Unsent messages to MIA

I was down your street on Halloween night missing the day I saw you for the first time. I'll never forget what we had, and there's always going to be a hole in my heart from where I used to keep you.

i miss our friendship. we're only facebook friends now and that's the worst kind of friendship you can have. i miss you bro - but thank you for the memories, i guess we just weren't destined to know each other forever

im so in love with you. please read this. i picked this colour to match your eyes :) i hope that one day you feel the same way. until then i’ll guess we’ll just be friends. see you tomorrow.

i think about what we had and cry. i miss the old you. you changed too much. you turned into the person you hated.

i know we went through some shit (which was my fault) but idk man life doesn’t feel the same when im not talking to you. everything just feels dull and i don’t vibe with anyone the same as i do w you.
i get why you cut me off on socials and that but i just hope we can talk again soon, i miss you

i wonder if i was actually in love with you, or if i tricked myself because i just wanted to be loved

you werent my first "love", but i want to say im sorry. i broke up w you in a pretty shitty way and it was really almost a year ago in a few months but im really sorry for hurting you. i think i was afraid?? you just seemed to like me so much more and i am so shitty at showing i care about people that it would've hurt both of us if i hadnt broken things off. maybe this sounds selfish but i hope i didnt leave a long lasting impression on you

I don't know if you ever read any of these or if you interact with anything I've said, but if I had the opportunity I'd take you back in a heartbeat. You just need to let me know, there's so much I've been wanting to say...

i loved you so much,i really did i used to say i just trusted you but i fucking loved you so much y p.o. u dumb bitch. but your a piece of shit. after i broke up with you i haven’t texted you and i’m glad because i don’t need someone that takes their anger out on me because i was too infatuated with you to know all you cared about was yourself.

knowing u i feel like one day ur gonna check this aha so i just wanted to say thank you for being my bsf. you give me a reason to not give up on my life. you deserve everything in the world, I'm sorry i cant give u that in return for everything you give me. every little thing u do impacts me and others sm and i want you to know u are so so important to me. never forget how much i love you. i couldn't ask for a better bsf. i wish you the best in life

I miss you, I wanna text you I wanna call you but I know I hurt you and that ur better off without me in ur life.

i know you're not my first love, but i just need to say this. you're such a bitch. spreading lies about me? fine. but you made me hate myself. you made me hate my body. you made me count calories. you made me forget who i was. you made my internalized homophobia. you hurt me so bad. we weren't even fucking friends for that long. fuck you. it took such a long time to recover from you.

My love.. my soulmate.. I didn’t know happy until I met you. The time was off. Pray we meet again when it’s right..

My love.. my soulmate.. I didn’t know happy until I met you. The time was off. Pray we meet again when it’s right..

my heart is keeping me waiting for you while my brain is reminding me of you everyday. It's like I know I need to let go but my body still doesn't want to

I hate how I still want to be under your shadow, you still keep me up at night with what could've been. I don't usually think this hard about anybody, even though I know I should be hating you like you hate me.

thank you for being my best friend when i most needed it. you are the best ily and even tho i don’t show it a lot you have helped me so much.

You where my best friend and you took everything from me. My friends, relationships, happiness, trust and overall faith in myself all bc you couldn’t bear to not be the centre of attention. I didn’t even want the attention, the rumours weren’t true and you new that better than anyone. Even after everything we’d been through and I did for you, I truely thought our friendship would be forever.

Bee. I will never forget you. I still think about you way more than I should, I wonder if you're doing ok and I'm sorry I broke my promises. I never deserved you and I think I always knew that, but I think I loved you in my own way. Miss you Bee and I still want to do our list even if you won't talk to me.❤?

i love you so much. i can't possibly imagine my life without you. you're the friend i'm most comfortable around even if we're not that close. you've changed my life in so many ways, please don't leave me. you know who i am. bisous

i need to get over you. people say you never get over your first love and i really hope that’s not true because i’ve loved you for too long now. it’s not fair, i've never had closure and i probably never will. i want to move on. i want to stop thinking about you. i want to not want you. maybe one day in the future we’ll be together, i doubt it. but maybe.

I wish you would just say no. I flirt with other girls to get over you. But they’re all in competition with you. And you don’t love me back.

you make me feel so welcome and so loved. you are so kind and you actually listen. you open up to me and make me feel safe enough to reciprocate it. this honestly feels like the closest i've ever been to someone. i don't tell you enough but i genuinely love you so much, whether that's platonic or romantic only time will tell. for now we have what we have and that's good enough for me.

I need my best friend back i miss you, we cant just throw away 5 years please text me and we can make this right, i love you

i wish i loved you from the beginning i wish i gave you the confidence years ago so you could be happy like you are now. i wish i could’ve given this to you sooner. i am happy for you now that can finally feel confident in yourself. never let anyone hurt you again.

talk to me when you get the chance. its been a little while since we've had a happy conversation. i miss those conversations. i really do. also i want to tell you something, so text me the words "green tea" if your seeing this. no specific reason i just want to have a cool code word. i promise what i want to tell you isn't a bad thing. i've tried to tell you a couple of times but i wasn't exactly ready. now i am. so i hope ill get to talk to you soon. i really miss you. have a good rest of your day :)

from,
naomi

You hurt me to the point of no return, but i forgive you. i’m happier now and i wish you nothing but the best. i hope you meet someone that you never get bored of and that you never have to leave and i hope you love them unconditionally. have a good life :)

everyday i think of something and go to text you about then i realize i can't. i have no one to say those things to anymore.

i let u hurt me because you were my other half and i love you. now i watch in tears while you have everything i ever wanted. congratulations, im heartbroken.

you genuinely fucked over my relationship and you're literally proud of what you've done. Stop thinking that you're the shit when in reality you're the same basic white horse bitch. Why don't you go suck your horses dick again just like you told my boyfriend you did nasty mf