Unsent messages to JUSTIN

I hope you're doing well. I remember the night you confessed that you "liked me" in the 8th grade. I was so happy and excited. But you taught me something. You taught me to never trust anyone. I am so happy without you in my life if you somehow find out who I am. I finished Middle School. I graduated High School and Now I am attending NYU. I know you always hated me moving to Outstate colleges and you hated the color blue, so I dyed my hair blue over the summer. I hope you're healthy and doing well. You taught me a lot. I've moved on for now. But I just hope you figure out who I am, so we can have a conversation again.

i hate that you don't understand how much i loved you. you made happy yet so miserable. i hope one day you realize that i would have gave you the world.

You were the first person I ever liked, I didn’t want you to find out the way you did. When you did the words that you said about me really gutted me and sometimes still do till this day. I don’t hate you, but you’re one of the main reasons I’m insecure.

No matter who im with, I am always still gonna be in love with you and want you. One day we'll be together

it hurts even more that i'm the reason you are dating her and not me. i would still drop everything for you.

Hey so I just wanted to let you know that you’re the reason I’m still here idk if that means anything to you but I love you

even though you might’ve moved on already. i miss you, so much. and i’m still in love with you. it’s hard seeing you with somebody else

hey.. somehow everything always comes back to you. I honestly think a part of me is in love with you but I would never admit it because I don't think I'm on your mind at all. hearing you talk about all these girls kills me. I found someone new, yet somehow, you're still on my mind. i know I deserve better, but I want you. why can't you feel the same way? what's wrong with me? i still picture us together in a perfect world because to me you're my perfect match. i wish you felt the same, or I hope deep down you do. till we meet again.

i didn’t like the color red until you told me it was your favorite. i’ll never look at red the same. i always will think of you.

Maybe I made you believe that you were not important, that I did not need you, that you were replaceable, but it was never like that, I was just afraid and I know that it does not justify anything but you do not know how much I loved you that I was afraid of me, how much I wanted to have a life by your side, just as we planned, I let fear win and it was the biggest mistake I made, maybe you don't see it, but it doesn't matter, I just wanted to tell you that despite my mistakes and that we no longer speak, I love you And I'll keep doing it until my last breath.

i still love you more than anything. why’d you leave me? why a week before our one year? why when i had no one else but you?

hey justin, i know youre not going to see this but deep down i hope you do. i miss you so much, i miss having you around even as just a friend to talk to. i miss our long facetimes we'd used to have and i miss the way you would talk to me. i miss the way you loved me and even if it wasn't the best, it was still my first and ill always remember that. i just wish i could talk to you sometimes you know, god i wish i could go back a year ago. all i want is a text, a text asking to catch up or just anything from you. im sorry things had to end the way they did and i wish they hadnt. ill love you always and forever j.

you made talking about my feelings easy. it felt so nice to know you were always by my side. i just wanted a goodbye.

I fell in love with you, even if I'm taken. I feel so good around you and I hope we can talk more to eachother.

I had a dream about you last night and the night before. Its been a while since you were in my dreams. our song also came on twice in the past couple of days. I havent talked to you in a while and my phone isnt receieving all texts rn but if you really cared you could still get a hold of me somehow.

you gave me all ur attention to just ghost me when you were done using me when u were bored. u have a huge ego for an ugly guy. stop snapping me only if it’s convenient for you grow up bc i am the best thing you have ever seen and will ever have

i wish i swiped left. i wish i never met u. i wish we didn't started talking. i wish i didn't caught feelings. i wish i never cared about u. i wish i never loved u. i wish i didn't trusted u.

I'm sorry I didn't see you in person to end things..it was really stupid of me but I hope you're doing good..I miss you.

i love you so much and i really wish i could have you back because no matter how many times you hurt me i know i’ll always love you and i hate myself for it. going back to friends isn’t enough for me :/

I'm sorry that I told you that I thought I had feelings for you. I'm still in love with him, and your friendship means too much to me to peruse any romantic relations with you.

You have no idea how much you've impacted my life; you've inspired me to love who I am, to not care about what other people thought. I couldn't ask for a better brother.

You're a complete fucking incel. Acting like I was such a crazy bitch but honestly you wanted my body and that's it. Fuck you and your fake ass depression, have fun jacking off alone for the rest of your life because tbh you stink and your teeth are revolting. Oop hope this didn't strike a chord! This is why your ex fiancé probably cheated on you, because you're a massive man child. Grow the fuck up.

u make my heart ache so much. i want to chuck u out of my head. u are everything i want yet u would love her,

You ruined my life, you were right you did “teach me a lesson that I’m never going to forget”. I’m not a liar, we both know what you did to me. All I want is an apology from you.

This feels like a never ending story and I hate that!!!! I don’t know where we stand but I know I’ll always have a special place for you in my heart

i love and miss you more than i could explain. my life was at its peak with you and i just want you back

how is it that we fall asleep in the same bed every night..but i still feel so distant from you..& i wouldn’t trade anything for these empty nights. i’d rather hurt then feel nothing at all my love.

I still have a strong feeling that we'll end up together I feel like you're my other half but the stinky version

you were the right person but we met at the wrong time
it's been more than 1 year but I still miss you...
I know now what I did wrong, I'm so sorry

I really loved you with all my heart and I will never stop loving you. But I love you in a different way then before. I wish you good luck with my friend.

i think you write ab me on here, it seems obvi n the most recent one was purple which is your fav colour. im sorry for everything. i want to talk to you i just can’t. but the five times i ‘made you second choice’? the first time was my boyfriend at the time, you came into our relationship, the second im sure was the hoco one, i regret that, the third was my first ex who you know hurt me so badly, the fourth and fifth was the guy i blocked you for, but i need you to know i will always see you as only a friend before anything bc thats how it was when we first met. i just need to talk to you, pls give me a sign you saw this.

how could you get so drunk and call me. yell at me for wanting too much time with you. how bad i am to you. that im the worst girlfriend ever. telling me you love me while you got with the girl you told me not to worry about every night. how do you do that to someone you “love”?

i blame myself for the way you stopped caring for me and for falling out of love with me and i think that it'll always haunt me wondering how things would be if i just loved you harder while it still mattered but ill never regret what we had. thank you for everything

i loved you until i couldn’t anymore. thank you for an amazing 3 years, i hope now you can mature. like you said you wished you would’ve.

i don’t know why i can’t stop thinking about. i know i fucked up last year but why did that make it okay for you to leave me like that. it’s different you didn’t know the whole story. i wish you wouldve just sit down and listen for 5 fucking seconds.

I found comfort sleeping in socks (high white nikes of course) because you did and now i can’t stop. i miss you.

I know if you saw this you would think I’m so stupid, but you really did make me happy. We never dated, and we didn’t hangout much, but I loved just talking on the phone with you. You always made me laugh and you showed me that you cared for me in small ways, and it was enough for me. It just wasn’t enough for you. I just wish I knew why. I tried to make you happy and I thought I did, but you never wanted to date me. I gave you a second chance because I really believed I was gonna be good enough for you and that you changed. You just hurt me again. I trusted you, and I even had sex with you. I still wasn’t good enough. Justin, you knew that you didn’t want a relationship, and you let me believe that you did. You make me look like an idiot because I told everyone that it was different this time. Now,
I’m moving on for good. I’m not waiting for someone who has proved to me twice that I’m not enough for them. I’m better off,
but I’ll miss the memories.

What we had was something special, it was so rare. I am just sorry I was not able to love you the way you deserved.

i loved you so much but never could bring myself to say it, now it’s too late you’re gone and i grieve you everyday

I don’t think I have ever loved someone as much as I do you. It’s always been something about you. You’ve left my life before but you always come back. I fear that one day we’ll have a fall out and you won’t come back again. I don’t think I will be able to survive that loss again. I love you please don’t leave me

I wished you loved me the way i loved you. The day you saw me the way i saw myself was the day you fell out of love.

I will always love you. I don’t like sleeping without. I don’t like being without you. You make my day so good I swear you do.

You hurt me so so badly not only emotionally but physically and mentally I hate you so much I hope whoever you’re with won’t be hurt like I was fuck that promise ring you gave me your promise doesn’t mean shit

as much as i tried loving you into loving me, it would never have worked. u could never be ready to receive the love i was willing to give. i hope one day you look back and think of me as someone who would have given u all they had.

I made a decision that night and I don’t want to regret it please don’t break my heart like everyone else has :(

i honestly miss you way more than i should. you made my life hell for a year. but even after everything, i will still always choose you.

Hey i saw that you were in my city once again, yet you didn’t message me to meet up it’s been 6 years do you not want to see me? not that i would be able to go out at night cause of my parents but the thought of you asking me would be nice i miss you more than you could ever imagine but i know the feeling is not mutual anyways goodnight

i don’t know why i keep thinking of you... it’s not all the time just small random moments throughout the day, which is almost worse tbh

your favorite color was navy. your second favorite was brown. but you said it’s not just any brown. it had to be the color of my eyes. your three wishes would be:
1. to marry me
2. perfect mental health for me
3. that i’ll always love you

i hope you know that i always will, even though you don’t love me. you were the perfect person for me but you put up a front that i couldn’t see. everyone else could. then without warning, you left me. i still have your sweatshirts, tshirts, cologne, boxers, socks, the notes you wrote to me, the gum wrappers you put a message on every time we hung out. i don’t want to give them back because those are all i have left of you. thank you for the best year but fuck you for ending it like this.

you broke my heart and i hope you know you impacted my life in the best and worst way. you’re still on my mind but i know you’ve got that other girl to fill my spot. ending things out of nowhere and over text is not the way to go. we were together for 7 months justin. and you all of a sudden having a thing with this girl three days after the breakup makes me think you were cheating on me while i was on vacation. but you’re to pussy to admit that aren’t you? you say you were “too busy” to be in a relationship. but not to busy to end a serious one and start a whole new one? fuck you. fuck you and your stupid t shirt company.