Unsent messages to ISAAC

You will always be my true love. I love you and miss you. The best moments of my life were by your side. I hope you are very happy.

I know now that I was not mature for my age, but you still made me feel loved. Even looking back now, I regret nothing.

Can you imagine if you had told me yes all those years ago? I know I can't but then again who knows. It's silly now because back then I had a bigger chance of getting you then I'll ever have now. I don't even know you but damn do I want you. But I know I only want you because I don't know you. Who are you and could you ever be mine?

I'm in love with you. Every single part of you. Please forgive me if i hurt you, I really didn't mean to. I love you no matter what.

it feels great to see you in front of me again. i missed you tremendously and i finally figured out how to stop being so overly emotional. that being said, i love the vibe we have now. you’re a wonderful friend and a wonderful person to spend time with. thank you Isaac.

Love,

L

i still love you but im not in love with you anymore and it took awhile, so please stop texting me it was ur 1 yr 2 days ago

i remember when you stayed on call with me late night while i was asleep because you didn't wanna leave me.

why did you have to change? why do you have to be a mere memory to me when we could have lasted forever?

no one has ever hurt me the way you have. i’ve moved on from you, but the memories still linger. part of me will always love you no matter how much i say i hate you. you meant the world to me. i hope you’re doing okay. i miss you sometimes.

I wish we can be together because I love you so much but it wouldn’t happen because I’m so scared of what others are going to say to me. I’m sorry.

I remember that night we sat under the stars and you told me you think were bound to be together, even if we split we’d go back to eachother. I love every detail about you, the good and the bad. I wonder why it wasn’t enough for you. But you’ll always be my love.

The saddest part is that you'll always go back to her, no matter what you say. And you don't even know how I feel.

we must have been in love in another lifetime because the connection we had was unmatched by anything I have ever had

I really dont understand what happened between us. as quickly as you came into my life you left. and for what reason? I just want to know what it was, because I know we has chemistry, I know there was something more there, a connection like no other, you even said it yourself. Yet a month after you left you got a girlfriend. In such little time, am I that easy to replace. Like please tell me I am not romanticizing what we had.

for the first time in months, i can finally say I’m free from your grasp. you are in no control of my emotions. i’m proud of myself.

I really don´t know why i agree to say yes to you even if i knew my friend was in love with you since she was a little girl ,that day was one of the most HORRIBLES day in my life beacuse everyone was saying i was a slut and many things more and i remeber crying at school , even that week!! we were "Girlfriend and Boyfriend" it didn´t feel like that because you were always with my friend , and then you din´t have the balls to "break my heart" in my face and you send one of my friends to tell me that you were breaking up with me and that you were in a relationship with my friend , so yeah be more man with your other girlfriends!!!!!

i really miss what we had. even if we werent together, you meant everything to me and you still do. you helped me a lot and it makes me sad that things will never be the same again.

here i go writing on this site, because i have no one else to talk to about you, because everyone thinks that its probably stupid what i feel about you. yeah, maybe they are right, we never met and we were just talking online..but you made me feel things ive never felt with anyone before. you messaged when i was in one of the lowest points in my life and as we started talking and getting to know each other better, you made me feel like that maybe im actually worth something. that maybe im not just a worthless piece of shit, that im actually worth something, that you care about everything i have to say because you always made me feel like that and with this feeling i got completely comfortable with you. you always reassured me when i needed it that im not annoying, im not being a burden and i can talk to you about anything. and now... i dont have any of that and i miss it so fucking much. i miss how you always told me how amazing i was, because i never told you but you made me feel better about myself, i started believing you that yeah,maybe hes right, maybe im not that horrible as my brain is telling me. i miss how we talked about the things we are going to do when we meet, how we will never let go of each other, how we will always make sure the other knows that they are important to us, how we want to make each other happy.. i miss all those things so fucking much and the saddest thing about this? its that, i know that i will never have that again, you have her and i can surely say that shes the luckiest person on this earth for having someone so wonderful like you. i dont know why im still hoping, when i know that "we" will never happen. i think that i will never meet anyone like you, you made me feel something ive never felt, you made me feel safe and comfortable around you. you felt like home :) and now i feel like im homeless.

I wish I could see you again. Just so you can see the version me that finally doesn't want you anymore.

you were curious
and kind
and mysterious the way you held that smug look on your face
like you knew everything about me
like you somehow knew you were capable of destroying me

La verdad solo quería que me insistieras para ver si todavía te importaba y no que te dieras por vencido cuando lo nuestro acabo, te deseo lo mejor porque es lo que merece alguien como tu

i wish i had the chance to tell you how much your beautiful blue eyes lit up my day. but someone else got the chance to get lost in them. lucky girl.

hi :) i don't know how to start this. Ok, first you are a very good person and i really like your personality. You have been my confident for the past two months and i appreciate that. But there is something that i didn't tell you about. I have a huge crush on you. And i know that you still love your ex but it hurt to see you sad because she doesn't have feelings for you anymore. I just want to see you happy with me.

i cant stand you at all. idk why i ever liked you. its a chore to look at you and i never want to see you again.

The way I try to convince myself I’m over you and that it was just a stupid middle school crush but I always find myself daydreaming about things I wish I could be doing with you but idk our personalities just don’t match and it’s so frustrating and I hate myself for being so extroverted in comparison to you but I guess I’m grateful for the occasional late night calls however they always end so abruptly and I hate the way I converse w you it’s infuriating i wish I could appeal to you more it’s so embarrassing.

Why did you say you had feelings for me? You played me like a fiddle. Why wasn't I enough for you? Please treat her good. Don't cheat on anyone else. I love you always will you're my first love but I will love myself more now

i met you in grade 2 and 3. we became best friends in grade 4 and wed always hang out. so fun. im in love with you lol

No se lo que fuiste . Pero me obsesionaste tanto. Que cambiaron muchas cosas en mi vida por tu culpa . Deje tantas cosas por ti . Y tu no me diste absolutamente nada . Cuando decias que me querias . Lo decias enserio ?

i wish things worked out better. that you and i were against the world yet with each other. but the toxic vibes fuming around us pulled you and i apart. wish you the best in life. i love you

Why'd you leave me when I needed you the most. We could of talked about our problems together but you just decided to leave me on read. I don't love you the way I used to anymore, but I still miss your company, even though your ''what ifs' annoyed the shit out of me. I hope things go well you for you and I hope one day you see the light in your world like how you showed me it at some point :)

I wish we stayed. I was always so happy. Yet I always overthink about if you even feel the same. Sometimes I think about you and it just brings me back to a time I don’t even think of myself as me. Gosh I miss you yet you caused sm stuff.

Hey, I hope your doing well. Please keep in mind that I love you and you are super valid to me. Thanks for keeping me up every night texting you for the past couple for months. I hope our friendship lasts! Ilysm

i miss you. i shouldn’t but i do. you made me smile, cry ect. i’ll always wish you the best. and have love for you.

Hey baby I love you. You’re my sunlight and moonlight. I love you more than the stars in the night sky. Je t’amie perdant

Why did you pick her? Why was I not good enough? I gave you everything and it still hurts. I Constantly say I'm over you and I really wish that was true, you are such an asshole and yet I still miss you. I wish you would at least talk to me or explain, but you just left. I hate you and I hate her, but i know i shouldn't.

Everyday I think about why you were so caught up on her. I wouldn't eat, hoping maybe i'd have a body like hers

I thought you liked me but I guess I was wrong. I wish I would've known sooner before I wasted two years liking you. I might still like you but I honestly don't know why

i just want to tell you how happy you made me. you made me the happiest person these last two years have been filled with nothing but memories. all the talks at two in the morning over life, all the inside jokes, all the laughs we had are now the memories i now cherish. i absolutely hate how we ended, i should have told you how i felt from the beginning maybe we could have been something. but i hope you know the impact you had in my life. these last two years have been the best/worst. i thought i found my soulmate but let you slip away from me. i’m sorry. i’m sorry for giving mixed signals, i’m sorry for not communicating with you. i’m sorry. i know you don’t give an absolute shit about me but just know i still and will forever care about you no matter what.
last i hope she makes you happy. i hope she gives you the love i never had a chance to give you. i hope she makes you laugh and never makes you sad. it’s time for me to move on i can’t be living with the illusion that one day just maybe one day we could be something. goodbye.

hey even though i ended things between us and you got mad i still wanted to be friends but you didn't want too but it wasn't so easy to do that to your ex when we were together but it was is easy for you to cut me off. Even though you wouldn't talk to me for 3 days straight or leave me on delivered or read. But i always. Heard from others that you would talk to other girls. But ill be honest i still always think of you even when you're gone. And i still will

Im so fucking sorry like more than you can imagine, IM SORRY I LIVE WITH REGRET EVERY FUCKING DAY, BREAKING UP WITH YOU WAS THE MOST STUPIDEST SHIT I HAVE EVER DONE.AND AFTER 3 YEARS I REALISED I NEED YOU IN MY SHITTY LONELY FUCKING LIFE.

I was so in love with you, it took me 2 years to get over you now I'm in love with the fact I don't love you. i finally got my life back

I wish I could tell you how much I love you and how badly I want you in my arms but I'm too scared to lose you and scare you off..

Fuiste mi primera ilusión , te quise hasta decir basta y me hice daño a mi misma.Hasta llorar todas las noches sin sentido y pedir a Dios que quitará el dolor que sentía mi corazón.

I love you. I love you and I know you dont love me back and that hurts. The pain I go through everyday is gut renching. I wish you would understand how much you mean to me.

i really loved you. and you didn’t love me back. it was always her. and I just sat here watching from a distance wishing that was me. but I know it never would be. you’d never love me. it’s always gonna be her. You’re never gonna stop going back to her. I can guarantee i love you so much more than her. but you don’t even realize. why am I not good enough? why is it always her?

You confused me. You made me think what we had was love. But in reality your feelings for me were lustful and you used me to fulfill your sexual desires.

i ruined my sleep schedule just to stay up till 6am waiting for you to text me...but you never did...i hope im not a stranger.

I miss you. There’s not a day that goes by where I don’t think about you, but you don’t care. You never did. I will always be here for you though. If you ever need me, I’m one text away.

We have barely even spoken before but i love you. Your personality, your everything. I just want to be there for you. If i i ever saw tears falling from your pretty blue eyes, i would cry too. You are perfect, you really are. I love you, but you dont feel the same.

my first love. the one person who could make me smile no matter what. you knew exactly how to break me.