Unsent Messages

I don't know anymore, I want to move on but sometimes you appear in my mind. I don't know how to prevent this. I can't say I loved you, we were young and I still don't know what love is, but I know that it wasn't nothing. I met you in 6th grade, but I felt like I knew you all of my life. Something just clicked and I knew you were the one for me. But I was stupid. I didn't think things through. I can't say I have regrets, but I know one thing is for sure, no matter how much I try to hate you, I can't. I definitely was angry and upset, you ghosted me, you ignored me, asked me to stop talking to you, and then apologized for being a jerk. But nothing changed, you went right back to ignoring me and not acknowledging me. There are songs that will play that just make my heart ache, songs that remind me of you. But I think I'm moving on, seeing how you only text me now when you need something for school. Like I'm just a cheat book for you. I'm sorry to myself for being blind, and I'm sorry to you. You will always have a place in my heart, I know I will never forget you. I miss our friendship, the way it was before. I loved it with a passion, a friendship I had never had before, but I know we can never go back to that. I won't ask for that, all I ask is that you remember me, because I will never forget you.