Unsent messages to JUSTIN

why’d you yell at me&made fun of me for having depression just to come crawling back years later after having to struggle with your own?

i really wish that you could see how much i like you and care about you. you’d never like me so i’ve never said anything, even though i really want to.

It’s been almost three years and I still think about how you give me a turtle bracelet because I was so upset about losing the last one I had I thank you for bring me happiness in the time that we were together

I have been madly in love with you for three years now, finally you love me back. I pray to God that I don't mess this up because I don't know what I would do if I had you and then lost you. I can't wait to go through college with you and fall in love with you even more every day. I will always remember our first date and I can't wait for a million more with you. This is to our beautiful future

You're still the only person I've ever truly liked. I'm sad we never got a chance to fully be with each other.

Why was i never good enough?
I will always love you and i miss you so much. Why did you break my heart?

i truly believe we were soulmates of some sort. maybe in a past life? maybe that's why i can't let go.

I doubt you'll ever see this. but I miss the way things were. How close we used to be. We haven't talked in over a year. I miss my best friend.

you keep sending mixed signals. i don’t get it. it’s like you’re scared or something. of what? last time you held me i felt so safe.... i want to feel that again. but i also don’t want to scare you off. why cant you just tell me what’s reallly going on...

did you ever really love me? you left me for her without even saying goodbye properly. i still miss you.

You left me without a reason or even a goodbye. And now youre still lonely and I'm scarred. Was it your fault or mine...

you knew what I went through and you put me through the exact same thing as soon as I was healed. I pictured a whole future with you. You lied and you meant the world to me. I didn't just lose you, I lost my bestfriend, with no explanation. I'm still thankful you took my birthday off of work. I'll always think of you on my birthday now because you made a day I hate into a day I enjoyed. You deserve to be happy but so do I. I would love to talk to you again.

i’m sorry i did what i did and i can’t take it back, just know i think about you when i go to sleep and when i wake up, i love you.

i had a dream about you last night. thank you for showing me how love should be. i know it didnt work out, but i carry you with me wherever i go

chose red cause it’s your favorite color lol i miss you you were my bestfriend i wish you realized how far i would’ve went for you oh well

sometimes i think of what are future could have been if u didn’t leave.i wish i could have said goodbye

your laugh is so contagious, as well as your smile. even on the days i felt like nothing, you some how managed to make me genuinely smile. i hope one day everyone gets to meet their justin one day. it really sucks i couldn't be your girl, then again you deserve some one better.

hi justin : )
you know when you told me i was about to spill your ramen and held the corners and tried teaching me how to use the chopsticks. that was one of the sweetest things anyone has done for me ahaha. or maybe i admire you sm it just stuck with me. anyways you mean a lot to me

You are one of my best friends. Thank you for sticking with me for as long as you have. You are such a kind soul and I am so happy that I met you.

ur my absolute soul mate. i am so sorry 4 leaving u b4. we have our bad times but i want u 2 kno i love you so so much. ur my world.

dear Justin or William i don’t know which one you go by anymore, the more months go by the more i think about you and deeper i fall in love with you, it’s been hard without you without any contacted after being so close that summer, i really do hope you are well and i hope one day we will meet and do all of the stuff we talked about, the letters you wrote are beside by bed often read almost ever night, i read them over as if the words on the pages might change and revel secrets untold at a first glance. I hope one day soon we will regain communication or i will not know how to cope, i love you so dearly Justin always know xx

It hurt me that even if you would do something wrong i’m still attached to you , but it was the last time we talked ig bcs u blocked me:(

I'm not over you, but I don't want you back either. We were never compatible and filled one another with lies. I hope one day, you find your other half.

i see you in everything. it's so hard to feel you slipping away and know that i might one day lose you completely.

I don't know anymore, I want to move on but sometimes you appear in my mind. I don't know how to prevent this. I can't say I loved you, we were young and I still don't know what love is, but I know that it wasn't nothing. I met you in 6th grade, but I felt like I knew you all of my life. Something just clicked and I knew you were the one for me. But I was stupid. I didn't think things through. I can't say I have regrets, but I know one thing is for sure, no matter how much I try to hate you, I can't. I definitely was angry and upset, you ghosted me, you ignored me, asked me to stop talking to you, and then apologized for being a jerk. But nothing changed, you went right back to ignoring me and not acknowledging me. There are songs that will play that just make my heart ache, songs that remind me of you. But I think I'm moving on, seeing how you only text me now when you need something for school. Like I'm just a cheat book for you. I'm sorry to myself for being blind, and I'm sorry to you. You will always have a place in my heart, I know I will never forget you. I miss our friendship, the way it was before. I loved it with a passion, a friendship I had never had before, but I know we can never go back to that. I won't ask for that, all I ask is that you remember me, because I will never forget you.

I hate you for what you did. When it happened I blamed myself for letting you in and allowing this to happen.

You were everything. I trusted you more than anyone. Anyone. We were practically obsessed with eachother. Now you literally have talked about killing me. You hate me. I dont even know why. You have said the meanest things to me. You knew all my weak spots. So you hit them all. And so did I.

thank you for what you did. If that didn’t happen i wouldn’t have fallen for the guys i’m with right now.

idk why but i come back here and check my name and kiddo to see if you possibly left me something, you most likely don’t even think abt me anymore, but i wish we could still at least be friends. i’m sorry for acting out but i was just so hurt. i hope one day we both can start over and pretend like we never knew each other, but that probably won’t happen. maybe for the best. - the mf who loves the blue sour patch kids the most

I told myself I wasn’t going to fall for you and I did.I didn’t even get the chance to tell you before you left...

i can tell you want to end things, but i'm selfishly holding on to you because i'm not ready to let go. i'll always love you, but you've lost feelings. i wish i could have made you happier

I’m not over you. I’ve haven’t been since we stopped talking please come back to me we can’t end here.

i miss u so much but idek who u are. i know i messed up but why are u just giving up on the love we have.

I’ve waited 4 years for this and it’s every bit as wonderful as I imagined. You make me feel important

i never thought anything of u when i first met u. but u made me feel so special and i couldn’t ever get that out of my head. i rlly hope that me and u see each other again bc it is killing me being without u.

u just left like nothing ever happened. u didn’t care either. i felt so empty without u but that didn’t affect u

it might not have worked when we became friends because of timing but that doesn’t mean that it’s too late now

I respected that you wanted to stay single. But why did you keep flirting with me when you knew i was still hurt? I liked you so much, i was willing to wait for you and everything. Unfortunately, you didn't feel the same. You played with me twice but I still fell for it because I had so much hope in you. Thank you for letting me know you didn't want to date. Now I'm less hurt.

i’m tired of every time being the last time. why can’t you be the man we both know you are. my heart craves you but i know you can’t live up to anything i deserve. i hate you for it but it’s not your fault even though i wish i could blame you

you wanna know what’s crazy, although we never dated, i fell in love with you, it blows my mind how much i cared for you, even though we didnt have a title. I know we’re not on speaking terms but i wanna wish you a happy new year.

If you see this I’m sorry for the way things went down. I regret choosing to remove you from my life i just miss you

I wanted to date you. But I realized youre a fucking creep. You never deserved to know me like that. Thanks for teaching me to never open up first. I'm glad I never hung out with you.

you told me I reminded you of the color purple bec it was your favorite. I wish i still was, i love you dummy

thank you for being a really good friend to me for a couple years. I liked you for a bit and now that you're in college I don't know if I'll ever get closure.

i know i never properly confessed, but i did like you a lot. i think it's a little too late now though. i hope we can be friends at least :)

Although we are no longer kids, I still think about a future where we never broke up and grew old together

it’s hard living this life without you. it’s even harder everytime you come back. i think we’re meant to be, we just didn’t do it right.

But at the same time you can go fuck to urself. I’m trying so hard. I know you see them. You need to respond back to me. Please Justin

I love you, even though you don’t know. I’m existing for you in case. I just wished you texted me back.. I miss you

I would apologize a million and 1 times please id do anything for a second chance with you I miss you so much