happy new year’s babe, i love you. i wish we could’ve spent nye together but it’s okay. i’ll save a kiss for you

hey so like is this over and i’m sorry for asking because i know the answer but i never really got one so i’m still just chillin here holding on to the last bit of hope i have and i really just need you to tell me it’s over if it is

i wish it all ended differently, thank you for being my first love and also teaching me that i need to love myself first.

ive waited lifetimes for you, and i will always find my way back and choose you. i still think of you whenever i look at the moon.

hi kyle. yes, donald p. i think that's enough said. it hurts that you would disregard all the memories we have & just ignore me. it's been awhile, but i'm moving on. i'm sorry. bye

I fell for you ever since I first met you. I have thought about you everyday since we met. I’m sorry for anything I did to make you change so differently around me. Not looking me in the eye, barley holding a conversation, never texting me. I cherish the memories we do have so deeply at a time when you wanted me and we were so close and now we’re strangers. It’s hurts like mad that I have to accept that your just a memory to me and don’t want me. I feel abandoned and confused as to why this has happened but i cannot change the way you feel. I just hope you know how much I loved you and how much you hurt me in the end.

I never felt like this even if I had relationships before. I like you very much and it sucks that I’m just your friend and you haven’t moved on from your ex.

When I first met you I didn’t think I would fall this hard for you, but I did and you’ve been on my mind ever since. I want to be with you so bad, I just wished you liked me that way I like you

not speaking about it and ignoring it hurts more than the rejection ever would. i want to know how you feel

youre still my drunk and my sober thoughts. missing you so much makes it hard for me to enjoy being your friend in the present moment so ive decided im letting you go this year. i feel like you dont feel the same and i'm consistently leading myself on pretending you could love me like that. its unfair to me and you. i hope i didn't fuck up it feels like youre starting to respond to me now out of feeling like you have to

You didn't deserve me, and you knew it. You were constantly hurting me and you didn't care. Fuck you.

you are the most wonderful person ive ever come across. when i heard you cry i couldn’t believe myself. i made an angel cry and i will never forgive myself.

i know i had to lose you to find myself. but now that im better i cant stop trying to find you. pathetically and desperately ive come to realize i think it will always be you. no matter what i do its going to be you. i wish i could've been the one for you too.

I have so much to say to you if things were just like they was, I miss you so much it hurts we were eachothers bestfriend . I know you don’t think about me but there isn’t a day that you don’t cross my mind. If only we had met later on when we weren’t just teenagers. You are my soulmate and I know you don’t get on with her like you did with me. If only you realised what we had. I’m not one for falling for people but my heart will always have a you shaped hole. You are my forever and I’d do anything to have you back. We complete eachother ...

you are sky blue and yellow. you are hope and joy and calm. i close my eyes and there’s you and your golden retriever smile

Everyone saw how happy i was even when i wasnt around you. People haven’t noticed a negative change, ive noticed a change in myself and i miss who i was with you

I miss you... more than life. You were the person that made me realise my worth, you made me laugh like no one has ever done before. Your smile in enfections and I would do anything for u to hug me again and tell me everything will be alright. I have so many things to tell u, u are still the first person I go and text after something good happens! I understand it was not our time but the love I have for you is still there in masses because you are the first person I’ve ever loved with every inch of me. You made me whole and now ur gone I can’t cope... it’s been 6months without having u to text or FaceTime but I understand it wasn’t our time and the memories I have with you I will cherish for my whole life. I understand you no longer want me in your life and that’s ok but all I want you to know is that I love you, I love you more than life itself. I hope sometime in the future we meet again but I know that won’t happen we are both very different people who see relationships in very different ways I hope u see one day hope much pain you have caused. Charlie misses u too, he misses your goodnights and my partner miss you talking to them on FaceTime
But we were not meant to be
I’ll love you forever
Apes
XXXX

You were my first love. It has been a month and I miss you so much. I pray everyday we find each other again

No ones gonna be me. All i can picture is you with anyone else but no one will be me for you the way no one will be you for me. Sorry.

It sucks because neither of us was truly bad for the other. You made me the best person i had ever been and you were taking risks that were setting on the path you wanted. We wouldve grown so much together. I was just so happy with you. We had to end, even though neither of us wanted to, it wasnt our choices and thats what sucks the worst

i hate the way youre always my drunk thoughts. i think about you everytime i hear love songs see see sunflowers i miss loving you so much you make me feel so whole. i wonder if im the one you think about when you see things you love aswell

Im sorry for everything, really sorry.
but i also really dont regret it because you were the best I couldve asked for.

i feel myself slowing starting to move on finally, but it makes me so sad. i wanted it to be you so bad kyle. even if i was young i loved you more than i knew how to cope. i think a part of me will always be pathetically waiting for you. ill continue to grow without you but i still wish you could see.

trying to keep you in my life and make you stay only ended up hurting me in the end because when I thought you cared it turns out you didn't and it broke me. I wanted you and I still do but the sad reality is you don't want me.

why did i let a boy named kyle hurt me the way you did? i wish i could hate you but i can’t. i truly hope you’re happy.

i know you said you arent the same person anymore but i never said i wanted you to be. id love any version of you /because/ its you, good or bad.

your dick was tiny. and who tf jacks off with their dog on the bed. i hope u fuckin die u ugly bitch hahha

i wish he never introduced us. you made me lose all the progress i had on loving myself when you left me alone. then again, i miss you. i miss us falling asleep on facetime and calling each other dumb nicknames. i miss everything. but you also hurt me so bad and i hate you for it. it’s killing me to not speak to you in months. but i hope you’re doing good in life xx

I wish you the best. I care about you very deeply, and I will always want to see you do your best. I can't wait to see the day you bounce back and show everyone that you're a lot more than you show. I see it in you, the day you do too is when you'll truly thrive. I'll always be here for you, even if we never talk and aren't present in each other's lives. Be safe.

Hii Kyle it’s your bestie Ofc we have grown a bond over the last few months meeting on a fucking game ?and I hope it carries on even through the rough times like if we “talk”??love u so much and I was bored so here ya go

I’ve spent the last 6 months falling for you. To let you just leave, without me telling you how I really feel... I love you.

driving you to get your hair cut, waking up with you holding my hand, braiding my hair, when we would smoke outside the dorm at night, when you fell asleep on my shoulder watching movies. youre gone and now I don’t have anyone to share those memories with. I wish I could have been there to help.

sometimes i convince myself you actually see these and respond. i wish it didnt have to be so hard to talk about us

everytime i try to get closer you just pull away harder than before, it hurts. i wish you would just tell me how you feel im afraid ill force you away by accidentally misunderstanding your feelings. i just want to hear how you feel about me good or bad honestly ) :

i’m sorry. i’m so fucking sorry for what i did to you. i never meant to lead you on like i did. i really liked you. it might not’ve seemed like it but i did. i fell for you but i was petrified. petrified of loving another man after the way he treat me. i’m sorry i blocked you and stopped you getting in contact with me. sorry that i hurt you after i promised i wouldn’t. i still think about you. a lot actually. more
than i should. those feelings arent there anymore but i know that if we ever talked again they’d come back. i’m sorry for hurting you just like she did, removing you out of my life and acting like you didnt exist. it wasnt your fault at all. we weren’t good for eachother. we would’ve been so bad together because i wouldn’t know how to treat you. every relationship i’ve been in has been bad. they’ve hurt me in many ways and made me feel like i deserve it. i know how it feels to be led on. to fall for someone and then them act like you never existed. i’m so sorry i made you feel like i once did. i feel like shit for hurting you. dare i say i even loved you at one point. my friends told me you weren’t good for me. told me you were too old and not trustworthy because we’d never met. but i trusted you. the way i fell for you felt different. you were so sweet and supported me through everything. i’m so grateful you were a part of my life and god call me stupid for crying over what i did but i regret it so much. sometimes i think of what life would be like if i kept you here. we’d be together. you would’ve saved me from this hell. we would’ve supported eachother and been happy. you made me want to be a better person. made me want to fall in love again. i’m sorry they made me believe their lies. told me you were using me for stuff i never wanted. told me you were just a fuck boy who wanted to get in my pants. but i know that wasnt you. it was just the act you put on. i knew the real you yet i still believed them. i’m so sorry i did. i miss you. i wish things were different. wish we were still friends. i know you’ll never forgive me. you were the type to forget instead. you probably dont even think about me anymore, moved on to bigger and better things. i’m proud of you. i know i used to say that to you a lot but im so fucking proud of you. i love you so much. even if its plutonic i love you. i’m so sorry for hurting you. it was never intentional. i was just insecure and stupid. i’m so sorry. if you ever see this i want you to know that i want to try again. that sounds so stupid after everything but i want to. you blocked me on everything and will probably never see this but i want to. want to fall in love again. want to support you through everything. i want to be friends. i’m sorry. i love you

hi. i hope you know that you mean the world to me. i hope you know that i would do anything to listen to your voice on repeat. i would do anything just to see you smile. i want nothing but happiness for you. i could never wish pain upon you, i want nothing but smiles for you and your future. i cant tell you how much you mean to me. you came and picked me up- piece by piece. you put my heart back together after it had been crushed so many damn times. you make me feel safe, you make you feel okay, you make me smile. i thank you for everything you've ever done for me. i will love you forever, baby. ill always talk to the stars about you, even when you aren't my boy anymore

Right when I think I’ve moved on, you send a text and my heart flutters again. Even thousands of miles away.

I’m afraid I’m still in love with you. We’re friends still, maybe that’s why I miss being with you so much.

fuck you, I hid myself for years I changed my entire self for you. All because I thought I liked you. Now that I'm okay with who I am as a bisexual I'm dating your ex girl

you mean so much to me, i love you more than anything in the entire world and i’d give anything for you to love me back.

I love you so much it scares me. I'm terrified of scaring you away by telling you how much i feel for you. Please don't leave. I'm trying to get better for us.

somehow I managed to get played, even though you were interested first. oddly enough im not even mad at you, bc honestly I dont think you know that anything is wrong. im more mad at myself, for convincing myself that something could happen. im mad for making myself look like a fool once again.

I had you. You were mine for a while. And that’s enough itll have to be. Because now youre gone and all i can do is miss u

you have hurt me so much but i still chose to stay with you because i love you. im scared you'll repeat your mistakes again because i dont know if i can go through it again. i really do love you but i know the type of person you are, youll never stay loyal to me even if it kills you.

How did such a happy story have such an awful ending? Everyone around me saw i was happier. I lost who i was all over again. You brought something out of me that i only saw with you. I miss it a lot, you, my old self, us. Not you and i but us.

Theres no way you dont think about me. Theres no way you dont miss me. It was all so great and the feelings were so real and i know you felt similar if not the same. You loved me the way i loved you. How are you okay without me when im still so lost without you?? It drives me crazy to think you could already be with someone new, forgetting about me

i still think youre the coolest person ive ever met and no one feels more like home than you. even if u dont want to be more than friends with me im happy i get to know you again,, i really missed you.

Your arms were the one place where i felt safe, secure, alright, and like the world had stopped. I was happy but more importantly comfortable and safe. Im not exactly sure anything will ever feel as good as that did.

i can see that what you need right now is a friend and ill do everything i can without losing myself to support and give you that. but i hope one day, when youre ready to open up to the idea of love again, im the first person you think of. i want nothing more than to have a clean slate with you and restart.

Your actually unreal, I’ve never met somebody so perfect and just straight gorgeous. I wish you would realise how amazing you are :)