From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 30, 2020, 3:07 pm UTC
i want to understand you so bad. i get so many mixed signals, if you needed time to think or you didnt feel the same i wish you could just tell me so i can know how to move forward. im trying to not think of me and you but it is so hard kyle
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 30, 2020, 5:10 am UTC
The hard truth is you might be someone completely different already. You might be someone i dont know at all anymore
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 30, 2020, 5:09 am UTC
I will learn to let go and move on slowly.and i am. But not a day will go by when i dont wish you would come back
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 29, 2020, 3:37 pm UTC
You're the first person I have ever loved. It's been two months now since we last talked... I hope that you will find happiness with someone else. I'll never forget you, you will always be in my mind. When I lost you, I lost a very big part of myself, that I'll never get back. Thank you for the happiest year of my life sunshine
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 28, 2020, 3:25 pm UTC
you push me to emotionally grow in the best ways. im the most grateful for the ways you showed me love should be unconditional with no expectations. i hope you see who i am now and you are okay with me seeing you too. i may feel like a broken home but you feel like the beginning of a foundation thats makes me feel strong. thank you
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 28, 2020, 4:10 am UTC
It pains me to see you every day, happy without me. I but my face hasn’t had a real smile since we walked out of those school gates together a year and a half ago
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 28, 2020, 3:59 am UTC
The day I realised what true pain was, was when my friend came to me exited and told me she had a new boyfriend I was happy for her of course, that was until your name was uttered from her lips. It was though I felt everything inside me crumble. That was it. I lost my chance. You belong to her.
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 28, 2020, 3:47 am UTC
I’ve submitted many of these, possibly too many but I just can’t seem to help it. There is so much unsaid that I can bare to say to you’re face
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 28, 2020, 3:45 am UTC
I hope one day you one of the the many of these I’ve submitted. I’m far to scared to ever tell you how deeply I love you but I just want closure and that I know I will never have
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 28, 2020, 3:43 am UTC
Do you remember sitting and the P.E cupboard in school. We were supposed to clean it but all we don’t was talk. I think about that every day, I try not to but it’s impossible. It’s the only thing that reminds me that happiness is real. And that i could only have it with you
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 28, 2020, 3:37 am UTC
Why couldn’t you love me. I’ve tried for the past 3 years to get over you but I can’t, and I don’t think I ever will
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 28, 2020, 3:33 am UTC
Did you ever love me as more than a friend.. did you even think of me as a friend or just a girl who was there when you needed someone
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 27, 2020, 9:00 pm UTC
Falling asleep on the phone with you was the safest and most comfortable i’ve felt . But you left, and now all I have are sleepless nights.
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 27, 2020, 10:39 am UTC
u were home for a while but u cant build a house on a shattered foundation, in another life ok? i love you
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 25, 2020, 9:44 pm UTC
i hate the ways i miss you. i'm grateful to have you back in my life but god i do miss being the person who gets to love you. even if don't want that aswell id support anything you do whether it hurts or not i want you to be happy. my love for you has always been unconditional and it always will be
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 23, 2020, 10:56 pm UTC
you broke my heart in ways i didn't think it could be broken. i honestly don't think i'm good enough for anyone because of you. you kept me around until you found someone better.
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 22, 2020, 10:19 am UTC
I never got to see you or touch you, but your love touched my soul. You’re gone and i’ll never be the same.
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 21, 2020, 1:29 pm UTC
I just need one more reason to talk to you, i just wanna tell you everything. Itll would make me better
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 20, 2020, 5:32 am UTC
ignoring the confusion and overthinking of how things might turn out and focusing on the present moments with you the lighter my heart feels. but im still sorry for taking your love for granted when i had it. i miss holding you
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 17, 2020, 5:53 am UTC
i can see that what you need right now is a friend and ill do everything i can without losing myself to support and give you that. but i hope one day, when youre ready to open up to the idea of love again, im the first person you think of. i want nothing more than to have a clean slate with you and restart.
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 17, 2020, 5:08 am UTC
Your arms were the one place where i felt safe, secure, alright, and like the world had stopped. I was happy but more importantly comfortable and safe. Im not exactly sure anything will ever feel as good as that did.
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 17, 2020, 4:05 am UTC
Theres no way you dont think about me. Theres no way you dont miss me. It was all so great and the feelings were so real and i know you felt similar if not the same. You loved me the way i loved you. How are you okay without me when im still so lost without you?? It drives me crazy to think you could already be with someone new, forgetting about me
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 17, 2020, 4:02 am UTC
How did such a happy story have such an awful ending? Everyone around me saw i was happier. I lost who i was all over again. You brought something out of me that i only saw with you. I miss it a lot, you, my old self, us. Not you and i but us.
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 16, 2020, 6:19 am UTC
everytime i try to get closer you just pull away harder than before, it hurts. i wish you would just tell me how you feel im afraid ill force you away by accidentally misunderstanding your feelings. i just want to hear how you feel about me good or bad honestly ) :
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 15, 2020, 10:56 am UTC
trying to keep you in my life and make you stay only ended up hurting me in the end because when I thought you cared it turns out you didn't and it broke me. I wanted you and I still do but the sad reality is you don't want me.
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 15, 2020, 4:10 am UTC
Im sorry for everything, really sorry.
but i also really dont regret it because you were the best I couldve asked for.
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 15, 2020, 3:16 am UTC
It sucks because neither of us was truly bad for the other. You made me the best person i had ever been and you were taking risks that were setting on the path you wanted. We wouldve grown so much together. I was just so happy with you. We had to end, even though neither of us wanted to, it wasnt our choices and thats what sucks the worst
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 14, 2020, 10:19 pm UTC
I miss you... more than life. You were the person that made me realise my worth, you made me laugh like no one has ever done before. Your smile in enfections and I would do anything for u to hug me again and tell me everything will be alright. I have so many things to tell u, u are still the first person I go and text after something good happens! I understand it was not our time but the love I have for you is still there in masses because you are the first person I’ve ever loved with every inch of me. You made me whole and now ur gone I can’t cope... it’s been 6months without having u to text or FaceTime but I understand it wasn’t our time and the memories I have with you I will cherish for my whole life. I understand you no longer want me in your life and that’s ok but all I want you to know is that I love you, I love you more than life itself. I hope sometime in the future we meet again but I know that won’t happen we are both very different people who see relationships in very different ways I hope u see one day hope much pain you have caused. Charlie misses u too, he misses your goodnights and my partner miss you talking to them on FaceTime
But we were not meant to be
I’ll love you forever
Apes
XXXX
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 14, 2020, 9:54 pm UTC
Everyone saw how happy i was even when i wasnt around you. People haven’t noticed a negative change, ive noticed a change in myself and i miss who i was with you
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 14, 2020, 10:10 am UTC
not speaking about it and ignoring it hurts more than the rejection ever would. i want to know how you feel
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 14, 2020, 9:29 am UTC
When I first met you I didn’t think I would fall this hard for you, but I did and you’ve been on my mind ever since. I want to be with you so bad, I just wished you liked me that way I like you
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 14, 2020, 2:10 am UTC
i wish it all ended differently, thank you for being my first love and also teaching me that i need to love myself first.
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 14, 2020, 1:16 am UTC
hey so like is this over and i’m sorry for asking because i know the answer but i never really got one so i’m still just chillin here holding on to the last bit of hope i have and i really just need you to tell me it’s over if it is
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 13, 2020, 5:55 am UTC
I'm so bad at showing love because you're the only one I've genuinely had any love for. Please don't give up on me.
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 13, 2020, 4:32 am UTC
I hate that theres a boy out there who doesn’t know i love him. I just want to tell you how much i still truly love you
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 13, 2020, 1:57 am UTC
I will always love you no matter how far you go no matter what you do or say, I'll always be in love with you
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 13, 2020, 1:51 am UTC
I want to believe in "right person, wrong time," so bad, but if you loved me like you said, it wouldn't matter where we are in life, you'd make it happen.
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 12, 2020, 11:13 pm UTC
i wish i knew why you rejected me so i could know how to move forward now. was it because you wanted to be nice and not hurt me? did u mean it when u said it wasnt because of me and you just arent ready? i wish i knew. all i know now is that i want to be with you but i dont have the slightest clue of how you feel about me ) :
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 12, 2020, 3:25 pm UTC
Hey dude, I liked you in primary school. Honestly, damn fuck that would mean I'm bisexual right? fuckkkk thats harsh.
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 10, 2020, 5:43 pm UTC
Today someone said “don’t apologize for still upsetting you, he was important, it will always hurt, your human” i love you and it hurts
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 10, 2020, 5:34 pm UTC
Its all just so hard without you, i cant help but just cry. I just want it all to feel like it did with u
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 10, 2020, 4:02 am UTC
I miss us, the way we were when we first started talking. I know I messed it up, more than once. I still think about you every single day. It's been months.Things will never be the same and I don't know when I'll ever accept that.
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 9, 2020, 10:31 pm UTC
I will always love you kylen❤️No words can describe how much I want you, I know it’s too late and you don’t love me anymore but you will always be in my heart. I love you forever x
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 9, 2020, 6:40 pm UTC
i know in my heart its me and you in the end, ive always been indecisive but youre the only thing ive ever been sure of. patient only for you.
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 9, 2020, 12:53 am UTC
youve always felt so warm to me it drives me crazy. i miss your love so much. everything feels so cold without it
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 8, 2020, 5:36 am UTC
i really thought u care as much as i did , i know that we werent a thing very long but i thought after it all we would go back to eachother and you would still want me like i want you but i guess thats just not the case for us i miss ur company and ur little things u would do while playing ur game . i absolutely adored you even with all the crap that u did in ur past i didnt care i saw u and i think u did me , i really hope one day u come back to me i just hope its not to late , i miss u and id hate for us to be strangers again
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 8, 2020, 4:42 am UTC
I miss when it was you and me and that was just all that matter for the afternoon. Not you. And. Me. Very. Separate
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 8, 2020, 3:57 am UTC
i miss you but i also hate you. and i somehow still love you... i hope you're doing well ky. love lys.
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 7, 2020, 7:50 pm UTC
when t.s. said “chase two girls, lose the one,” she was right.
also, fuck you for lying to me. a day’s grace period after you lied your way in? wow, immaculate “soulmate” behavior.
From: ABC
To: kyle
Date: December 7, 2020, 2:45 pm UTC
Remember the summer nights where you would come over and hang out at the camper and we would watch movies and giggle the whole time. When I’m upset that’s what I think of to calm me down. You’re my inner peace. I wish we could go back to that and stop hurting each other.
Love,
Muffin.
P.S I never like nicknames until you gave me one.