I hate you. I hate you so much. I hate how you left me and mom, I hate how you'd always argue with me about whether or not someone race matters or not. (it doesn't)

we’ve come so far yet it’s hasn’t been far enough, i don’t want to let you go but i am.. you hurt me in ways i can’t even describe so it’s time to let go...

I exposed myself to you. It was stupid of me, I know. But you made me feel special, and apparently other girls as well.

Fuck you for telling hiding me. For pressuring me when I said no. For lying to me. But fuck you, for letting me go so easily.

Fuck you, fuck you. You ruined two years of my life all because you thought I had a nice enough body to fuck. You never loved me, but I ruined a huge chunk of me just to not even be good enough for you.

i love you sm it isnt funny. you might not back but its okay. i would wait till the end of time for you. you made me so happy ever since the first day i met you despite the problems we had. you just made me a mf fat simp.

i look for you in every guy i try to find, i guess that’s why i cant find anyone anymore. i miss you and i hope you are doing well.

jason i love you so much. you make me the happiest girl in the world. the love i have for you is out of this world. you mean so much to me. i love you baby

I constantly listen to Eden and just break down. I cannot even begin to express how much there is to tell you. I don't even know if you are aware of this whole website. But, yeah.

jason yi. ill never stop loving you. thank you for being there for me. i wish things had gone different.

Sometimes I wish you knew just how much I cared about you. I also wish you knew how badly it hurt me to hear to talk about the crushes you had on my friends or talk to me about other girls you liked. I don’t hate you bc I know you’d never realize bc I never spoke up. I hope you’re happy but I’ve finally let go of you.

jason i miss you.. you broke me really badly, but i would still be yours again. i know its best we go our seperate ways. but i miss you.

you touched something in me no one ever has. a part of me i didn't even know existed. i knew you weren't the right person but you meant the world to me. you were exciting and new but you broke my heart

I’ve learned that I don’t love you anymore, I’m in love with the old you. I hope you hold onto a part of the person you used to be.

Miss you so much.
Sorry for leaving but I doubt u even wanna talk to me now.
-the girl u made stories with.

I've come to the conclusion that I'll always love you, even if you don't love me. I hope you're happy, genuinely.

You've never had stability in your life and you told me you wanted it to be me. Did you find it in her now?

I saw your profile pop up on Hinge... it broke my heart seeing you move on, but I know its for the best. I hope you're happy, you deserve it.

hi jason, idk if u actually go on this website, but I just wanted to say hi again. we don’t talk anymore at all. but I know u have a gf and I’m in the back in ur mind. ofc. idk something in me just really wants to text you again. you probably didn’t think feelings were mutual. so if u think u know who this is, write back to me with my name and this :p

tomorrow will be my 1 year self harm clean streak and i couldnt have done this without you. but that sucks. because i wish i wouldve been able to do this without you. i miss you j

I don't think you'll ever understand how much I actually love you. I hate how you led me on for so long. Not a day goes by that I dont think of you. I truly do hope you're happy and doing well. I always tried to check on you because I know deep down you always struggled w things, but I think you've found a new girl to help you w that. I hope it works out for you. Thank you for being one of the many lessons I needed to learn in life.

I hate you. But I can't let go of you because I've depend on you now. I wish I could just tell you to just leave but I know I'd fall into a depressive episode just like the one from a few months ago.

You taught me a lesson and i learned but next time give me a hint when you just gonna leave just to let you know there’s still room in my heart if you ever wanna come back Jason imy I miss you a tun I just wish I could’ve hug you tighter knowing would never hug you again

even tho you were fckin mean to me to me and playing with my feelings, i still love you even after almost 2 years. i don't think i could ever stop loving you. i wish you could've give me a chance. i love you forever.

its been almost 2 years since i first saw you and i don't think i could ever stop loving you. i wish you could've give me a chance. i love you forever.

i never thought you would be the one to end things. but you still did and i will never understand why. at first i really wanted you to explain everything but now i'm glad you didn't. i want you to know that you hurted me the most and yes, my heart has cracks but you don't have the power to break it. everyday i think about you a little less and i can't wait for the day i forget you completely.
fuck you :)
(ps: i'm so happy we never had sex because i would regret it too much)

Hey, I know that you probably hate me, and I don't blame you. I just wanted to tell you that I really miss you. I always think about you 24/7. You're always the first thing that I think about when I wake un in the morning. I know that you probably don't believe me but I still love you will all my heart. And I know that my actions didn't prove that to you but I was just confused at the time. I wasn't sure what I was doing. I wasn't in a good mind set. I had a lot of things going on and it was so unexpected. I would go back to the day and redo it. I'm so sorry for hurting you. I hate myself for that and I don't think I could ever forgive myself for that. I really miss our conversations and the way that you would always joke about stupid things. I keep looking back at our messages, pictures, and videos. I really miss what we had even when we were friends. And it's going to suck when I see you again because I'll probably cry right in front of you since we have the same friend group. Ones again I really miss you and I feel so stupid for hutting you. You were everything that I wanted, but I messed it up. Even though we had our ups and downs I'm glad that we fixed things and made the most of our relationship. You know I don't regret anything the night at formal. That was the best decision I ever made if I'm being honest with you. You probably regret telling me that you liked me because you told me that you thought I was gong to to hurt you and I did. I am soooo sorry Jason. I'm sorry that I wasn't the best girlfriend ever. Even though at times you made me feel like complete shit and so insecure I still love you. I can't believe it took me so long to tell you those three words. I really did mean it when I told you the last time I saw you. I saw the big smile that you had on your face. You looked so happy when I told you that I still remember how happy you look. I always smile like an idiot. I hate you for leading me on that whole week when we started to talk again. You bright my hopes up wayyyy to much and I hate you for it. I really just wanted to earn your trust again. But if you really did truly "love" me then wouldn't you have fixed things with me? I don't understand how you seemed to not care at all. You seemed so fine with leaving me. I'm scared to get back into a relationship now. And I know ones that day comes of you dating someone else it will crush me. And I also know that if I move on you still still be my first love. I wish you the best and I hope that later on we can fix things and talk ones again. I love you and forever and always will.

I love you so much. That's all I've ever wanted to tell you. You have the most beautiful soul of anyone I have ever met. I love you with all my heart. I can't imagine life without you, you mean the world to me.

i was never okay and you made it worse by telling me that it wasn’t a big deal, i wish you understood

I never left.. I am still your girl.
I will always love you and be by your side even if I am not physically there, I’ll be there for you.

last night i had a dream about some boy, a boy that didn't exist. i met him at a party or a wedding or something like that, and we walked and talked together. we got back to his house and talked some more. when i had to leave the party, i knew i wouldn't ever see him again. so i hugged him so tight and we slow danced together and in that moment i knew that we loved each other so much. i loved that boy more than anything and i had just met him a little while earlier. i could physically feel the love he had for me while he held me. that was the happiest i had ever been.
i wish i was always sleeping, always dreaming, just because of that boy. i hope he comes back. because what you and i have is nothing near what i felt while i was dreaming about some boy i had never met before. i didn't even know his name.

You make me imagine a future with you. I distract myself from the thought of you but all it takes is one message for my mind to go wondering into the bliss again. Then it takes one message to be left on read for my mind to wish I never got your message to begin with. You confuse me more than anyone, I love but hate it. I just want to talk to you more, I feel like I’m missing a part of myself but you’re as never apart of me to begin with. I can never tell if you feel the same, I love but hate it

i wish things were different and we could go back to how things were...
i still love you, but you don't love me

hey. sorry for writing all my songs about you. but you know what hurts more than rejection? knowing i never had a chance in the first place.

I know I shouldn’t have let you touch me while you have a girlfriend. I knew it was wrong but I just couldn’t help myself. I just wanted to touch you and feel your skin and I don’t fucking regret it. I just want you to be mine but you love your girlfriend.

te quiero mucho
te amo tanto tanto! thank u for always taking care of me and being so kind and patient with me. i'll always love you!! even when we start to get old, wrinkly, and smelly !!

i love you so much it scares me
which sounds like such a cliche thing to say but sometimes i doubt that someone as amazing as you loves me
youre my soulmate

i love you, every little thing about you. i love your smile, your laugh, the names you call me, the songs you'd tell me to listen to. god, i'm so in love

my love for you was one i had never felt before. it was the kind of love the consumed my body every time i thought about you. the kind of love that even though we have had more bad days than good days all I can think about is the good days. the kind you see in poetry that makes you fall in love with that person too. but, you never could love me back and i blame myself for that. i might have never loved myself but i sure as hell love you.

You exhaust me. Being your friend is so exhausting because I don’t see you as my friend. And that’s the problem because you only will ever see me as your friend.

best friends or more, you were the first boy who told me he loved me... a part of me still loves you too

It’s been a while since we talked. And it was only an online relationship. But I still can’t stop thinking about the biggest lie I told you. And that you deserve to know. But we both have moved on in life, and I feel like you don’t think about me. But I sometimes think about you, even if it has been 2 years. I’m sorry.

It’s officially what would have been our 8 year anniversary. Crazy. Y’know, I do still miss you. I’m happy where I’m at, but I miss you sometimes. I see you post about our dog and it makes me smile and tear up. I miss her too. I hope you’re doing well. I know you probably hate me now, and I don’t blame you. But just know I loved you, hard. When we fell apart it broke me. Nothing is ever the same as that first love, yknow?

I hate how much I like you because it is so much more than you know. In another life, I know it would be you.

Simplemente un dia dejaste de hablarme, no me diste razones, y eso me dolió más. Perdon si me ilusione muy rápido.

i loved you, i really did. and it really fucking hurt to see what you did. even if it was just a small promise, i trusted you. i hope you're happy though. i can never seem to hate you

Its been absolutely ages since we talked but I really miss u ans I’m so sorry for being a dumbass and literally talking about other guys to u-
I’m so sorry I wish I realised sooner that u we’re the one I needed. From R:)

its been 5 days since you said you hated how you've been acting and wanted to make an effort, that you wanted to have what we had before. i haven't heard from you since that night. what do you want from me?

take care of aubrey for me, please. there's going to be a day where i won't be here anymore, tell her im sorry

Thank you for always been so positive and always willing to help, even though i know you didn’t feel the same way i felt about you, you were always so kind to me. thank you