god where to start. i hate you. so much. but thats only because of how much i once loved you. you were my best friend, for so long, and you ruined me. you betrayed my trust. opened me up to the world and just abandoned me. completely vulnerable. you let them rip me apart with what you did. its been over two years and i still haven't recovered. i nearly ended everything because of what you did. i have physical and mental scars that i'll hold with me for life. i still go to therapy to deal with it all. and you dont even remember i exist.
i hate you so badly. but i also love you. and i miss you. and that makes it hurt so much worse.