Unsent messages to JUSTIN

It kinda seems like you’re confused or maybe trying to go with what your friends think you should but you need to pick what you really want I think deep down you know what you want and maybe you’re scared but do what you want

I’m tired of feeling like you love me one day, and then feeling like we’re just acquaintances the next.

I thought I was going to be happy forever with you. I thought by now we'd be looking for an apartment in London, finding me a job, finding you a uni to study at. In February I was so sure of things. You told me you loved me and we would daydream about our future together and I was so so sure that you were the person for me. So... how did it all fall apart? how did you go to telling me you wanted to marry me to telling me you're incapable of feeling love and will probably make me unhappy for my entire life in the span of just a few months? I know you're mentally ill and I know things have been hard for you, but its like a flip switched. How could you do that to me? How could you make me so miserable? Did you ever really love me? Or was it just lust?

You will always be the only person I want. You're my everything and my whole world. You say "ily" when I want to say "I love you." But I don't think you're over what she's done to you and I can't compete with her anymore.

Everything reminds me of you. I still haven’t stopped thinking about you. Our song still makes me cry.

I love you but I’m so scared. I know in my heart the only thing i want is you. Im just afraid of getting my heart broken again

i don't think i was actually in love with you, i was in love with the idea of you. you had people believe you were a good person and i even thought you were going to be good for me. until you weren't. i hope no one goes through the pain you put me through. you're worthless.

You were my first boyfriend. Honestly one of the most easy going relationships I’ve ever had. I hope life is treating you well. I wonder how things would’ve played out if we didn’t break up.

i keep telling myself i’m waiting til the timing is right but it’s been six years and i’m still completely in love with you.

this shits meant for your first love, but the thing is, you took mine away. i was planning on getting her back and you were there and took her. one day. one fucking day. you just couldnt hold yourself back and give her time to heal. you just needed to do it one fucking day after. i hope i never see you in person. i will never have an ounce of respect for you. dont ever fucking hit my phone up again asking for advice. only shitty people do what you did. and if you ever hurt her in any way, youre gonna regret it. fuck you kid. youre the reason why i tried to end it all. youre the reason why i cried myself to sleep for two weeks in a row. youre the reason why i didnt eat nearly anything for two weeks and why i lost so much weight in such an unhealthy way. because of you, i feel easily replaceable. she was supposed to be mine. if youre the guy she marries, i'll be so mad. i hate you. i mean it.

Idk if you ever wrote in here but I saw one that kinda sounded like u but it said I cheated on u just in case it is you I didn’t I would never it’s been a while now and I still think about you but if u have any questions or things u don’t think is true then ask me because I will always tell u the truth but I have heard lies about u so someone may be telling us both lies so if you still care just ask me

fuck you for making me feel the way u did. everyone told me to stay away from u. i wish i listened. you said you loved me but made me cry every night. at least now ik i’m out of ur league

Bro like why do you have to be so perfect UGH. Literally everything I want but I just have to watch you pass by.

I know I only talked to you for a week, but I was starting to catch feelings. Why you gotta be such a hoe.

Yeno what I did think I near loved you even your own sister aswell but instead you fucked up and was a coward so you ended up going for my best mate instead of telling me how you acc felt anyways hope your all good cause I’m fucking amazing without the pain you caused x