Unsent Messages

I miss when we would tease each other and text at 2am and it was so obvious we both liked each other. And yeah something could’ve happened, if you didn’t do that. Why did you have to turn out to be the opposite of who i imagined...you turned out to be like the types of people i hate...but what i’m even madder about is that i couldn’t loose feelings. you could murder my whole family and i would still get butterflies when your name pops up on my screen. and i could still wish to go back to the earlier days. when thing were simple. And i shouldn’t. i know. your horrible. but i do, and i can’t help it. and i thought distancing myself from you would help me loose feelings. but all it did was hurt you. and i’m sorry. but i had to. because i have to move on. because you have. and sure, i will always look for your face in the crowd and get butterflies when you talk to me. i don’t think that’s ever going to change. but i know that i deserve better and i know my worth. and although i feel like i don’t deserve much in life, i KNOW i deserve more then you. sure it could’ve worked out if you just didn’t say it, to impress your friends i guess. it’s a shame. but it’s life, and i have to move on.