Unsent messages to RILEY

well it’s me6 months later you still stay in my mind i don’t even like you i just reminisce over what could of been but nothing could’ve been it was just a few messages but why do u stay in my head?? there’s so many other people i don’t understand

I wish you knew how much I love you, you’re so beautiful and idc if you don’t believe me. I know we can’t be together rn but we will some day, I promise.

i miss you. i’m so sorry for everything. i wish i could take everything back. i wish i was enough for you.

you make me feel the best i've ever felt. thank you for showing interest in what i do and for making me feel the best i've ever felt.

you were the first guy i “properly” liked. i met you in year7 and though since then there’s been two other guys i don’t think my feelings for you ever left. and i really regret not speaking to you, i regret not having more than just one short interaction with you. it’s only been a month or so without you and that’s really scary, before we know it it’ll be a year and i really don’t want that to come. i’m not sure about everyone else but i’m still not doing great knowing you’re not here with us, it hurts a lot especially with so much guilt wrapped with it. we all miss and love you greatly riley. rest easy darling

I still loved you even after you took and sent a naked photo of me without consent and I will never forgive myself for that.

I tried to convince myself it wasn’t love but it was. I have been blaming myself for things you did, but what’s hurt the most is watching you love the girl that bullied me.

I would never tell you how I truly feel, but I can see us living together forever...just like a fairytale

im sorry i couldnt be what you needed me to be, but i couldnt keep breaking myself down in order to keep you around.

How is it that you’re the one that made all the mistakes, but I’m the one still crying myself to sleep at night?

i’m not sorry for the way i ended our friendship.. but i am jealous of how easy it was for u to get over it.

you were the first person i truely opened up too, you were the first person that made me feel loved and made me feel special, i owe you everything but you hooked up with my bestfriend twice and i dont know how i can ever forgive you, you broke my heart, twice man twice. you were the first person i ever loved and the first person i ever fell in love with. you treated me like a queen and i wont ever forget that but i have to move on, i have to take myself out of the toxic relationship we were in. im still in love with you, i miss you more and more everyday, i just wanna lay down next to you in my bed and fall asleep cuddling you with my head on your chest so i can hear your heart beat rising and slowing down, i miss falling asleep while you play video games, i miss feeling the way you would touch. you are my everything and i dont think ill ever be able too get over you and tbh i dont ever want to, i cant see myself marrying anyone else but you, i cant see my self raising my family with anyone else but you, i wann grow old with you but i know that might not happen bc you might meet some amazing woman that is so much better than me in every way possible, i just wanted to say i love you, you are my everything, us against the world forever and ever my boy

"can i get a kiss? and can you make it last forever? I said I'm bout to go to war, and I don't know if ima see you again."
Everytime I listen to this song, it brings me back to you.
I always think back at the last time you dropped me off and I wish I could've known it was the last. I would've told you to stay, because I somehow managed to fall in love with you. Maybe it was the way you laughed, or the way your eyes would squish out when you smiled. Gosh your smile...even thinking about it now makes me melt gaha.
I hope she treats you well. I hope that she makes you feel as loved as you made me. I might be still madly in love with you, but I promise I'll never get in the way of your life and happiness. I truly just wish you the best. Do you deserve it? I don't know. But one things for sure, I would gladly do anything to see you happy.
We may never see each other again, but just know. Having you in my life in that short period of time, has given me a lifetime supply of happiness :)

Had you loved me, or had you loved the idea of dating me? Either way, I wish I hadn’t sent those pictures.

god i love you so much. you have no clue how much i appreciate you. you'll really never know and the reason i'm here today. im so happy you exist, thank you for being there for me all the time. i hope someday i can repay you. you will forever be the number one person in my life. i love you i cant wait to see you.

hey bestie!!!
i love u and i'm so glad we are close. ur so much cooler than me but that just shows how well i raised u

thank you for everything. it feels wrong to be so happy without you, but i hope you know i couldnt be this happy today, without you...

i’m scared to say it to your face, but for the time we’ve been talking i’ve fallen. you’re so funny and pretty, but I don’t think you’ll ever feel the same towards me. I love you

There's a lot of things I wish I could say to you.. there's a lot of things I wished I phrased differently or didn't say at all... but the one thing I wanna say is I'm sorry. I'm sorry I can be annoying, I'm sorry I apologise so much.. I just want to do things right and not mess things up.. but uh you have bad taste and I love you...

All I want with you is to get a build a bear together but we don’t even hang out so that won’t happen

she’s so pretty and you look happy, you deserve everything good coming your way.
you’ll always be my best friend at heart princess ❤️

i’m really sorry for what happened, i still think of you so often and hope you’re doing okay. i wish u had better friends but that’s none of my concern anymore. i’m sorry again.

The sweater I wore when I was last with you still smells like you. I don’t think I’ll wash it anytime soon.

I will probably never know if you were a real person or not, but thanks for everything you did for me. I miss you.

your really cute. even though we don’t talk, like ever.I’ve had moments where I think u maybe think the same. I hope so. You have my socials just text me. I don’t bite. Then again, I’m probably very wrong about how you feel. This is embarrassing. Fuck it. You missed out if you thought I was cute because we r graduating soon and I like to think I’m a pretty funny person . GL

I don’t love you anymore, perhaps you were my first love maybe an infatuation I thank fate n wish you the best I have more to say but perhaps one day

I want to be upset but I can't. It was my fault. I'm the one who hurt you. I pushed you away when I needed you the most and I'll never forgive myself for that. I'm sorry.

i will never love someone the way i loved you. you made me believe in a twin flame. you made me realize what "best friend" really meant.

i wish we didn't end the way we did. we could've been so good. i miss you and everyone else, but i'll never admit it. i hope you heal and get better. this hurts like a bitch. love you always.

i miss you/: you were too perfect and pretending i don’t care is exhausting. i want to yell at you for hurting me and lying to me but you have her and i’m not a thought in your head. how did you lie so well? how was i convinced you actually wanted me? i didn’t deserve that and i want to be so mad at you, but mostly i just miss you telling me i’m beautiful and perfect and asking to hear my voice. you asked when i was gonna let you take me on a date- now would b good riley

this is stupid but ... we were both stupid romantics and that’s what i found perfect about you.

Selfishly, I hope that someday, when you’re with someone new, you take a moment to remember me. Because, thanks to you, I am a force to be reckoned with.

if i could go back to eigth grade and tell you how i felt i would... i could have left the class but i didnt just for the chance to spend time with you. i cant believe were growing up so fast. i saw you driving yesterday. i wish we were still 13 in english class reading shakespear, with you reading romeos part. love, juliet.

it really hurts that you fell out of love with me so fast and were so unavailable when I obviously needed you so much. it hurts that you had to tell me you didn't love me anymore and it hurts that I already knew because you were just so obvious about it. could you have tried a little harder not to hurt me because its been so many months and I still cry over this :/

I still love you, you're my #1 in my heart. I know you've moved on, and I'm sure you don't even think about me. But that's okay, I'm just the shadow you'll never pay attention too. That's how you think it should be after what you did. I'm over it, I just want my baby back.

I thought for the longest time I've never been in love. But after not being able to go a day without thinking about you, I think that was a lie.

I looked into your eyes and worried I was already falling. The way we spoke made me feel like a fool for not trying to sooner.

hello totallynotriley. you were always so so so sweet. god i miss that. that time when we burnt down technoclans forest. when we would walk around our base doing nothing on the smp. i miss you sm riley. i hope youre doing well. i know that you always had to be so careful when talking to me because you didnt want to say anything wrong. im sorry for making you feel like that. you did nothing wrong. i hope that you can forgive me. i miss you.

Sometimes I want to wait for you, sometimes I wish I could forget you. I miss the night with you on the boat during the sunset.

why did you leave me? what did i do? how did you move on so quickly? please come back to me i miss you so much it hurts

It’s a never ending cycle with you. No ones wins in our story. You grabbed me by my waist, looked me in my eyes and told me that I’m losing you for a long time. But you never said forever. And even if u did say forever, I wouldn’t believe it. We always come back to eachother. But for once I don’t want to come back to you. I just want us to be together and stay together. Why is our story so hard? Why are you so difficult? I hope you realize that I care about you more then anything in the world, I compare every boy to you, I put you before myself. How did you do that to me? That’s how I know your special. That’s how I know that we are special. Our story is not done otherwise I would of been over you by now.

I miss you. I loved the way you said my name and the way you stared at me in class. The little jokes you would play on me. I thought you were the one, I hope we meet again in the future.

I’m so sorry; for what, though, I’m not sure. You were the right person, at the most incorrect time. I’m sure, in another universe, we’re the perfect couple and as happy as we were that July. The sticky summer heat will always remind me of us.

i hate you. why’d you do that to me. after everything. you know that it was going to hurt me. but yet you didn’t care. just going around thinking that i’d be fine with all you’ve done and even after everything you kept going because apparently that wasn’t enough for you. but yet i still love you

you are the best person to come into my life. i am so lucky to have the coolest bitch as my best friend.

Hi bubs, I miss you, I really do. You seem to be doing better without me, and I always will want what's best for you

i miss you. so much. you were the one person i knew i could always trust and then you slept with her. you did exactly what i asked you not to do. you broke me into a million pieces and now that im back together, you wanna come back into my life because you "miss me" well guess what i miss me too. i miss me before you. i loved you rpt. so so much.

I like you, like a lot... and you may or may not know it. But you make me so happy. I don't want to ruin our friendship, but at the same time I don't want this to ruin my life. You're what I think about before I sleep and when I wake up. Please, oh please tell me if you like me back because we would be perfect.

I just wish i was enough for you but i was never going to be, i hope what we had was real because it was to me

I miss you, I don’t want to text you though because idk if you feel the same. I loved you so much and I appreciate every day that I spent with you. I hope we find our way back to each other but if we don’t I really hope you will remember me

I-i love youre simply not like any other guy I've ever talked too. I seriously want you in my future. I love you so fucking much.