, I didn't cheat on you and my god. I wish I never hurt you. You taught me to love myself and I'm sorry I ruined love for you. Everyone I find from now on I base off of you. I am happy now and I hope you are too.
I love you Riley, T x

my birthday is tomorrow and you haven’t spoken to your “girlfriend” in two and a half weeks, y’know i hate my birthday as it is.

i miss you riley, like everyday i’m just hoping you come back, but you don’t and it kills mr every time you’re with another girl because i know you’ve moved on from me, but i haven’t moved on from you.

Me di cuenta de que sí, siempre te amaré, pero ese amor siempre estará envuelto bajo el doloroso peso que me has dejado.

El día que me dejaste lloré todas las lágrimas que Dios me ha dado. Estaba tan enamorado de ti y destrozaste completamente mi corazón. Hiciste lo único que no pude perdonarte.

hey. enjoy urself with her
treat her better than you treated me
i hope she treats you better than i treated you

i love you and i always will. and i'm so happy to be with you and you make me the most happiest girl ever omg. i'll always love you baby to the universe and back

Fuck you. I’m glad I ruined your life. I’ll do it again. I’ll do it over and over until you understand a sliver of the pain you have caused me.

As much as I romanticized the connection we had, I'm scared to death every guy I meet will leave me feeling the same way you did. You made me scared that I am only good enough for one thing, and now I can't stop thinking about how I wasn't good enough for you to wait. Every guy I talk to, I find myself comparing them to you; how much we had in common, your music taste, the way you made me smile looking at my phone. But I also see you as the reason I'm scared to be loved and scared to love. I wish I would have been worth waiting for.

i hope you find your peace. seeing the world from a perspective of sadness is no way to live. you can create beauty and find it everywhere - life is worth living.

I can't stop thinking about you. When we would lock eyes, I'd look away because I was embarrassed. I've never loved someone as much as I loved you. You really made me the person I am today and I will forever be thankful for that, and for you. But I think it's time I move on...

I really really liked you and you never cared i was always there for you when nobody else was.But no you wanted the blonde basic skinny girl that just plays with boy's hearts.Then after you got your heart broken i thought that you would notice that you messed up. but no you didn't this time you went for my best friend i mean she did like you back and i was happy for you both but whenever i was with you it was always " i love her" or " ik shes the one.." but nope she threw you under the bus and i never got to tell you this and i never will....

I miss when we would tease each other and text at 2am and it was so obvious we both liked each other. And yeah something could’ve happened, if you didn’t do that. Why did you have to turn out to be the opposite of who i imagined...you turned out to be like the types of people i hate...but what i’m even madder about is that i couldn’t loose feelings. you could murder my whole family and i would still get butterflies when your name pops up on my screen. and i could still wish to go back to the earlier days. when thing were simple. And i shouldn’t. i know. your horrible. but i do, and i can’t help it. and i thought distancing myself from you would help me loose feelings. but all it did was hurt you. and i’m sorry. but i had to. because i have to move on. because you have. and sure, i will always look for your face in the crowd and get butterflies when you talk to me. i don’t think that’s ever going to change. but i know that i deserve better and i know my worth. and although i feel like i don’t deserve much in life, i KNOW i deserve more then you. sure it could’ve worked out if you just didn’t say it, to impress your friends i guess. it’s a shame. but it’s life, and i have to move on.

ik you'll search for your name hoping i sent you something. i love you ri, you'll know it's me when you see this, ik you will.

I didnt like my name until you would compliment it everyday when we talked , now im sitting here listening to depressing music , writing unsent messages and crying while eating rice ,mayo and tuna . you wouldve mocked me so hard , gosh that hurts ffs

You hurt me so badly and now i have to listen to 03 greedo and do this shit to get over you, shouldve known from the get go you name is fucking riley

I remember your eyes. Green and blue speckles with hints of gold. The eyes I fell for , until those eyes didnt look my way anymore , until those eyes looked at the girls that were much more prettier then me. It still hurts but now you have a mullet so algood HAHAH I would compliment them everytime we talked , you liked me and i didnt know how to feel well i did but you were the one that cheated you asshole

i chose this colour because it reminds me of the monkeybars we used to sit on top of, to look at the stars. its probably really rusty now, and a darker red than it was before. i guess things do change, and get older, huh? i can't go in peyton's backyard without getting stuck looking at those monkey bars. i didnt even realise the feeling of my stomach dropping everytime you had a crush. i realised, after you drifted from me, how much i actually cared about you, and how big the hole you left in my life was. sometimes i wonder if i should text you, or if you want me to text you, but i know its all in my head.
now, everytime i look at the stars i see u. or us. an old version of us. trapped in time, and drifting, just like the stars we stared at :) thanks for fucking me up for like 3 years

i don't have any words to describe what i used to feel.
this is the colour of your wall.
i used to hate orange until i learnt it was your favourite colour.

My heart shattered when you didn't share my feelings when you stopped texting back. When midnight facetime became a luxury. I say that I'm done with you that things won't go anywhere, but nothing compares to the joy when I see your name pop up on my phone.

oh boy. u are something else. ur perfect. ur everything ive ever wanted. the one problem? distance. This sucks ass. all i want to do is hug you. i also just want you to want me back. i could go on for hours about you but its getting late. sleep well. i hope i can see you soon, goodnight

im sorry im not good enough for you
i just want to make you happy without making you hate me
i understand why you dont want to be with me and its ok
just be honest if you genuinely hate me or not
dont lead me on to fall for you

Why do I love you?
You make me sad, and I feel worthless most of the time.
Shit why am I even here anymore huh??
I hate you right now, and it’s your fault that I cry every night. Fuck off.

i knew you lost feelings when you asked to see my body after we tried to make it work for a second time

i miss u. u made me the happiest i’ve ever been. u kept me alive. thank u for the best 3 years of my life. i love u 4ever.

I've loved you since I met you and still do, but I will probably never get the chance to tell you. Keep that shiba stuffed animal I sent you safe for me, okay?

thanks for showing me what a friend is. i miss you a lot and wish things didn’t change. please text me first.

I want to write you every moment but we’re no longer together. You’re in a war zone and I’m stuck at home praying for your safety everyday. I love you always and hope that one day we get to either look back at the memories together or remember the good days as we’ve both grown apart. KRW you’ll always be near to my heart

I want to write you every moment but we’re no longer together. You’re in a war zone and I’m stuck at home praying for your safety everyday. I love you always and hope that one day we get to either look back at the memories together or remember the good days as we’ve both grown apart. KRW you’ll always be near to my heart

I’m sorry our relationship broke you. I’m sorry you hate yourself because you hurt me. I forgive you. I wish you could see the good I see in you. The hardest part of letting you go was that I had to, not because I wanted to. All the decisions I made were from my head, not my heart. I’ve been in love with you since I was 15 and I think I will love you forever. You are still the person I see myself waking up to for the rest of my life. I don’t think about all the shit that happened in the last two years. I think about when we were young, lying in bed at my beach house, listening to the ocean waves. I think about us in the waves with the sunset behind us. I don’t think about anything else. You mean the world to me. I think about you every hour of everyday. You’re the other half of me. I’m not whole anymore.

you didn't have to hurt me the way everyone else did. all i ever did was love and care for you. but i guess the love was one sided..

i’m so sorry i wasn’t enough for you, i hope you’re happy and i think part of me will always love you.

I've watched you date all of my bestfriends and never even looked at me. But idc. I've been in love with u since the second grade LMFAOSFJDSKGHS

I hate that I can't be honest about loving you. you claimed someone and I wish it was me. I love you and always have, I will sit here and support you until the end of time because that what you do for the people you love.

basically i dont know why but i just really like you and i know we dont talk but i just genuinely like your personality, youre so cute and adorable, i dont think ive really felt this much towards someone before
:((

I'm sorry, but I'm not good enough for you, I should just leave you alone then you'll be happy again :)

I've had you unblocked for quite sometime. I never expected a text from you and ofc I never got one. Finding out you hang with the dude you cheated on me with, and he's your "bestfriend" now? I read a few of these and ik which are yours.. I just feel like you've never read any I've made for you. It's why I use this, to keep myself away from you.. Seeing that you still haven't changed in the slightest bit for the better has shown how much You really don't try. Trick your mind into whatever you wanna believe but I still love you. Always will, you already know this and it'll never change. I always hope you'd just call me and finally say your done, ready to take it serious. It's sad knowing it'll never happen though, and I've accepted that. Beyond the stars

I want to be commited. I know that the way things are right now I can't be your girlfriend but I still want to be commited until I figure out how to make this work. I want to be with you and I'm so scared you'll find someone else before we find a way to work out. But I don't know how to tell you because I on't know if you'd understand the difference I see between being commited and being your girlfriend or if you even feel the same way.

hi silly! i miss your big smile. i’m sorry for hurting you. i wish u waited for me, i think about you a lot. i wish we could talk one more time. i know if u saw how much i am hurting you’d talk to me. but i don’t want to ruin your happiness. you seem happier and that’s good, even if it’s not with me. best 6 months of my life.

I loved you but I wasn’t in love with you anymore. I still think about you every now and then hoping your okay. I found someone else even when I thought another person wouldn’t feel like home again.

Look at the stars, Riley. You were always different. I never knew how to explain it, but there was something about you that made you chosen out from the rest. I think about you all the time, but I think it's best that we went our own ways. You needed to grow, and I didn't want to be the one holding you back. You deserve the world, and never let anyone tell you differently. I loved you.

I miss you so so so much, you were my best friend but I didn’t have the courage to say “I like you too”

Youre so perfect and so patient i cant believe i got someone like you i love you so much i cant wait to kiss every freckle on your face starboy

I’m so lucky to be your girlfriend and to be your biggest fan, but you have big plans for your life and I just pray that you don’t move too fast and forget about me. I love you and no matter what happens between us, I will always want the best for you and I will ALWAYS support you

You gave me the worst self esteem issues and then acted like we were best friends even though I was visibly uncomfortable around you.

you're confusing and when you leave its gonna hurt. i've told you stuff i've not even told my parents yet.

Yeah we both messed up and you hurt me but there's just something about you that means I still want you, no matter what you do it'll always be you.

there’s a part of me that still loves you, after all you did. i miss you more than anything. pls come back