Unsent messages to OWEN

I still think of you, a lot. I miss you so much. It's hard seeing you with someone else. Why did you have to leave?

Thank you for being my best friend. Thank you for never giving up on me and always being there for me. You have made my life better than I ever could've imagined. I love you forever.

would be great if u j like date me but u don’t know that i like you and i plan on it staying that way

but id let you hurt me again and again if it meant just 5 more minutes with you. i think that is how i know i love you.

you were my first love. but you were also my first heartbreak. you helped me through so much and i don't how much i appreciate you. i will never forget all of the memories we have made. i just want to let you know that i love you so much and would not be the same person that i am now. you have made my life worth living for. you always put a smile on my face and never fail to make me laugh. i love you owen

so apparently i was right. you don’t like me. ik you probably really want to but u just can’t and that’s fine i get it. i did the same thing to sully but idk it’s just different. i really really liked you dude and i mean yeah it doesn’t take me long to get over people but i genuinely haven’t felt that way about someone since adam. i guess i should have just cut it off the first time and definitely the second time but i was dumb and hopeful and was really wishing u didn’t do it again. everyone told me not to talk to you and i was only gonna get hurt bc u kept ending things with me. they were right. i can’t blame you for not being over your last girl but u shouldn’t have started something with me in the first place if that’s how u really felt. i think it would be good to stay friends but i just need you to realize that u shouldn’t have lead me on and acted the way u did when u weren’t over someone else.

you where my first love, like, kiss. just my first i love you and miss you everyday i never stopped falling in love

You’ll never see this but i love you and i wish i could be comfortable talking about my feelings whether you’re upset or not. I wish you did care about certain things even though you say you don’t care. i want you to care :/

what’s keeping me here if i have no purpose and no one that cares about me. you can move on without me

i miss last year when we would stay up all night talking and playing stupid games and stuff and when i would get butterflies from seeing ur name pop up on my phone.. i miss not being able to shut up about you to my friends, now u hate me and idk what to do. its never gonna go back to the way it used to be bc i fucked up big time. i still listen to the playlist u made me and sometimes even sleep in your t shirt even though ik i shouldnt. kinda hoping maybe one day you will text me asking for it back just so i can have an exuse to talk to u and see u one more time. and ik its selfish because in the end it really was my fault and my fault only and i hurt you really badly but pls come back i miss u more then u could ever know

i don't know what to say other than typing your name gives me that sudden pang and all of our memories are back. I will never understand why you left again but I don't miss you anymore

i gave you everything i had. i told you shit i don’t tell anyone. my mistake was opening up to you the way i did. i was trying to communicate my pain to you, not start a fight. i knew you were going to leave and it would change everything. i should’ve bet money on it. you really fucking hurt me. you should’ve left when you first knew.

Thank you for showing me love. You’ve always been there for me. And I’m sorry I don’t feel the same but you mean a lot to me. I can trust you and rely on you always. Thank you so much x

and even if we never talk again, please remember that i am forever changed by who you are and what you meant to me. thank you for the memories.

I'm sorry i fuck up every relationship you get in. i cant date you but it hurts too much to see her date you. i want you to be happy but not at my expense. is blue still your favorite color?

no matter what you will always hold a place in my heart, i wish you the best. and i hope that someday maybe we’ll meet again and we can be friends

I had to. I tried to make you understand but you didn't. also: saying the n word is racist. open ur eyes.

when u glance over at me ever so slightly and i catch u is the only thing that I look forward to most days

i have liked you for over two years and i don't know what to do. you have a girlfriend but I don't know if i can be your friend with the way I feel. will you hate me if i tell you I love you? Im sorry I messed up what we had 2 years ago. We could be together right now if I'd know then how I'd feel right now.

Ojalá algún día puedas perdonarme por ser la persona que fuí, no me arrepiento de nada y espero que seas feliz, siempre serás el amor de mi vida.

I loved you for a long time, and you never felt the same way. That's okay. But I know a tiny part of me will always belong to you. See you in April, I'm so lucky to have you as a best friend

i think of you everyday and it’s making me insane. i wish things were different. right person wrong time.

i try to find you in every person i meet. nobody else compares to you. you were my first love. i miss you, but do you think of me the way i think of you?

i try to find you in every person i meet. nobody else compares to you. you were my first love. i miss you, but do you think of me the way i think of you?

i wish i could tell u how i rly felt without having to pretend it was drunken bullshit. it never is bullshit; one day i hope u will see that ur my person even if im not urs.

i’ve been hurting for a long time now and you made me feel ok again. you showed me what it’s like to be really loved and even though you won’t say it, i know you feel it and you’re scared to feel that again so soon. i will leave you alone for a while because “if you love someone let them go, and if they don’t come back they were never yours to begin with”. so, i’ll take some time to focus on myself for a bit because apparently i’ve got some work to do too. i really do love you and i really do want to be with you and maybe one day we will, who knows? all i know is that you made me feel so cared about for the first time in a long time. i really could see us together for the long run. but i also know that you hurt me in more ways than i could’ve ever imagined. you were my first everything. the first person i really fell for. the first person to make me feel so loved. i will look back on this time fondly but i will not be coming back to you even if i really want to. i chased you for way too long and should have ended everything the first time you broke me. i didn’t because i knew we had something special. i guess only time will tell if you were in my life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. but i’m going to really miss being able to just talk to you. i’ll miss just calling you to rant or talk about our days or cuddling when i’m stressed out. i know you say that i still can but it isn’t going to be the same for a while, hell it never will be the SAME. we aren’t together and we may never be. please just don’t be a douche who says he needs to work on himself and isn't ready but gets with someone a month later, you know how bad that would crush me. i hope you figure your shit out and i hope i figure mine out. you’ve broken me and it’s going to take time to heal but i will come out stronger in the end. i hope you find whatever you’re looking for in life, i know i will find mine. it’s up to you if you would like to put in the effort to be there when i do. i know that i want to be there when you do but i will not chase you any longer. idrk where we went wrong but thank you for teaching me how i deserve to be treated. it was fun pretending. maybe one day.

i’ve been hurting for a long time now and you made me feel ok again. you showed me what it’s like to be really loved and even though you won’t say it, i know you feel it and you’re scared to feel that again so soon. i will leave you alone for a while because “if you love someone let them go, and if they don’t come back they were never yours to begin with”. so, i’ll take some time to focus on myself for a bit because apparently i’ve got some work to do too. i really do love you and i really do want to be with you and maybe one day we will, who knows? all i know is that you made me feel so cared about for the first time in a long time. i really could see us together for the long run. but i also know that you hurt me in more ways than i could’ve ever imagined. you were my first everything. the first person i really fell for. the first person to make me feel so loved. i will look back on this time fondly but i will not be coming back to you even if i really want to. i chased you for way too long and should have ended everything the first time you broke me. i didn’t because i knew we had something special. i guess only time will tell if you were in my life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. but i’m going to really miss being able to just talk to you. i’ll miss just calling you to rant or talk about our days or cuddling when i’m stressed out. i know you say that i still can but it isn’t going to be the same for a while, hell it never will be the SAME. we aren’t together and we may never be. please just don’t be a douche who says he needs to work on himself and isn't ready but gets with someone a month later, you know how bad that would crush me. i hope you figure your shit out and i hope i figure mine out. you’ve broken me and it’s going to take time to heal but i will come out stronger in the end. i hope you find whatever you’re looking for in life, i know i will find mine. it’s up to you if you would like to put in the effort to be there when i do. i know that i want to be there when you do but i will not chase you any longer. idrk where we went wrong but thank you for teaching me how i deserve to be treated. it was fun pretending. maybe one day.

i hope you're happy. i hope you're happy knowing that you broke me. knowing that you gave up on the girl who would've done everything for you, but I guess everything this summer was all a lie and I have to learn to accepect that

You made me feel love for the first time but broke my fucking heart twice. I can't feel anymore because of you and I hate you for it. But I can't imagine what I would've done w out you.

I will never tell you to your face because my heart brakes at the thought of your reaction. But getting it off my chest will make me feel better, even if you never see it. Your girlfriend likes 2 boys, and said if it wasn’t for you she would be with one of them. It’s not fair on you and you deserve better.

i hate that i can't hate you because hate would be the word to describe how i feel towards you right now but deep down i know it's not real. i'm just so mad at you. letting you go was probably the hardest thing i've ever had to do and after all the tears and heartbreak i put into that, you made it all disappear just to leave me again. fuck you - ?

i felt to much and it scared me. i'm sorry for everything. i know it doesn't matter now but i love you.

I get butterflies when I see you and fireworks when I kiss you. I hope one day we are it for each other.

you have a good heart. i’ll never forget how you made me laugh, the way you held me close, the way you treated me with so much love

you have a good heart & you came into my life at the right time. i loved the way you made me laugh, the way you held me so close. maybe it didn’t go exactly the way we both planned, but i wouldn’t trade that moment for the world.

p.s sorry i didn’t kiss you

i can't tell you because you're not ready to hear it yet so i'll say it here. i love you. I've loved you since the beginning of august and it almost comes out of my mouth every damn time i see you. i want this to work so bad. come home soon okay? i miss you a lot.

i know you don’t know this but it broke me when you asked me to block me to get rid of the pink heart

hey idk what I feel now that ur back. sure the feelings are still there from the past but I cant help but to think why u came back after being gone for so long. I just want to know how u feel so I/we can move on.

if you see this, please know that i still love you. sometimes i feel the phantom smell of your perfume, but these nights i've learned to fall asleep without thinking about you.

you are the love of my life never stop smiling and never stop loving yourself for who you are. I love you to the moon and back

i hope you come back, i replay all of the memories we had. i know it was short but i still fell in love with you.

Dear Owen, you will never be able to understand how much I loved you. You were the reason I got up in the morning, my favorite part of the day was seeing you smile. I worry that I will never find someone like you and that scares me. If I'm being honest, we would have never worked out, we were too different. I like to believe I loved you in a past life, and that we were happy. Maybe that's why you're my happy place, whenever I think about you I feel safe. It kills me that I can't say these words to you. Please don't forget about me, if in ten years you drive past our school or our neighborhood, all I ask is that you remember me.

And hopefully, you smile.

everything is telling me to let you go but i can't do that. our story is not over. get your shit together.

white ferrari defines our relationship. we're taller in another dimension and i know it. i'm just sorry it isn't this one.

I truly hope you find someone who knows how lucky they are to have ended up with you, because you deserve the world

i hate that your so far yet so close i guess we could say right person wrong timing. i never though id fall for someone like you until i met you. You were able to change how i view and let go of my toxic traits from the past. i miss you more and more everyday even some day you act a bit funny but ive already talked to you about that. i cry at times thinking if i should keep trying fight for this distance. I keep fighting because your different and i want you to be that one person that meets my family and everyone gets alone with. Its you and only you my love. I love you with all my heart please dont give up and i wont and i promise that i will continue to fight.

i often think about why you’re with someone like me. physically there are so many things i can’t get over about myself and i’m so fucking scared to be intimate with you because i look a certain way. it’s not your fault, it’s my own shit i gotta work on. but you’re perfect in my eyes. i want to be that for you.

I wish u could have loved me. Ik I’m better off but I miss u like crazy and I wish I could still tell u things and know that I wouldn’t fall into that rabbit hole again.

I hate that I want to like you. I hate that you make me question my relationship. I hate that you mean so much

it breaks my heart to think that you’ll never love me like i love you. you’re my entire other half whether you believe it or not. when i’m around you i feel whole. those poems i’ve sent you.. i meant every word in them. i had to unfriend you because it’s not good for me to see you in love with someone else when all i want is for you to love me. that might sound weird or selfish but when i said “i’ll be waiting, just in case.” i wanted that to stick with you just so if you ever thought for one second you loved me that you’d know i’m here.. still waiting. you still have my number though so if you ever shoot me a text, i’d answer in a heartbeat. even a call would be nice. just so i can know you miss me like i miss you. i hate waiting around for you and i know i should move on but something tells me i can’t. your siblings. owen. your siblings even want us to be together. your own mother wants us to be together. we’re perfect for each other whether you see it or not. but we are. i don’t even want to submit this cause there’s a chance you might see it but i don’t care. ugh this is so detailed and you’re gonna know who it is, but i just want you to know that i’ll always have you in my heart. you’re half my heart and without talking to you i feel like there’s no heart left. i gotta hold on to a tiny piece of it though bc without it, these feelings wouldn’t still be here. please take care of yourself and don’t text me if you don’t want to but i care for you so much. until we cross paths again.