Now that I look back I can see that you were the toxic one not me but just because I know that doesn't mean I don't get scared everytime I fall in love that I'm gonna end up hurting them

Everyday I think about why you were so caught up on her. I wouldn't eat, hoping maybe i'd have a body like hers

I'm not sure who needs to read this. Perhaps someone named Isaac looking for a message about themselves or someone who just delivered a message to an Isaac. The possibilities are really endless. Take this as a sign, whoever you really love or like even if it feels like just a small amount please tell them how you feel. Or start a conversation with them as simple as a 'hello'. It could change your world and possibly theirs and it'll work out and if it doesn't then at least you can say you tried it. Trust me it'll be okay :) don't live with what-ifs and regrets you deserve more. Drop any relationships that aren't serving you, and let go of toxic people and past relationships.
It's yellow for hope

Why did you pick her? Why was I not good enough? I gave you everything and it still hurts. I Constantly say I'm over you and I really wish that was true, you are such an asshole and yet I still miss you. I wish you would at least talk to me or explain, but you just left. I hate you and I hate her, but i know i shouldn't.

I still think about you lots. Although things didn't work between us I hope you know how much you mean to me

I’m undecided about you again. I only started thinking about you when the pandemic started since that’s when I started feeling alone. I already sent you an apology and you did the same, but I still feel empty. You even admitted that you never really liked me and only played with my emotions for fun, but maybe it’s the helpless romantic in me hoping for a start at something. I even learned guitar because of you. You mean everything to me. Anger, joy, lust, pain, pleasure, torture. I know you will never think about me the way I do of you. Thank you.

The saddest part is that you'll always go back to her, no matter what you say. And you don't even know how I feel.

Hola, sé que no verás esto, pero necesito desahogarme.
Vale por dónde empiezo...eres la única persona que he amado, y creo que serás la última, la verdad, me has hecho demasiado daño, nunca tuvimos nada por mi culpa, era una tonta en ese entonces, pero sabes perfectamente que yo te quería mas que a mi vida. La pregunta es, ¿por qué me mentiste? Digo...cada vez que te decía de ser algo, tú me decías que no estabas listo para relaciones y a la semana siguiente, ya te veía con otra persona. Estuve 11 meses llorando por ti, todas las malditas noches, y aun sigo, esperando a que vuelvas, pero quiero que sepas una cosa, no te odio, has sido una persona muy importante para mí y espero que con ella seas feliz, lo que conmigo no fuiste. Te quiero y te querré siempre. a.c.r

I remember that night we sat under the stars and you told me you think were bound to be together, even if we split we’d go back to eachother. I love every detail about you, the good and the bad. I wonder why it wasn’t enough for you. But you’ll always be my love.

hey we never dated but I'm over you and I hope your happy cuz even though you hurt me idc cuz I'm dummy thicc now IM CACKLING AT THE PAST :D and guess what u did miss out on all this juicyness!!! no but fr if you find this text me lmaaooo lms

i’m sorry for everything. it’s been over a year now and everyday i miss you more and more. what hurts the most is that it was my fault. i wish you could see how much i’ve grown and how much i’ve achieved but i know that your not even thinking about me. it hurts so much

I have loved you forever and I don’t think I will ever stop. No matter what I am always thinking of you. We’re in this forever no matter who we meet or what we do. It will always be us. I love you.

you’re my soulmate. thank you for saving me. wherever life takes us, you’re always my forever. you taught me to love myself and i am forever grateful.

Hey baby I love you. You’re my sunlight and moonlight. I love you more than the stars in the night sky. Je t’amie perdant

i miss you. i shouldn’t but i do. you made me smile, cry ect. i’ll always wish you the best. and have love for you.

La verdad solo quería que me insistieras para ver si todavía te importaba y no que te dieras por vencido cuando lo nuestro acabo, te deseo lo mejor porque es lo que merece alguien como tu

i love you honey. all ive ever wanted for you as long as i can remember is for you to be happy. i wanted to give you my all but that wasn’t enougi

Why'd you have to leave like that. You were the only person I had. You're the love of my miserable life.

I wish we can be together because I love you so much but it wouldn’t happen because I’m so scared of what others are going to say to me. I’m sorry.

Hey, I hope your doing well. Please keep in mind that I love you and you are super valid to me. Thanks for keeping me up every night texting you for the past couple for months. I hope our friendship lasts! Ilysm

i miss you. i don’t know how i messed up but i’m sorry :( i’m sorry i wasn’t good enough and i hope you’re doing good.

You’ll never know nor reciprocate the feelings I have for you. I would do most anything if you asked me to.

Oye, me asusta tanto que sepas como me siento, me asusta tanto que lo sepas y ni siquiera quede una amistad.
Se que no somos nada, se que soy solo yo. Pero quisiera que fueramos todo. Esta es una confesion de amor para aquella persona que nunca sera nada mas que un amigo, por quien me estoy muriendo pero que se quedara en un ojala. Esta es una confesion de amor para esa persona que es perfecta ante mis ojos. Algun dia, cuando pases años de esto, y te vea en la callem tal vez casado, tal vez no, Voy a sonreir y ser feliz por ti, porque a veces por mas que quieres a una persona, puede que el no sienta lo mismo, pero tu sentiste tanto, que el saber que es feliz, sin importar que no sea a tu lado, logra hacerte feliz a ti tambien. Esta es una carta de amor que finaliza con una despedida y un futuro lejos.

Llegaste a mi vida demostrandome malas cosas pero también bonitas verte y estar contigo me motivaba a ser mejor,crei que alguien por fin se habia enamorado de mi risa escandalosa y de mis cambios de humor pero no, tu no te enamoraste fingiste que lo hiciste o eso fue lo que me diste a entender,me diste a entender que tu nunca me quisiste,espero que algun dia llegue alguien que me quiera a mi como yo te quise a ti,cuidate te amo gordis.

I know we’re only in the talking stage, but you’ve shown me more love than any of my ex’s ever did so thank you bebes.

I’m sorry for not treating you right. But we weren’t meant to be. Things don’t always work out as you want it to

you were curious
and kind
and mysterious the way you held that smug look on your face
like you knew everything about me
like you somehow knew you were capable of destroying me

no one has ever hurt me the way you have. i’ve moved on from you, but the memories still linger. part of me will always love you no matter how much i say i hate you. you meant the world to me. i hope you’re doing okay. i miss you sometimes.

la verdad es que solo estuve con vos por lastima y tambíen me sentía precionada .Lamento hacerte creer en cosas que no exitían

hey. remember the promises? remember our plans? you really hurt me isaac. i cant explain how much. but that doesnt mean i dont care abt u. would it have been so hard for you to care abt me? at least once? damn.

I wish I could see you again. Just so you can see the version me that finally doesn't want you anymore.

how sad it is that i write these to you and you will most likely never see them. still, i am used to your silence. How is it that i still replay situations between us that happened so many years ago. I still wonder the reason why you didn't want to be with me. I still don't know if part of you loved me but the idea that you did keeps me going. I would cry if i saw your face again. I want to hug you and never let go. Did you not know how madly in love with you i was? why did you lead me on and ghost me and act like i never existed to you? was i just another person to you? this is what i ask myself all the time. My mind wanders to you constantly. You are so beautiful on the inside and out. i love how authentic you are. Please find your way back to me. If not i will look for you when we die. I know our spirits were meant to interact and i just cant tell why yet.

i sacrificed everything for you. and you repaid me by believing rumors that weren’t true. but became true after you broke me. it’s taken a long long time to fix the damage that you caused. but now that im better i’m afraid to love again. what you did to me was unfair not just to me but to all the other boys that i could’ve loved after you. it’s like as if your on a team. when one person fucks up the whole team suffers. and in this case you fucked up and now all boys that are want to actually be with me and love me have to suffer.

And even though you broke me into a million pieces, i still wouldn’t take back the sacrifices i made for you because you were indeed my first ever love. you were the one who taught me how to love and what love even was and i wouldn’t trade that for the nothing because you made me into the person i am today and i actually kind of dig her. so i guess what i’m trying to say is..... Thank You.

I would stay sober for you. But since you left I had to find something that made me feel again. You’re my drug. Come back home.

why did you have to change? why do you have to be a mere memory to me when we could have lasted forever?

i remember when you stayed on call with me late night while i was asleep because you didn't wanna leave me.

i know i couldn’t have you if i wanted you. i wish you’d feel the same way. All i do is dream about you.

all this time i kept hoping that you and i would get back together because of the connection we had and all the memories we made together saying i was that person for you but now you’re with someone else and it hurts because i’m probably not even a thought in your head anymore while i still think about you and what our relationship would’ve been like if it wasn’t for quarantine i still hope we can get back together in the future you were everything i ever wanted and needed and now i compare other guys to you hoping i can have the same thing we had because i don’t want to end up in another toxic relationship and get used you really made me think that we were going to be together for a while but ig good things have to come to an end i don’t hate you because you were honest with me up until the end of our relationship and i’m grateful for that i’ll always remember the memories we made and always be thankful that i was with a guy like you

itsfunnytmehow youcaredso much and took interest in things and suddenly stopped bc u suddenly sawmeas a friend

It would be sad to see with someone else. I think if I lived closer it would be different. But I’m glad you got over me. Now it’s my turn.

My world without you is shattered. I hope we will meet again my love. But for now, I love you forever and always.

I don't know why I am doing this. To be honest, I feel kind of silly. But, I have been writing to you in my notes ever since you left, and I think deep down I want you to see this. But, you won't. I loved you, Isaac. Shit, sometimes I think I still love you. And I don't know why. What we had was unmatched. Sure, there was some toxicity, but we were so passionate and so consumed with one another. Well, that's what I thought at least. Until we were laying in your bed and I asked what was wrong and you left me. You said so many things that absolutely broke me. And when you tried to come back, there was nothing I wanted more than you. I couldn't though, not after what you said. And then you said so many terrible, untrue things about me. I promise I never cheated on you. I never even looked at any other guys. Ever. I didn't want to. You made me so fucking happy and everybody tells me I'm just romanticizing you, but I don't know. I can't be with anybody else, still. I try and I try and something is holding me back. My friends say I'm silly and you were just toxic. But, if I'm being honest, I still think of you everyday. I still think of you every time my head hits the pillow. I pray for you and your entire family. Every. Single. Night. And I always wonder if you think about me, or if you regret what you did. You were so angry toward me. My parents always told me there's a thin line between love and hate so I held on hope that was what was happening. But, I think you always forgot the fact that YOU left ME. I just know I never would have left. I wish I got some kind of closure, because the way we ended drives me fucking crazy. It never made sense to me; it felt so sudden. I just wish I could tell you that I did put 110% of me into you. I promise you that. I just wanted you to feel happy and loved. I have so much love in my heart and there was nothing I wanted more than to give it all to you. My heart still drops every time I see you. I pick up every random phone call with the idiotic hope it is you calling. I still have your letter, I used to carry it in my wallet every day. My friends yelled at me for it, though. I don't know what is wrong with me lol. Regardless of how bad you broke me, I still love you. And I am so fucking proud of you and happy for you. And you should be proud of yourself. You are so intelligent and you have such a bright fucking future. I hate you for what you did to me, but I love you so so so so much. I really do hope you are happy.

It’s not fucking fair for you to text me a year later and say you are mad that you broke up with me it’s almost been 2yrs and I’m still not over you

i really loved you. and you didn’t love me back. it was always her. and I just sat here watching from a distance wishing that was me. but I know it never would be. you’d never love me. it’s always gonna be her. You’re never gonna stop going back to her. I can guarantee i love you so much more than her. but you don’t even realize. why am I not good enough? why is it always her?

I love you. I love you and I know you dont love me back and that hurts. The pain I go through everyday is gut renching. I wish you would understand how much you mean to me.

i still love you but im not in love with you anymore and it took awhile, so please stop texting me it was ur 1 yr 2 days ago

I think ur the first one to actually be good for me, I don't know yet but I'm excited to find out. can't wait until then

You poor hollow boy. I can’t give you anymore pieces of me to fill your void. It would destroy us both.

it feels great to see you in front of me again. i missed you tremendously and i finally figured out how to stop being so overly emotional. that being said, i love the vibe we have now. you’re a wonderful friend and a wonderful person to spend time with. thank you Isaac.

Love,

L

here i go writing on this site, because i have no one else to talk to about you, because everyone thinks that its probably stupid what i feel about you. yeah, maybe they are right, we never met and we were just talking online..but you made me feel things ive never felt with anyone before. you messaged when i was in one of the lowest points in my life and as we started talking and getting to know each other better, you made me feel like that maybe im actually worth something. that maybe im not just a worthless piece of shit, that im actually worth something, that you care about everything i have to say because you always made me feel like that and with this feeling i got completely comfortable with you. you always reassured me when i needed it that im not annoying, im not being a burden and i can talk to you about anything. and now... i dont have any of that and i miss it so fucking much. i miss how you always told me how amazing i was, because i never told you but you made me feel better about myself, i started believing you that yeah,maybe hes right, maybe im not that horrible as my brain is telling me. i miss how we talked about the things we are going to do when we meet, how we will never let go of each other, how we will always make sure the other knows that they are important to us, how we want to make each other happy.. i miss all those things so fucking much and the saddest thing about this? its that, i know that i will never have that again, you have her and i can surely say that shes the luckiest person on this earth for having someone so wonderful like you. i dont know why im still hoping, when i know that "we" will never happen. i think that i will never meet anyone like you, you made me feel something ive never felt, you made me feel safe and comfortable around you. you felt like home :) and now i feel like im homeless.