Unsent messages to MIA

Fuck you, you stupid bitch. This is all your fault because you couldn't keep your mouth shut. I hate you.

I love you more than anyone else, I gave you all my attention, the only thing I need to be happy is you... but you preferred giving all the love to your crush, even knowing she didn’t love you.

part of me still hasn’t come to terms with the fact i loved you because you hurt me so much it doesn’t seem fair. i still see pieces of you in things even though it’s been so long and it hurts knowing i’ll still miss you in the future but know that we could never work and it’d only hurt me more

hey, merry christmas! did u get the shoes u said u were going to? i did. hope it was a great day n happy new year almost i guess

You used me. Tore me apart, and cheated. I loved you and was there for you. YOURE there reason for my trauma and sadness. You’re the reason I’m having trouble with my relationships now.

I love you so much. Like so so much. You’ve been so amazing to me all the time the whole time. I love you so so much and I genuinely couldn’t imagine my life without you. Never ever again. Please stay and don’t leave me. I need you?❤️

all i want is one text from you saying hi or asking if i'm okay. our conversations now are dry and aren't what they once were. what happened? did i do something wrong? do you even still think about me like i think about you?

i miss you. i truly believe u are my soulmate. i am forever thankful for you. forever we are infinite .

i know we joke around a lot, but i i really am in love with you. i wish you felt the same. i’ve never felt this way about anyone. i miss you.

i miss you so much, i stay up at night thinking about all of our memories. I just wish you weren’t so involved in drama with the people I care about.

hey mia. i love and miss you so much. i'm so sorry for everthing i've done wrong and i'm so sad that you hate me now. i miss kissing your lips and just hugging you and be by your side. thank you for everything.

I still love you. I shouldn't and it's wrong but I do. I just don't think you love me anymore. I will always love you and it hurts. It hurts so much.

i wish i knew that you would leave even though you promised you wouldnt. i realized when you started hanging out with different people is when you started to change and i know its still you inside but i dont wanna tell you thag because youll call me a stupid whore again. im not a moron. you compared me to a racist and said im worse than her. ill never forgive you.

i cant believe i let you take me for granted, i guess i never want to disappoint you and i never want you to leave.

i’m happy you’re happy. i just wish you didn’t forget about me (except when it’s convenient for you). i miss you

I really, really like you but I don't know how to tell you. I'm afraid you'll leave me and things won't be the same. you probably don't even feel remotely the same but I just can't stop feeling like this. I'm sorry. I just can't stop loving you like I do.

my finger is hovering over the call button of your contact but i can’t bring myself 2 do it :(
from g

i hate the fact that you live so far away and the chances of us ever meeting are so slim. i love you so much.

i hate the fact that you live so far away and the chances of us ever meeting are so slim. i love you so much.

do you know how hard it is to hate you? i hate your personality, I hate the things you did to me, hate your fake apologies, your lies, the way you've indoctrinated your friends into hating me. i hate everything about you, you even give me the ick. so why do I still care about you? why do I still check every day if your in? why do I think about you, when I eat, when Im in the car, when I'm about to sleep. its so draining to care about you but i cant stop. i want you to be safe, i need you to be okay. i think no matter how much i hate you, its better than feeling numb, id rather than be heartbroken than admit your a stranger, because then what was it all for? i don't want to let you go, even if i hate the person you've become, i don't want to let go of the only person whos ever made me feel, feel something real. when i said i loved you unconditionally and would be there no matter what, i meant it. i guess you didn't.

sometimes you make me feel like shit you make me want to die but i need you and and i can’t help but feel you don’t need me you never did and never fucking will and it hurts so much

i love you too much to focus on how toxic we are for eachother. we each caused the one thing that ruined eachothers lives - but then on the other hand, you're the only thing keeping me going. so tell me what i should do? should we continue to slowly destroy eachother's livelihoods, eating away at our passions and emotions until we're no more that numb balls of nothing? i love you. i always will. but i don't want to ruin you.

i dont know how i feel anymore, ever since things changed i realised how much i relied on you emotionally. i really truly loved you but its hard when you dont give anything back.

I know you're reading this, I didn't write it and I don't know why you're treating me like I did. I wouldn't do that to you even if we were the "cool hot best friends". If you really think I would do something as messed up as that maybe we should talk.

ur fucking annoying and stop acting like shes ur best friend she's not u guys barley even hang and u blame her for shit all the time when u know hat shes been through stop trying figure out ways she could have avoided it or ways u can tell her "i told u so" be a fucking supportive friend and be there for her god damn

I miss you and when would actually talk to me. I know you've been going through something I'm here. I know sometimes I bail and honestly idk why I do it, But I know when it gets bad it gets bad so Im here and so are a lot of people.

I'm sorry, we have such a love-hate relationship sometimes it's confusing. Some days I love you and want to spend every day doing all the things we always said we would do together. Other days I wonder how I let myself get this deep into with you. It's scary because I don't want to let you go because I know on the days where things are good I'll miss you too much. You're my best friend even when we both don't want to be. I feel like I don't even know you anymore and were holding on to how things used to be with us. We don’t even go to each other when we're going through something. It’s weird and off putting. I take responsibility for my part in that. I’ve hurt you probably as much or more than you’ve hurt me. It’s crazy. I never thought we would come to this. I thought we were gonna be the cool hot best friends; when really were strangers holding on to the past. I don't want to stop being your friend and I really want to make thing work. I can't do that if I feel like I can't talk to you, why do you think I’m writing on this instead of talking to you. I’m just so sorry, from the bottom of my heart, I'm sorry. I know sorry is just a word but it’s the only thing I can say considering how much I’ve hurt you and you’ve hurt me. We struggle with a lot of the same things yet we are so different in personality and in just how messed up we are. I try to reach out but you just shut me out, I’m not blaming you considering but sometimes it get old so I shut you out too. You see what I mean were not good for each other. The truth is I’m scared of letting you go because being friends with you means we don't have to grow up yet, not yet not ever as long as we’re friends. I’m so scared Mia, I don't want to have to let you go because without you I feel like I’m missing something because when it’s good its so good. It feels like us against everyone, and then one of us just isn't in it anymore. We keep going in circles but I feel like I know you but I don't. Mia, I’m so sorry, I'm sorry I'm not brave enough to let you go.

i never loved someone as much as i did and do you. i wish i could be angry so i could get over u but all i have is love for you

This isn't a love letter but I'm sorry about how things were before. It was messed up on all ends. I hope this gets to you someday.

mia youre a bitch so ha take that you bitch. youre also stinky. and im gonna tell my mom you think shes gay you bitch

You never thought of me like this, but I really liked you. If you're reading this and you think it's not about you, it is.

im sorry for being a dickhead and playing with your emotions for so long. but I can't change the way I feel and you need to move on. I hope you understand this is only because I dont want to hurt you any longer.

You are the worst type of person there is and you’re a whore hon, I wish more people would see through your narcissism. Have fun running back to mommy. Xoxo

I had crushes before you, but you are my first and forever love. I have chosen red for it is the colour of intensity and passion, and I think that best describes us

algun dia espero que te des cuenta que yo te amé y te amo de verdad. No es una casualidad que te quiera con locura, yo sé que eres para mi. Tu no lo veias igual?

seria tan bonito saber que tu tambien piensas en mi y me echas de menos.
Nunca me he imaginado que pudieras hacerlo, que valgo algo para ti. Ocultaste tus sentimientos y no entendi nunca nada. Solo jugaste conmigo y yo pensando que me querias de verdad.
Sinceramente no se ni que pensar, estoy destrozado

a pesar de todo el dolor que siento, sé que gracias a ti puedo amar. Te amo y te amaré siempre Mia, aunque tu no lo hagas

i’m sorry i’m sorry i’m sorry , your my best friend and i would do anything for us to be close again but I can’t let you walk all over me it’s not fair and I’m hurting

why? why did you hurt me like that. i trusted and loved you so much. but it was all fake and for nothing. i hate you i hate you i hate you

god where to start. i hate you. so much. but thats only because of how much i once loved you. you were my best friend, for so long, and you ruined me. you betrayed my trust. opened me up to the world and just abandoned me. completely vulnerable. you let them rip me apart with what you did. its been over two years and i still haven't recovered. i nearly ended everything because of what you did. i have physical and mental scars that i'll hold with me for life. i still go to therapy to deal with it all. and you dont even remember i exist.
i hate you so badly. but i also love you. and i miss you. and that makes it hurt so much worse.

I don’t ever want to lose you as a friend. You are one of the best things that have ever happened to me

you made me so happy damn but u broke me in million pieces ik u are happy with him but damn u were my first love & i'm never forgetting how happy u made me how do i lear to love & trust again?.

Eres una buena amiga, yo se que no te hablo mucho y creo que a veces piensas que te ignoro, pero no es así, nada mas te quiero decir que eres la mejor persona del mundo

HEY IVE LITERALLY HAD A CRUSH ON YOU FOR LIKE EVER SINCE IVE KNOWN YOU AND IM SO HAPPY YOURE TALKING TO ME ASDFGHJKL

Mia, you're always here for me. You put the brightest smiles on my face and I would probably be dead if you weren't here. Have fun and I hop you find your soulmate, because I know I've already found mine.

Hey you are my go to bitch and I am so grateful to have you in my life. I legit wouldn't be here without you lols. I love you beyond words, you're the best. Thank you for everything.

I loved you but every time we spoke it was like alls you wanted to talk about was the newest boy you met, I wanted you to like me so bad I did every thing you ever asked and never saw that you didn't want me

i used to imagine us getting married and us having kids. but then you didnt want a relationship. I still love you so much and would take you back in a heart beat. but im not sure you'd do the same... I wish i had the balls to actually send this to you, but i dont. I dont think youd even care about any of it. I love you so much and i hope one day we'll find eachother again..

ty for saving my life i trying don’t know where or if i’d be here today if it wasn’t for you. the amount of love i feel when i think or see you is indescribable. i thank anyone greater than us for making us meet. my soulmate, here forever and always

Im sorry I couldnt have been the one for you. I really wanted to be but my past relationships have completely ruined what love even means for me and I dont know what to do anymore I hope one day you forgive me