Unsent messages to KYLE

i know you said you arent the same person anymore but i never said i wanted you to be. id love any version of you /because/ its you, good or bad.

My gut reaction to seeing those pictures of you with her was to text our friends asking, “Are they dating?” But that’s not what matters. Are you happy? You nicknamed me Sunshine, but it was always you that brought so much light into this world.

I still think we could’ve had another few months. I know it wouldn’t have worked but I miss you as a friend.

thank you for the fun times, but also fuck you for being emotionally manipulative in the last 3 or 4 months

I don't know how I got so attached to you it hasn't even been that long and it isn't always the best with you but we both have our own problems and we're doing our best. I really think you're worth the struggle because I know you care and you're really trying to be better, we both are. I just hope I'm not making this up in my head.

i know our connection is bigger than us and i know even though you let me go, you feel it too. you always have. come home my love. -9312

blue. that's what i think of you. the color of your braces when you smiled. your smile was your gift to me after you made me cry everynight.

I always knew your favourite color was yellow, how could i forget, you always tell me why you like it, we were stupid we were a mess together i liked that lol, but i hate you i hate you sm, its just that you cared about me and i didnt know how to act or what to say, i was new to all that, i remember that time where i told you i had a pet ant and you were all ears, i loved you but you abandoned me, thank you for making me realize i like girls

i’m glad you’re moving on, yet at the same time it hurts because i’m still here sulking over how everything we had was ruined.

You used to come with me and seeing my great gram with me, now i go alone and cry to her about how much i miss both of you .

its becoming more and more obvious to me that even after all this time i think i still love you. it feels so delusional of me to expect you to feel the same and you seem like uve already moved on but i dont know. i wish i knew what you felt

im beginning to realize no matter how much time passes and how far you are from me, the moment we begin to talk i just fall in love with you all over again. ill move on some day but ill forever hope maybe one day youll feel the same about me one more time.

im beginning to realize no matter how much time passes and how far you are from me, the moment we begin to talk i just fall in love with you all over again. maybe one day youll feel the same about me one more time.

im beginning to realize no matter how much time passes and how far you are from me, the moment we begin to talk i just fall in love with you all over again. maybe one day youll feel the same about me one more time.

I so dearly wish I could tell you I miss you but I can’t allow you to take more of me of which I deserve myself

why dont you love me as much as i love you? why am i disposable, not good enough, not lovable enough? i poured my heart into our relationship and no matter how toxic this is, i still love you. 14 months is just gone, time i can't get back. more than anything, i want to move on and forget you, to put what we had to rest and have a fresh start, but fuck i can't.

i loved you, i really did. and you just got up and left me broken. i needed you. so much. i still love you.

I love you so much it scares me. I'm terrified of scaring you away by telling you how much i feel for you. Please don't leave. I'm trying to get better for us.

driving you to get your hair cut, waking up with you holding my hand, braiding my hair, when we would smoke outside the dorm at night, when you fell asleep on my shoulder watching movies. youre gone and now I don’t have anyone to share those memories with. I wish I could have been there to help.

I wish you the best. I care about you very deeply, and I will always want to see you do your best. I can't wait to see the day you bounce back and show everyone that you're a lot more than you show. I see it in you, the day you do too is when you'll truly thrive. I'll always be here for you, even if we never talk and aren't present in each other's lives. Be safe.

You were my first love. It has been a month and I miss you so much. I pray everyday we find each other again

you are sky blue and yellow. you are hope and joy and calm. i close my eyes and there’s you and your golden retriever smile

I fell for you ever since I first met you. I have thought about you everyday since we met. I’m sorry for anything I did to make you change so differently around me. Not looking me in the eye, barley holding a conversation, never texting me. I cherish the memories we do have so deeply at a time when you wanted me and we were so close and now we’re strangers. It’s hurts like mad that I have to accept that your just a memory to me and don’t want me. I feel abandoned and confused as to why this has happened but i cannot change the way you feel. I just hope you know how much I loved you and how much you hurt me in the end.

I don't think you will ever understand how much u hurt me. its been 2 years now but I still can't believe u treated me like that. you were my best friend. I told u everything and u still betrayed me. I am happy without u but in so many ways I wish I could just tell u how my life is going.

You tore me apart, you didn’t care at all. It was all about you. You manipulated me into thinking you loved me

It really was “right person, wrong time” for us. Deep down I thought you were different. But in the end you showed me you were just like the rest of them.. I wish you the best but I wish you could have stayed in my life a little longer. I’m writing this to let go. Move on. You hurt me more than you will ever imagine.

I will always love you. Not a day goes by that I don't think about you. You are my soulmate, but the world took us too soon.

it’s been half a year and im still not over it... part of me wants to reach out... give you a call.. but i know that i can’t

i wish you could meet me now that ive made progress with myself. i wonder if you wouldve still loved me

i cant tell if im delusional about this or not now. everything in me wants to message u again but idk. i dont know if youd want to talk to me after the things i said and done idk! i wish u would do it, but maybe i should take that not happening as my answer.

you have no idea how much i still love you. i can't wait for the day you're back in my life. to the stars and back.

Every time you broke your promise to me & i took it back, its not because i forgave you, its because i couldnt live without you.

I miss having someone that cared about me as much as you did. I wish things would have ended differently.

Please leave me kasi hindi ko kaya gawin mismo kasi mahal kita pero ubos na ubos na ako pagod na ako kahit sa sarili ko mismo sobrang toxic na idk just please do me a favor.

its been so long i know youve moved on by now and this is so silly. but why after 2 years do you keep popping into my head again? im doing good now but i cant help but feel like something is still missing. so so silly. i have self control now so i wont impulsively message u but i will tell you i think about it all the time.

I still hold on to the hope that we are meant to be like you said. It tears me to pieces everyday. I just want to start all over.

u did everything u said u wouldn’t. i don’t understand how u can just leave. why wasn’t i good enough ?

hey. things are getting better. im finally getting over you. i never thought it would happen. but its happening. im so happy. i have someone else now. hes not you. he'll never be you. but its nice having someone else. you'd be so happy. i hope you're happy with her. i dont think about you as much anymore. :)

I have loved you for three years. No one could ever change that and I wish I could spend every second with you. Please don't forget about me.

I see the way you look at her and wish it was me. I'm sorry I wasn't brave enough to tell you how much I love you.

i am so over u now and it feels amazing. also the sex sucked. did ur ex really lie n tell u THAT was good....

I don’t know why it stopped when it was just about to start. I don’t know why it ended when it was good. I now know that it’s cause of you and not me

you weren’t my first love u were just hot

cant decide if u were an asshole or just stupid

thanks for the kiss though

Your actually unreal, I’ve never met somebody so perfect and just straight gorgeous. I wish you would realise how amazing you are :)

Right when I think I’ve moved on, you send a text and my heart flutters again. Even thousands of miles away.

hi. i hope you know that you mean the world to me. i hope you know that i would do anything to listen to your voice on repeat. i would do anything just to see you smile. i want nothing but happiness for you. i could never wish pain upon you, i want nothing but smiles for you and your future. i cant tell you how much you mean to me. you came and picked me up- piece by piece. you put my heart back together after it had been crushed so many damn times. you make me feel safe, you make you feel okay, you make me smile. i thank you for everything you've ever done for me. i will love you forever, baby. ill always talk to the stars about you, even when you aren't my boy anymore

I’ve spent the last 6 months falling for you. To let you just leave, without me telling you how I really feel... I love you.

i feel myself slowing starting to move on finally, but it makes me so sad. i wanted it to be you so bad kyle. even if i was young i loved you more than i knew how to cope. i think a part of me will always be pathetically waiting for you. ill continue to grow without you but i still wish you could see.

i know i had to lose you to find myself. but now that im better i cant stop trying to find you. pathetically and desperately ive come to realize i think it will always be you. no matter what i do its going to be you. i wish i could've been the one for you too.

I never felt like this even if I had relationships before. I like you very much and it sucks that I’m just your friend and you haven’t moved on from your ex.