Unsent messages to OWEN

hi. i don’t know how or when to tell you, but i really like you. i don’t ever want to live a life that doesn’t have you in it. i can’t imagine myself getting so close to anyone else and i wish i could tell you this but i’m just scared to lose our friendship. i know deep down you feel the same way but you’re just scared. it’s ok. i am too. but i wouldn’t let anything happen to the bond we have.

confessed to you last night. i didn't know what to expect, but I knew you wouldn't feel the same. it's fine tho, I never took you as someone who'd be in a relationship rn. i understand. we don't know each other anymore which kind of bums me out. despite the fact that we used to be so close back then. we were inseparable; we were best friends who'd call every night. high school drove us apart, and we found our own people. and now that we've gotten to speak to each other again, made me bring back so many memories that were left unspoken about. we were so happy... i don't know what went wrong. but you were my first crush. i guess it's safe to say that you were the right person, just at the wrong time. take care always, and I hope the first girl you end up being with is as great as you want her to be.

i hope she makes you feel the way that i feel about you right now. i hope she was worth it. have fun living life without me lol.

you'll never understand the pain that i went through. because of you, i'm scared to love. i feel unlovable. i'm scared that everyone else is gonna leave me the way that you left me. and for that, fuck you. i hate you. you ruined me. but my heart still beats, so i'll continue to live life just as i did before i met you.

I’m over it now, but why’d you give up so easily? You didn’t even try to figure it out together, just cut it off.

you're acne is hot and i like how you're so nice to me even when your rude chav bitchy friends are there who do not match your energy at all but whatever makes you happy

We started talking a few years ago and we became friends. We were all good & then u got a gf & we stopped being friends. You stopped texting me back so I stopped texting you. I miss the nights we would stay up til like 3am texting. I hope you’re well.

i don't know what to feel anymore. Im not going to live unhappy. we hung out and I didn't feel it. I needed you as a friend, your selfish. you have lots in your life. the only thing you were missing was a girlfriend but you fucking rushed that and it makes me sick to think that I BROKE UR HEART. you never want to see me, but yet you are still finding a way somehow? Liam hates me now because of you, you know how much he men't to me. he was there in the summer to talk when you didn't want to. don't say you EVER tried to understand what I was going through. whenever I would try to reach out to you, you never listened. Liam and Will did tho. I miss them so much, you don't see how much it hurts to not speak to them anymore. you can still talk shit about me to my best friend tho and thats ok? cool. you never take anyone else into account. you over think everything. I AM NOT TALKING TO OTHER GUYS BECAUSE ALL MY FRIENDS LEFT ME. I used to feel bad for you, you are not strong. saying I put you into a deep depression that you are still in? I HAVE BEEN DEALING WITH THIS FOR SO SO LONG. I almost broke down crying when you said that to keira. I stayed home from school. I feel alone in this town. the reason why I unfriended you was not because I didn't want talk, I just need space but you blocked me out. you don't make me feel green anymore my heart is fucking black.

i lost a lacrosse game today and all i could think about afterwards was if you’d maybe be at the doors waiting to hug me and tell me that i played great, even if my team lost.

you could've helped me understand my mistakes. i will never forgive you for putting me down for them instead.

i hate the person i was with you but i love the person i am without you. why can you be happy about that?

remember when you would flirt with me while you still had a girlfriend and then would constantly tell me about her , yeah same

i still think about certain moments with you, i think i will forever. i think the way i feel about you is the same way i've let alot of people feel about me. i don't blame you for not being able to reciprocate the passion i developed for you but i'm glad you let me experience love like that.

I re-live what you did to me still. I said no, and yet I feel so guilty, so responsible. No one has ever hurt me more - and I only knew you for 2 hours.

I know I messed up but I’m trying really hard to make things better and you just never seem to notice it

i like you more than friends, i love your humour and how comforting you are but you have a girlfriend and you deserve to be happy

i new it was getting bad when you stopped sending me pictures of the sunset. i miss that. i miss you.

we were the king and queen of our school. then u dated my bestfriend but i always thought u were cute even with snot hanging out of your nose

Whenever you texted me I would smile, whenever you talked to me it made me happy. You made me feel loved. You made me happy. We might have only been friends but I loved you in a way I can't explain. I know you wanted to be more than just friends but at the time I was too dumb to realise we could've been great together. But now we are strangers again and we have both changed, both grown up and both matured. It hurts me to see you happy with other people because once upon a time that was me making you smile. Supposedly, everything happens for a reason. For now, I believe that we broke away from each other because it was meant to happen or maybe it was our own faults. Either way I'm sorry x

this is my way of saying goodbye. I always seem to go back to you but this time I can't so thank you, thank you for the memories

u have a tie dye shirt that i told u i loved. u wore it more after i said that. honestly i j loved the way this green looked on u

i’ve finally learned to love myself and at the time i didnt. I’m sorry for that. thank you for helping me love myself and i hope when you do we can come back to eachother

you’ll always have a piece of my heart no matter what. i still think abt u every second of the day. as much as i’d like to pretend i’m over you, or i don’t think about you, i do. everything reminds me of u. no one feels the same as u. i’m hurt, but you’re gone and we are strangers again. how did this even happen ? take me back. please take me back.

i’ve always thought about what would happen if we liked each other. after your house that one day, i’ve realized that i’ve always liked you. i just hope this all works out and that you feel the same

I see the love in you and you deserve a better life than what you were born into. I hope u find someone who feels the same.

when talking to you, everything around me disappears, every hurt feeling, everyone, and every thought.

it is so hard for me to accept the fact we are strangers again. in the end we never really worked, so its time to accept our fates. I really do love you O, maybe in another life?

Its not easy to let go of something you love, but my love for you hurt me, because I was never enough to be loved back.

i wish you didn’t treat me the way you did, i wish that you didn’t use me and i wish you would’ve gave me a proper chance. but you didn’t. so now i can move on and you being an ass has made me so much stronger

Tired of getting nothing back. I liked you right away which never happens for me so I don't wanna leave but again it's tiring.

you’re the person that came into my life and made me wonder how i was ever living without you before. you changed me forever. you truly turned my world, and god knows i would do anything for another chance to right our wrongs, but i can’t. our love story is written in the stars, and i will never forget all the things you taught me about myself, about life, and about love. thank you for being my person. i love you eternally.

hey, i miss you. you promised me. and you broke that promise. i’m not gonna sit here and beg for you back because i know i don’t need you. but i want you.

my heart hurts without you. you hurt me more than anything. i really hope someday you can find the wrong in your actions but for now i'm gonna struggle everyday without you. ill always love you.

ur downgrade is SO embarrassing and yet i still almost feel bad for her bc you have no personality or game LOL

its sad to think that she is making u laugh and smile, i use to do that to u. ig i have to except u are in love with her, and i cant change that..

you are the sweetest boy I've ever met and why'd you have to move schools? my friends and I dreamed of me going to prom with you.

i know u will never like me. and i know u have a girlfriend that makes u happy, but i will always be here waiting.

when i saw u with your girlfriend i didnt know u had, my heart sank. I will never tell u that ive liked u for almost 1 year now. ik u wont even think of me as more then a friend. when u starred at me when i saw u with ur girlfriend i couldnt have been more sad. i wish u the best, and i hope one day u realize i think we are meant to be.

We were connected through pre-school and somehow our parents know or knew each other I never really understood it. About two years ago we saw each other at the West Side grill and it was really awkward I don't know if it was because we hadn't seen each other in a while or because I was the first female you were friends with.

i thought i loved you but now i don’t think i ever even liked you. i liked that you were a projection of what i lacked.

Dear Owen, I am really sorry that I didn't tell you this before. I feel like we have an amazing friendship, and that we can always count on each other for anything. But I have been in love with you for the past 4 months and you haven't left my mind. As I am a demisexual I need to have a good bond with the person before I start developing feelings, and I have a feeling that you are the right one.

Thank you
Morgan

i love you so much, you can’t see that can you? I just hope you do feel the same way i’ve liked u for 3 almost 4 months and i hope you see this.

You put me back together just to leave me more broken than I was when we met, but I will always love you x

I believe that everyone we touch, who touches us, has been put in our path for a reason. God knows I would have done anything and everything to make you happy without even considering my own boundaries. I know better now. Thank you for the memories, you’ll always have a piece of my heart

you look like a rejected character from phineas and ferb. also owens a stupid name. go drink some water and brag about it or something. idk what you do. you're an incredibly boring person.

it’s like forcing a piece of a puzzle to fit when it clearly doesn’t... that’s how it feels when i try to replace you

you really hurt me. multiple times and i still came running back to you. you left me for. i really trusted you. i told you everything. i tried for so long to move on, get you out of my thoughts. but i cant. like i said i will always come running back to you. forever. you were my fisrt love. i was not yours.

i miss you so much. you broke my heart when you left. i fell in love w you when i was a kid and i still am. pls come back, you were my bsf and my first crush. i love you so much. miss you.

I miss you, but I have to accept the fact that growth sometimes means going back wards but dealing with it differently.

i should’ve never answered your call. you have not spoken one word to me for a month and then you call me. I should’ve declined it