ik you'll search for your name hoping i sent you something. i love you ri, you'll know it's me when you see this, ik you will.

I miss when we would tease each other and text at 2am and it was so obvious we both liked each other. And yeah something could’ve happened, if you didn’t do that. Why did you have to turn out to be the opposite of who i imagined...you turned out to be like the types of people i hate...but what i’m even madder about is that i couldn’t loose feelings. you could murder my whole family and i would still get butterflies when your name pops up on my screen. and i could still wish to go back to the earlier days. when thing were simple. And i shouldn’t. i know. your horrible. but i do, and i can’t help it. and i thought distancing myself from you would help me loose feelings. but all it did was hurt you. and i’m sorry. but i had to. because i have to move on. because you have. and sure, i will always look for your face in the crowd and get butterflies when you talk to me. i don’t think that’s ever going to change. but i know that i deserve better and i know my worth. and although i feel like i don’t deserve much in life, i KNOW i deserve more then you. sure it could’ve worked out if you just didn’t say it, to impress your friends i guess. it’s a shame. but it’s life, and i have to move on.

Fuck you. I’m glad I ruined your life. I’ll do it again. I’ll do it over and over until you understand a sliver of the pain you have caused me.

there’s a part of me that still loves you, after all you did. i miss you more than anything. pls come back

I want to be upset but I can't. It was my fault. I'm the one who hurt you. I pushed you away when I needed you the most and I'll never forgive myself for that. I'm sorry.

i love you and i always will. and i'm so happy to be with you and you make me the most happiest girl ever omg. i'll always love you baby to the universe and back

Sometimes I want to wait for you, sometimes I wish I could forget you. I miss the night with you on the boat during the sunset.

i’m not sorry for the way i ended our friendship.. but i am jealous of how easy it was for u to get over it.

How is it that you’re the one that made all the mistakes, but I’m the one still crying myself to sleep at night?

I don’t love you anymore, perhaps you were my first love maybe an infatuation I thank fate n wish you the best I have more to say but perhaps one day

I really really liked you and you never cared i was always there for you when nobody else was.But no you wanted the blonde basic skinny girl that just plays with boy's hearts.Then after you got your heart broken i thought that you would notice that you messed up. but no you didn't this time you went for my best friend i mean she did like you back and i was happy for you both but whenever i was with you it was always " i love her" or " ik shes the one.." but nope she threw you under the bus and i never got to tell you this and i never will....

I can't stop thinking about you. When we would lock eyes, I'd look away because I was embarrassed. I've never loved someone as much as I loved you. You really made me the person I am today and I will forever be thankful for that, and for you. But I think it's time I move on...

hey. enjoy urself with her
treat her better than you treated me
i hope she treats you better than i treated you

im sorry i couldnt be what you needed me to be, but i couldnt keep breaking myself down in order to keep you around.

your really cute. even though we don’t talk, like ever.I’ve had moments where I think u maybe think the same. I hope so. You have my socials just text me. I don’t bite. Then again, I’m probably very wrong about how you feel. This is embarrassing. Fuck it. You missed out if you thought I was cute because we r graduating soon and I like to think I’m a pretty funny person . GL

El día que me dejaste lloré todas las lágrimas que Dios me ha dado. Estaba tan enamorado de ti y destrozaste completamente mi corazón. Hiciste lo único que no pude perdonarte.

Me di cuenta de que sí, siempre te amaré, pero ese amor siempre estará envuelto bajo el doloroso peso que me has dejado.

I want to be commited. I know that the way things are right now I can't be your girlfriend but I still want to be commited until I figure out how to make this work. I want to be with you and I'm so scared you'll find someone else before we find a way to work out. But I don't know how to tell you because I on't know if you'd understand the difference I see between being commited and being your girlfriend or if you even feel the same way.

I would never tell you how I truly feel, but I can see us living together forever...just like a fairytale

i miss you riley, like everyday i’m just hoping you come back, but you don’t and it kills mr every time you’re with another girl because i know you’ve moved on from me, but i haven’t moved on from you.

my birthday is tomorrow and you haven’t spoken to your “girlfriend” in two and a half weeks, y’know i hate my birthday as it is.

Yeah we both messed up and you hurt me but there's just something about you that means I still want you, no matter what you do it'll always be you.

I tried to convince myself it wasn’t love but it was. I have been blaming myself for things you did, but what’s hurt the most is watching you love the girl that bullied me.

I still loved you even after you took and sent a naked photo of me without consent and I will never forgive myself for that.

you were the first guy i “properly” liked. i met you in year7 and though since then there’s been two other guys i don’t think my feelings for you ever left. and i really regret not speaking to you, i regret not having more than just one short interaction with you. it’s only been a month or so without you and that’s really scary, before we know it it’ll be a year and i really don’t want that to come. i’m not sure about everyone else but i’m still not doing great knowing you’re not here with us, it hurts a lot especially with so much guilt wrapped with it. we all miss and love you greatly riley. rest easy darling

you make me feel the best i've ever felt. thank you for showing interest in what i do and for making me feel the best i've ever felt.

you're confusing and when you leave its gonna hurt. i've told you stuff i've not even told my parents yet.

I will probably never know if you were a real person or not, but thanks for everything you did for me. I miss you.

I've loved you since I met you and still do, but I will probably never get the chance to tell you. Keep that shiba stuffed animal I sent you safe for me, okay?

hello totallynotriley. you were always so so so sweet. god i miss that. that time when we burnt down technoclans forest. when we would walk around our base doing nothing on the smp. i miss you sm riley. i hope youre doing well. i know that you always had to be so careful when talking to me because you didnt want to say anything wrong. im sorry for making you feel like that. you did nothing wrong. i hope that you can forgive me. i miss you.

I've had you unblocked for quite sometime. I never expected a text from you and ofc I never got one. Finding out you hang with the dude you cheated on me with, and he's your "bestfriend" now? I read a few of these and ik which are yours.. I just feel like you've never read any I've made for you. It's why I use this, to keep myself away from you.. Seeing that you still haven't changed in the slightest bit for the better has shown how much You really don't try. Trick your mind into whatever you wanna believe but I still love you. Always will, you already know this and it'll never change. I always hope you'd just call me and finally say your done, ready to take it serious. It's sad knowing it'll never happen though, and I've accepted that. Beyond the stars

I'm sorry, but I'm not good enough for you, I should just leave you alone then you'll be happy again :)

i miss you. i’m so sorry for everything. i wish i could take everything back. i wish i was enough for you.

The sweater I wore when I was last with you still smells like you. I don’t think I’ll wash it anytime soon.

I wish you knew how much I love you, you’re so beautiful and idc if you don’t believe me. I know we can’t be together rn but we will some day, I promise.

I looked into your eyes and worried I was already falling. The way we spoke made me feel like a fool for not trying to sooner.

i miss you/: you were too perfect and pretending i don’t care is exhausting. i want to yell at you for hurting me and lying to me but you have her and i’m not a thought in your head. how did you lie so well? how was i convinced you actually wanted me? i didn’t deserve that and i want to be so mad at you, but mostly i just miss you telling me i’m beautiful and perfect and asking to hear my voice. you asked when i was gonna let you take me on a date- now would b good riley

this is stupid but ... we were both stupid romantics and that’s what i found perfect about you.

i don't have any words to describe what i used to feel.
this is the colour of your wall.
i used to hate orange until i learnt it was your favourite colour.

i’m really sorry for what happened, i still think of you so often and hope you’re doing okay. i wish u had better friends but that’s none of my concern anymore. i’m sorry again.

I'm sorry, I didn't cheat on you and my god. I wish I never hurt you. You taught me to love myself and I'm sorry I ruined love for you. Everyone I find from now on I base off of you. I am happy now and I hope you are too.
I love you Riley, T x

i hope you find your peace. seeing the world from a perspective of sadness is no way to live. you can create beauty and find it everywhere - life is worth living.

thanks for being by my side when I was questioning my sexuality, it made me feel special and appreciated.

basically i dont know why but i just really like you and i know we dont talk but i just genuinely like your personality, youre so cute and adorable, i dont think ive really felt this much towards someone before
:((

I hate that I can't be honest about loving you. you claimed someone and I wish it was me. I love you and always have, I will sit here and support you until the end of time because that what you do for the people you love.

i chose this colour because it reminds me of the monkeybars we used to sit on top of, to look at the stars. its probably really rusty now, and a darker red than it was before. i guess things do change, and get older, huh? i can't go in peyton's backyard without getting stuck looking at those monkey bars. i didnt even realise the feeling of my stomach dropping everytime you had a crush. i realised, after you drifted from me, how much i actually cared about you, and how big the hole you left in my life was. sometimes i wonder if i should text you, or if you want me to text you, but i know its all in my head.
now, everytime i look at the stars i see u. or us. an old version of us. trapped in time, and drifting, just like the stars we stared at :) thanks for fucking me up for like 3 years

I've watched you date all of my bestfriends and never even looked at me. But idc. I've been in love with u since the second grade LMFAOSFJDSKGHS

i wish we didn't end the way we did. we could've been so good. i miss you and everyone else, but i'll never admit it. i hope you heal and get better. this hurts like a bitch. love you always.

I miss you so so so much, you were my best friend but I didn’t have the courage to say “I like you too”

i’m so sorry i wasn’t enough for you, i hope you’re happy and i think part of me will always love you.

i'm so sorry for the past few years. you relied on me to be there for you, to be your best friend, and i left. for people. i thought would make me more popular, more exciting, more acceptable. i feel so much guilt whenever i remember how things ended- it wasn't even a bad breakup, but the drift was still my fault completely. i hope i can make up for everything and build up our trust again but i feel like i can't come back from that sometimes and I'll always be the unreliable best friend in your head. also- remember your confession that one night (or, i should say, morning)? i still wonder who it's about sometimes. please don't be afraid to talk to me.