i love you too much to focus on how toxic we are for eachother. we each caused the one thing that ruined eachothers lives - but then on the other hand, you're the only thing keeping me going. so tell me what i should do? should we continue to slowly destroy eachother's livelihoods, eating away at our passions and emotions until we're no more that numb balls of nothing? i love you. i always will. but i don't want to ruin you.
