Unsent messages to JOSEPH

i miss the way your smile would light up the room when you start telling a story or something you're passionate about. The way your eyes were so warm and inviting, i felt like i could tell you anything and i would never be judged. but you hurt me, over and over, you never really appreciated my love like i did yours.

we have 2 classes together 3 and 4th period. i havent met u in person since we're stuck in virtual learning. i love the way u talk, u have this accent and i would listen to u all day if i could. idk if u even know me in those classes but i catch myself always looking for u. i like u but i want to get to know u more. - idk if this helps but u like the color baby blue

why’d you choose her? we’ve been apart for months now and i still can’t get this out of my mind. there hasn’t been a day where i haven’t thought about you and the future i thought we were going to have. whether you come back or not, i love you endlessly. i always have and i always will.

I'm so thankful I realised that you are not worth my time. You can't keep switching up your feelings. I'm done with you.

honestly i don't even know how could hurt hurt me this bad, i thought you were the one, the one who was going to make me happy again.I was wrong i should've seen this coming haha... all i want to say is FUCK YOU FUCK YOU I HATE YOU

I honestly thought we were meant to be. Um, I guess it was just me though. It's been a few months now and I hope you're doing well. You're going to make it far in life and I know it. Although we weren't meant to be maybe I'll meet you in another universe. I know we will because I've never had good conversations with someone like that. I must've met you in my past life since we got along well. Well, at least I thought we did.

there is so much i wish i could say to you. you made me feel things i didn't know were possible. i still think about you. something in the back of my head tells me to text you, but i don't. i can't. there was a part of me that hoped we got back together. that text you sent after not having talked in a long time made me happy. that was over a year ago and now all we do is look at each others social media feeds. i hope life is treating you well. sometimes i get this reoccurring thought that you were my right person at the wrong time. other times i wonder if we'll ever talk again. you'll always be my first love even though i may not be yours. bye.

I wish I could forget about you.. I wish you would get out of my head, dreams, and life.. please leave

Sometimes I wonder if friends is all well ever actually be. This is our happy color, I love you and cant wait till your mine again.

you were the sunshine on rainy days. i’m missing that piece and i’m incomplete without you. i miss & love you

i miss you. i miss your smile. i miss laying with you. you taught me real love. i’m still in love with you.

I wish you cared about me the way I cared about you. Hope one day you can truly fall in love with someone.

When u left me, you left me with words of hope that have caused me to never stop loving you. And youre with someone else now and im over here still hoping that one day you’d call and say you want me back. Its silly to think that you’d ever fight for us when you never did.

You were the first guy I really liked but then you dated my best friend then dated me and now I realize that wasn't a good idea looking back at it but I miss you and how much you made me laugh

ur w syd now, it took me time to get over u but i finally did and im so happy now. i hope ur happy too

How can you blame me for not loving you back anymore? it makes me cry, cry so much my eyes were sore. please forgive me joseph

You brought on all the problems going on in your life yourself. It’s not hard to not be a shitty person

I get nightmares from what you did to me. But I still need you to call for closure no matter how pathetic that is

I wish that you knew who this was. I love when you talk to me about basketball and how your face lights up when I text you back. I genuinely like you so so so much but I will never be able to tell you. You have made me so so happy in the past few months we've been talking and I couldn't imagine life without you. I love when you make fun of me haha ur so adorable. A lot of my friends dont think you are cute but that's on them. You have truly taught me confidence and how to truly love myself and I will forever thank you for that. anyways if ur seeing this please text me.

Third times a charm. The. First love is a root the second is a lesson and the third is the best and the last. It’s been a short time together but I love you with all my heart you are the best thing to ever happen to me. Please never leave me

Hey, I should have told you I was in love with you but you probably already knew it. I'm glad that I've moved on now because I was in so much pain for too long and I was putting myself through it. But at the same time, you didn't do anything to stop the pain you were putting me through. You knew I'd do anything for you and you took advantage of that. But I still wish we could talk like we used to.

all the other times we tried were just never the same. but thank you for trying and thinking that i was worth it. please take care of yourself, my baby. c

im ready when you are
let’s try it
it will be everything we have ever wanted and more
i always wondered what peach flavoured ice cream taste like!

I have tried so, so hard, but I just can’t stop missing you. I see you in my dreams & I wake up feeling empty.

ur my best friend and i love you but im in love with you and you have no idea. I don't want to ruin our friendship considering we have been friends since we were three. I think about you all the time and sometimes i think you like me back but who know lol byee

I miss you, member when I use to call you buddy? lol I wish I didnt ruin everything the way I did, there was a lot of things I shouldve told you but I didnt and Im sorry, if you ever see this please message me, Id like to hear from you one more time. I still have my old ig too, so Ill see it. I would message you but I doubt you'd read it and you probably don't care to hear from me anyway. Hope you graduated like you said you would, hope your life is everything you wanted, although I wish I could've been in it just a lil longer. Stay safe :)

I don’t know if you really meant to say it or not...but me too. It seems really soon to think that, but honestly, it feels right.

dude u actually made me feel something in a really long time, you didn’t know what i was going through but jesus christ, u were there for me unintentionall. You made me feel so special, i still think about you..sometimes i wonder if u think about me too because how could u forget about me so fast after everything we did together in a short amount a time

i'm sorry i can't help you through whatever it is that is going on in your head, i love but i had to leave so you could get better. And never forget that i'll see you again. I love you.

Hey. Wow. I don't even know where to start . I had the biggest crush on you in year 6 for a whole year . But then u dated another girl. A prettier and smarter girl.

The way you cut me off without telling me why only shows that you are a horrible human being.
I'm so glad I started dating him and got over you. You act like he isn't a real man because he doesn't try to be masculine, but he is ten times the man you'll ever be.

I loved you, and not in the platonic way you loved me. You don't know how much you broke me when you just left me hanging. I would've dropped my whole world for you. It stings to know how easily you could live without me.

you told me you guys were just best friends and that i didn't have to worry about her. You know what you did and you know you hurt me. I really though I meant something to you, but i guess not.

A part of me still misses you, but you taught me that when someone stops loving you let them go. This is your favorite color, I still remember.

I'm SO in love with you but I know you don't feel the same or even care that much. I know a lot more than you think about what you've done to hurt me behind my back. I care about you SO much. You're all I ever think about. You're always on my mind 24/7. I will always be here for you no matter what happens. I love you. :/

we arent broken up but i feel it will happen soon. i feel like u dont love me anymore and ur only waiting until u leave for college. i wish u would just tell me how u rlly feel. I had this same feeling not long ago when we took a break for awhile. so i know my intuition isnt wrong.

Ik we didnt talk in while but I really miss you and i hope you miss me to hope you doing good and im always here for you

i wish i had realized sooner that i was so deeply in love with you. you made me feel alive and happy whenever i was around you. we never fought or argued. you were always there for me when i needed you. you held me while i cried. even when i was being a bitch, you still made me feel special and important. never once did you ever make me feel like i didn’t matter. now, you have a girlfriend and i have to watch you love her while i’m in love with you. i should’ve realized i liked you months ago, but i didn’t. that’s on me. i promise to always be here and always love you regardless of where life takes us. you’re my best friend, and no matter what we are, you will always be my number one. i love you.

Dear Joseph,
You broke my heart. You told me u liked me but u weren't ready so I waited. Then u chose her over me and it hurts more that u couldn't just tell me you didn't want me. I don't think you liked me I think you just liked the thought of me always being there for you.

I understand you need time to find yourself, but I wish you knew how much I needed you during this time in my life. I hope you come back, but I also hope the girl you love isn't dead by the time you get to her. I'm scared it will be too late for me and I won't be able to feel anymore. I'm sorry.

Hey I’m sorry for what I did before even though you said it was fine I still think about it today just know that I will always love you even if that means that that we’re not friends. I’m sorry I really am. I miss that smile on the phone everyday I miss how you were with me before.

i feel like you’re an asshole at times but i can’t accept that because i’m caught up on who you used to be.

i hate how you come into my life and leave again and again. i hate it even more that i hope you text me again. you were right i wasn't over it. i still think about you and i hate that. but i deserve better

I miss you . I hope you are okay . I know we haven't spoken and that's okay . I think about you all the time . I miss being held by you . I want you to come back but that's selfish of me . I do hope you're having an amazing time. But i really miss you . & sometimes i wish you'd just come to my house & surprise me :) but i know why it can't happen. I miss u so much though . :(

I know you’re no longer here, but if you knew how much I loved you, would you have ever left. I think about you everyday.

There will always be a part of me that remembers you because you were my life for 4 years and you didn’t even know it

im going to miss u so much u have no idea . theres so much i want to say but i wont . bc i know it'll be ok . i know you'll be ok . im just going to miss us . lots . x

you make me feel safe and happy, like i can actually be myself around you. i appreciate everything you've done for me. you've been there for me even when i thought i had no one. you're the most amazing person i've ever met.

i’m sorry for how i ended it upsets me that we aren’t friends now i hope that one day you would learn to forgive me but please remember you were just as bad as me

My love for you is so beautiful and pure. You make me a good person. But I can’t make you love me back, so you’ll always be my bestfriend, as much as it hurts.